Black Heart

After I am dressed and ready to go, I head to my edroom, grabbing my black leather bound song book. After grabbing that I flop on my bed, opening to my latest song, it wasnt all that good, but i was working out all the kinks at the moment.
It was quite a sad song actually, but it wasnt something I was ok with throwing out.

the darkness is undoubtedley remote,
it throws away all sanity and hope
as you try to find your way home,
stumbling,
and all alone

this isnt how things were supposed to be
when I fall youre supposed to catch me,
but I am left alone in your wake,
crumbling
fumbling
how did I make such a mistake

you scream
you cry
alone in the dark,
fingernails scraping like the teeth of a shark
but darling dont you understand,
the darkness will comfort you,
hold out your hand
into the black
stretching forever
To heaven and back
for its the only thing that comprehends
how to love
and understand

this isnt how things were supposed to be
when I fall youre supposed to catch me,
but I am left alone in your wake,
crumbling
fumbling
how did I make such a mistake

the darkness is the only one that really cares
it caresses the moon
as softly it glares
It listens to you silently
its the only thing
that will wait patiently
for you as you sob and sigh
it would wait all night
easily complied

This isnt how things were supposed to be
when I fall youre supposed to catch me
but I am left alone in your wake
crumbling
fumbling
a stupid mistake

I tweak it here and there, addi g works, erasing words, amd trying new tunes, as I am in the middle of singing a particularly bad rhymthm for it, vic comes barging through the door

"Shut up would ya, I dont have time for you to be depressed!" He says, obviously drunk. I shrug and lay the book on my night stand, not wanting to start a fight.
I hop up and kick off my skinny jeans, hopping in my bed, as I had spent all day nose deep In my song book. As I am driftin off to sleep I hear a rustling on my bed stand. For the next few hours all I hear is pages flipping before vic frustratedly throws the thin he is holdin at a wall.
"HE SHOULD BE TELLIN ME THIS STUFF NOT CONFIDING IN A STUPID BOOK!" He wisper yells and I hear him lay down next to me.
He kisses my temple and I slightly tense. I didnt want him to hurt me.
"Hes even afraid of me when hes asleep." Vic sighs.
"Darling, why have I made you feel this way?" He lays back down, flipping in the other direction as always. Sigh.