Riverside Girl

I haven't seen Travy in a while we texted almost every day since I seen him its been a 3 weeks I didn't want to seem annoying so I stopped asking when I was going to see him he just kept telling me he was busy finishing up the album he just had writers block on the last few songs I didn't mind he did have his own life I wasn't going to be up his ass I wasn't that type of girl I was on my way to the strip club I dreaded this place I was better than this but the money was amazing and I could not complain as long as I'm not having sex with these nasty ass men I would golden in my book Madelyn was working this shift with me thank god I had someone to dread this day with as we sat in the locker room til it was our turn to go I asked how her and tony have been doing she got all giggly she said they were good its been about like 2 months since they first met and they've been doing amazing inseparable those two were it was cute I asked her if she Travis around she said kinda and that there was rumors going around saying hes with a new girl and shit I just looked surprised but in reality it kinda hurt I mean I know we weren't a couple or anything or even an item it just sucked cause I thought we had a good thing going my mood worsen as I kept thinking about it who could this girl be? does he like her? wonder how long he's been with her probably kept me quiet I was so into my thoughts I didn't hear the body guard knocking at the door telling me it was 5 mins til I go on I used my time wisely to take out my pipe pack couple bowls and smoke my stress away everything about today pissed me off I wanted to find out what the fuck was going on then I had to go on stage I sighed out loud and made my way to the stripping pole drake's practice came on and me and Madelyn started dancing on the poles I started sliding down and doing splits and flips in the air as the guys threw their cash on the stage boom my top went off I walked on the stage and started shaking my ass as guys were putting hundreds in my thong after the song ended I picked up my money and brought it in the dressing room to change into my other outfits and count my money and to text travis..



I admit I was fucking up I kinda got back into contact with my ex and some of the feelings came rushing back and I thought I would try it once more but to be honest I really didn't want it I was just forced into it because she was beyond sad I hate seeing girls upset she would talk about how she thought of killing herself and doing self harm I was basically guilt tripped into this situation I mean the sex was still good as I remembered but the fights started up again the accusations became more outrages she thought I was cheating on her and doing everything possible when I was actually trying to make her happy so she wouldn't hurt herself I would just take my time in the studio I had writers block and the stress my girl was giving me didn't help I lit up a joint as I lay on the couch thinking of what I wanna write its easier said then done I have so much going through my mind like how I have to ignore Ashton I really hope she doesn't find out it fucking sucks I really do like her even tho we've only been on one date but thats all it took her personality is just beyond amazing and her body is outstanding I started humming the beat in my head as I wrote down the chorus to the song "You think you're so Hollywood. Diamonds n fancy cars. Everyone thinks you're so Hollywood. But they don't really know who you are. No, not like I do. Hollywood u wanna be a big star" I liked it so far so I kept going then I saw my phone vibrate it was Ashton.. I got the biggest butterflies was almost too scared to read her text it said we need to talk. I want the honest truth.. Is it true?" I sighed out loud and thought about what I was going to say "I wish it wasn't but please just know what I had to do was in my best intentions and I wasn't trying to hurt you I was just put in a situation I could not get out.. Please let me explain in person" I reread what I wrote and sent it to her waiting for her to respond was so fucking nerve racking I started smoking a cigg just to clear my mind it wasnt helping at all so I poked it out and lit up a spliff after 10 mins staring at my phone she finally replies " I expected different from you travis I really did theres no need to explain I won't take up anymore of your time I wish you the best for both of you really I hope the mixtape comes out good take care Travis." damn I replied what she said in my mind couple times to have it sink in I couldn't believe I fucked that up and let her down like I said I wouldn't..FUCK I yelled out loud I needed to get out tonight I texted the boys and asked them what they are doing they said probably hit the strip club and the actual club I was down I asked them if I could tag along I was having a rough week told them I'm meet them at the club I headed home and Maddie was already starting to act up I told her to shut the fuck up and that I was going out she pouted and told me I wasn't I told her she either let me go or I won't come home tonight she decide she would tag along.. ugh this reminds me on why we broke up in the first place I said fine but you better not annoy me today she tried to kiss me and I pushed her away I wasn't feeling it I got up and left to go into the man cave I told her to go get ready if shes coming she got all excited and headed towards the shower almost 2 hours later she comes out I mean Maddie wasn't ugly she was attractive she was covered in tattoos but she was no Ashton I kept smoking to try to clear my thoughts I told Maddie to drive cause I just wanted to get wasted we headed towards the club scene and of course she was by my side the whole time she was too clingy man we got in and I went towards the bar and ordered 3 rounds of drinks to the vip section we were about to get turnt up drinks kept coming for the past 3 hours I couldn't see straight anymore and all I wanted to do was fuck so I went to go look for Maddie she was on the dance floor I quickly made my way towards her she was pretty tispy but stable enough to drive I grabbed her face and started kissing her she wrapped her legs around me my hands were traveling up her dress I told her to meet me in the bathroom in 5 I left and went to talk to the boys about when we were leaving they said in 30 mins or so I had time to fuck her and then bounce I went into the bathroom and she quickly pushed me up to the wall and started making out with me I tugged on her hair while our tongues intertwined I told her to get on her knees and be a good girl and give me head she did so and she started taking every inch of me in her I didn't mind since I was super wasted I moaned while pulling her head down even more to deepthroat me after 10 mins I pulled her up to me kissed her neck made her moan a lil then pushed her dress a lil so I can enter I could feel her drippig through her underwears I pushed them to the side and slowly entered she let out a loud moan this caused me to go in and out of her in a fast pace making her scream my name after about 20 mins she came and then I followed her I kissed her and told her to get off me I went and cleaned myself off the boys were about to head out the club I told Maddie to take my car and go home because me and the boys are gunna go to the studio and just hangout she huffed and puffed I told her to just listen to me she did and left I screamed to the boys lets get this party starter and hit the the strip club we headed out



it was already 12 and I just wanted to go home I've been here mostly all day I'm annoyed and shit with Travis wasnt helping I know I should have let him explain his side of the story but I was just so bad I didn't care what he had to say but he proved himself to be a dickhead just like the other guys who wanted me I shouldn't even be getting mad he's nothing to me ugh I asked the body guard Sam if he could bring me a round of shots he said no problem and I just downed them all wasnt the smartest move I ever made but I just didn't want to feel anything I wanted to be numb I decide to clean myself up and put on my other outfitt cause I was about to go on again I looked at myself in the mirror I stared at my covered body I was looking really good for some reason I got sidetracked with my thoughts I didn't notice Sam came in to get me so I can go on stage I took a deep breath at the guy announced me on stage Wiz Khalifa's Hopes and Dreams I started to dance I grabbed onto the pole and started doing my dance I climbed the pole and did a flip and landed into a split I was working the pole like it was my bitch mainly because I was pretty tispy and drank too fast then I decide to dance on the stage part next to all the guys I see a familiar face in the crowd it was travis.. his eyes made contact with me his eyes got bigger like he knew it was me I broke contact and went back to doing what I was doing guys kept putitng money in my bra and panties it took like what seemed like forever for the song to end and when it did I grabbed my money and clothes and headed towards the dressing room as fast I could I splashed water on my face still in shock of what just happened I heard a knock on the door it was sam telling me I had a visitor I told him it was okay let whoever it was in the 6'3 cover in tattoos boy opened the door and closed it quietly " what do you want travis.. I said in an annoyed tone he cleared his throat and begin to speak "Listen Ashton I didn't want to hurt you honestly you have to believe me it wasn't how I wanted it to go down my ex came back begging for a second chance she told me if I didn't say yes she would kill herself or do something stupid like that I was dragged into it you have to believe me" he said pulling my face to look at him I rolled my eyes " Travis I'm sorry I didn't know but it wasn't fair to just leave me hanging like that..like we had a chance when we really didn't I don't want to be a bitch and I do enjoy spending time with you how about we just stay friends for now and just hangout deal? he had such a sad look in his eyes it broke my heart but its what was best "uggh fine Ashton I rather have you in my life then out of it can I least have a hug?" I agreed and pulled him into a hug I could smell the alcohol on his breath the my favorite scent with a mixture of kush I missed this smell I pulled him close and didnt want to let go he whispered in my ear and told me he missed me it sent shivers down my spine I agreed and said it back he was a little confused why I was a stripper and didn't tell him I just responded saying I didn't think he would approve or think highly of me it sucks but the money pays great and I don't complain he told me I should do this I was born to be in front of the camera I smiled and just thank you he asked me jokingly if he could get a lap dance I said obviously so we made our way out the door I dragged him into one of the private rooms I pushed him on the sofa I got on his lap and just did a very sexual dance rubbing my ass all over his pants I could feel him getting hard so I got off and headed to the pole I climbed up it did couple spins on it slid myself down the pole into a split after I continued to do this for 30 mins I could tell he wanted it so bad but I wasn't going to allow myself do to that so I got on top of him once again and kissed him so roughly I don't know what took over me but I guess it was the tension and how drunk I was I dont know and I dont care it felt good I missed him I wanted to feel his lips on mine we continue to kiss he layed me down on the sofa and got on top of me kissing my neck and sucking on my bottom lip it just felt amazing he was going up to take my top off as I stopped him I told him I didn't want to do that ruin what he with maddie so I told him we couldn't we are just friends I'm sorry Travis I told him my shift was over he got sad I told him well hangout sometime soon if he wants he nodded gave me a big hug and a kiss on the lips and I quickly got into my range rover and sat in my car for 20 mins and just cried I was just so confused with my life I didn't know what to do anymore



I wanted what was going to happen between me and Ashton to happen really bad it was all going so well I was kissing her I needed her I craved her love and attention but she suddenly stopped I stood there puzzled she didn't want to ruin what me and Maddie had I sighed she told me we would hangout soon if I wanted to.. we were friends I just wanted to be more than that with her honestly she hugged me which felt like it was a short hug and kissed my lips once more and left I decide to get back home since it was already 4 am I told the guys to drop me off and they did I opened the door to my house so I didn't want to wake up Maddie but something felt out of place I was hearing noises I wasn't sure what it was so I investigated It was coming from my room I opened the door and I seen Maddie on top of a guy from the club... WHAT THE FUCK I yelled out loud she screamed and quickly got off him she kept telling me to calm down its not what it lookes like I was so furious this bitch had the balls to do this in my house I grabbed this punk ass bitch and beat the fucking shit out of him Maddie kept begging me to not hurt him I told him to grabbed his shit and to never show his face around me again or I WILL do worse damage then I did just now and after he left I told her to get the fuck out of my house take her shit and never let me see her again she kept beggin me for another chance I said fuck that I hope you kill yourself now bitch god I was so upset I actually shed a tear I stood in my room smoking until I couldn't even think anymore I decide to go to the studio in my house and finished that song I was going to call it Hollywood I finished writing the lyrics I was about to in the booth and just let it all good "I ain't tryna diss I just miss you. You wanna be a star huh, tell me what's the issue or the interview. I'd probably read it. Write tweet then I delete it. Or song on how youre wrong but it won't ever get completed. I'll hear it, you go n get your club on. Just because the stars come doesn't mean you are one. I'm attracted to my old news. What happened to the old you. Remember when I told you...There's no talking to you. You oh so jaded and I bet when you're fuckin him you have to fake it. You can watch me make it. Regret all the mistakes it. Took for you to realize you're chasing famous. I see it. You Goin with your love gone. Just because the stars come doesn't mean you are one. I'm attracted to my old news. What happened to the old you. Remember what I told you..."