In Too Deep

"Where is Vic Fuentes?" Kellin ran up to the secretary. She rolled her eyes and glared at him.
"Can you please wait?" Kellin slammed his fist against the counter. People standing behind him jumped.
"No I cannot wait. The person I love came in here on a suicide attempt! If I lose him, you better let me walk into a busy street. Now you tell me where the fuck he is!" The secretary cowered in her seat as she typed on her computer.
"He's down the hall, last down on the left." She pointed meekly to the hallway. Kellin ran down the hall. He had to find Vic. He just had to. He came to the last door and slowed down. He peeked in. Mike was sitting next to the bed and their parents were by the window. Mrs. Fuentes was covering her mouth as she was trying not to look at her son. She would start crying again. Mr. Fuentes was lookin over at Jaime and Tony. Jaime had his arm wrapped around Tony who was sleeping on his shoulder.
"Oh Vic." Kellin walked over to the bed catching the attention of everyone in the room. Vic had his eyes closed and his brown hair was fanned across the pillow. He looked so peaceful. Kellin ran his hands along Vic's bandaged arms. His tears fell on the white bandages.
"Estuvo a punto de morir por tu culpa. Yo casi pierdo a mi hijo por tu culpa." Mrs. Fuentes was glaring at Kellin.
"Sweetheart-"
"Why are you defending him?! Our son could have died because of him! He broke our son's heart!" Kellin sat on the bed, running his fingers along Vic's cheek.
"I didn't mean to." He whispered.
"I want you out!"
"Mom.." Vic opened his eyes. He felt his breath hitch when he saw Kellin. "Please stop yelling." Kellin watched those brown eyes never move from his face. He laced their hands together.
"Vic, I-"
"Wait." He looked at his family. "Can we have some privacy?" Everyone reluctantly left the two boys alone. Vic sighed. "I hated the feeling of them starring at me. They look so disappointed in me." Kellin search the tan boy's face, brushing a few strands of hair back.
"They're not disappointed. They're worried. I'm worried."
"I made a mistake. I realized that." Kellin moved a little closer. Vic cupped his cheek.
"I thought I lost you." Vic gave a sad smile.
"You have lost me. We're not getting back together." Kellin nodded slowly. He didn't want to agree but he had to.
"Will I ever have another chance?"
"Probably not." Kellin looked out the window. He felt Vic playing with his fingers. He didn't expect such bluntness. "I'm sorry Kellin."
"Tell me something." He looked back into Vic's eyes. The spark was still missing. "Why did you lie to me?" Vic propped himself up on some pillows. He stared at their connected hands. Kellin wasn't letting go.
"I thought it would be easier to say goodbye if you thought I was some asshole who used you." Kellin gave a dry laugh.
"Vic I will always love you."
"Stop." Vic looked like he was in pain.
"Why? I care about you. I imagine my future with you."
"No, you don't."
"But I do. I imagine living in a house with you."
"Please."
"We have kids. And the thing that goes through my mind the most is waking up next to and seeing that beautiful face everytime I open my eyes. I want to be able to call you mine. I-" Vic pulled their lips into a bruising kiss. It seemed desperate as he held Kellin's neck.
"Please, shut up."
"I don't want a life without you Vic." Kellin gave a soft kiss and Vic felt himself melting into it. When they split apart for air, Vic made his decision.
"I do." Kellin gave a confused look. "I want a life without you." Vic kept his voice steady. He was lying again. The only person he would want to have a future with was Kellin.
"Do you love me?" He shook his head. "Did you ever?" Kellin saw Vic play with the gauze on his arm.
"No."
"Bullshit." Vic did a double take.
"What?"
"I say that is complete utter bullshit. Why do you continue to lie to me?"
"Would you leave me if I said I was completely in love with you?" Kellin scoffed.
"Hell no."
"That's why I'm lying to you. I don't want you chasing after me while I'm trying to run away." Vic put his hands on both sides of Kellin's face. "You need to move on. Forget about me."
"What if I can't forget you? What if I don't want to?"
"I don't feel good enough for you. I broke my promise."
"I don't care." Kellin started pacing by the bed. "Everything about you is good enough for me. Ecspecially your flaws! I love how you're not fake." He pulled Vic into another kiss. He was pushed off.
"I want you to walk out that door-"
"No." Vic put up his hand.
"Listen to me. I want you to walk out that door and never look back." He used the hand that was up to cover Kellin's mouth, successfully silencing him. "Enough is enough Kellin. I can't take this any longer." Kellin looked between the door and the love of his life.
"If I leave will you promise never to try and take your life again? Do you promise to try and be happy?"
"I promise."
"And if you aren't happy, will you come and talk to me?" Vic bit his lip.
"I don't think that would be such a good idea."
"Will you at least talk to Kevin so I'll know you are truly doing fine?"
"I'll try."
"Can I kiss you one last time?" Vic nodded. Kellin connected their lips gently. He would miss this. The taste of Vic, the feeling of his soft lips. "Please rethink this."
"My mind is made up. Please leave."
"I love you Vic." Vic turned his attention out the window. He didn't want to see Kellin leave. The only thought the was running through his brain was pulling Kellin in bed with him and apologizing for everything he said. He heard the other boy's footsteps disappear out into the hallway. Vic rest back on the pillows and willed himself to sleep.
Kellin was fighting himself not to go back into that room. He didn't want thing to end this way. He didn't want things to end at all. Being with Vic was keeping him happy, from his whole world collapsing on him. Mike watched Kellin walk up to the family. Jaime and Tony were looking at the ground. They were both still digesting the fact that their friend tried to kill himself. Kellin stopped in front of Mrs. and Mr. Fuentes.
"I'm sorry. I do truly love him. Nothing can change that." They both nodded to the pale boy. Kellin turned to Mike.
"What happened between you guys?"
"We're done. He ended it."
"How are you?"
"I'm horrible but there is nothing I can do about it. I just want him to be happy. Then I will be happy." Kellin started walking towards the exit.
"Will you be happy? Really happy?" He looked over throwing one of his dazzling fake smiles at them. He was returning to the guy at school. He wasn't going to forget about Vic but he would certainly hide his true feelings deep down. He would lock those memories into a vault. In the hallways he's going to flirt his way through and look blankly at the one he loves. His smile faltered. He was never going to be able to kiss Vic again. Never hold his hand, never hear his voice softly singing him to sleep as they fall into their dreams together. That was never going to happen again.
"I can certainly try."