Please Remember I Love You

I’m sorry I’m not as strong as you
I’m sorry I’m not as brave as you
I’m sorry I didn’t save you
I’m sorry I couldn’t forget you

I was the one who told mum we had to move house
I didn’t want sad memories

I was the one who tried to kill myself
I wanted to join you, but I failed

I was the one who found your body
Maybe if I was earlier you would still be alive

I was the one who slept with you pillow at night
I wanted to pretend you were with me

I confess it was me
Every little prayer at night
Every little whisper
It was me

I made us move home
I changed schools
I made new friends
I tried to move on

I failed