My Secret
A Surprise
after the call with Marshall I have to admit I've been nervous thinking about my new encounter with him,
I wonder how it's gonna turn out , I couldn't deny I feel a little excited too, wait excited ? no no I didn't say that.
anyway, I was trying no to think about it but I couldn't help it, now Cris asking and talking about it every second wasn't helping me either
he always was asking me if I knew something about the surprise, of course he tried with Marshall too but Marshall didn't say anything either so he came back to me again
oh boy, I love my son with all my heart but I swear he's something, he can be so persuasive and obstinate that is not even funny
I swear I was about to tell him everything but I knew I couldn't Marshall would be sad, he really wants to surprise him and...why do I care about Marshall's feelings? anyway
today was tuesday so I had my day off, so I drove Cris to the school, then I went for a walk with Pulgas and did some shopping after I finished my shopping I went back home
I had time so I decided to clean a little the house, I cleaned the bathrooms, vacuumed the floor
I was washing the plates when Pulgas went towards the door and started to bark and a second later someone was knocking the door
-"shhhh Pulgas, shhh, "-I say while I went towards the door and move him aside to open the door
it was Marshall,
-"Hi "- I say shyly while I order Pulgas to go to his blanket
-"ehmm hi "
we glanced each other for a few seconds
-"can I come in or.?"-he says looking at the floor
-"sure, sure"- I say and move so he can come into the house
he walks pass me and I can smell his perfume, he smelled really good today
I close the door when I fell his eyes on me
-"what?"
-"nothing, nothing"
-"whatever"- I say a little annoyed why was he looking at me like that?
we walk into the kitchen and he sits down in a chair
again we're glancing each other but we don't say a word, this is really awkward
I clear my throat
-"do you want something?"
-"ehm? yeah, a glass of water please.."
I nod and put him the glass with cold water
-"thanks .."
-"you're welcome"
..........................
again this awkward silence
-"I didn't know you were coming today"- I say trying to make a conversation
-"I already told you I wanted to come and see Cristian before my concerts in London"- he says like I was stupid and didn't remember our conversation or what he told me
-"I know Marshall, I remmeber very well but you didn't tell me you were coming TODAY and where are Paul and your bodyguards?"- I ask,
he always goes with 2 bodyguards sometimes more, he never goes out without them
-" Paul is in the hotel, and the Steve and Andrew are in the car I wanted to come alone,and I didn't say anything because I wanted it to be a surprise!" -
-" whatever"-
if he's gonna act like this I won't talk to him
-"whatever?"-he frown
I avoid him and turn on the tv, which makes him gets more pissed
-"bitch"-he mumbles
I turn my head and look at him
-"what did you say?"-I say with anger
-"you heard me"
-"get out !"
-"what?"
-"you heard me"- I say imitating him
-"vic.."
-"no, I won't let that you come to my house an insult me plus you are the one that is acting like a bitch so get out now, ". I say and point at the door
-"it's you who is bitching me because I didn't say I was coming, like if it was a bad thing that I want to see my son"
-"I've never said it is a bad thing, I already told you I'm very grateful for the way you treat him, he really loves you"
-"then let me see him and don't take him away from me"- he raises his voice
I glare at him and start to cry , I put the my hands on my face trying to calm myself but I can't
-"shit... "Marshall says when he sees I am crying
-"Vic, don't cry please"- he says and tries to console me while rests a hand in my shoulder but I take a step back
-"don't" - I say and look at him,
his eyes are with sadness and deception, he was hurt but I honestly didn't care
-"I'm sick of this Marshall,seriously, I can take it nomore,this is too much, we're always fighting"
-"and how do you think I feel? I didn't want this , I don't want this , I didn't want our future be like this, I didn't choose this for us"
-"again you're blaming everything on me"
-"Vic you were the one that walked away,if you had stayed we.."
-"you would have kept on playing with my feelings , using me and you would have kept on cheating on me!!"-I yell
-"no!!! will you stop with that? if you had stayed we could have been a family together, I'd have asked you to be my wife and we could have raised our son together as a happy family and we even could have had more children"
was he serious right now?
I glance at him
-"Marshall, are you serious right now?"
he looks at me and comes a little more closer to me,
-"dead serious, Victoria I really loved you even if you don't believe me"
-"I believe you"-I whisper
shit why did I have to say that? I had to be angry
he interlaces his hand with mine, oh shit !
-"Vic, I have never forgotten you and when I saw you I felt the same, I had the same fucking feelings like if everything happened recently not 10 years ago"
-"Marshall, please"- I say and close my eyes, I didn't want to hear this
-"but it's true! and when Cristian asked us if we could be together again I wanted to say yes"
-"Marshall what do you mean?"
don't say it please don't say it
-"I want to give us a try again "
damn it!
I try to talk but I can't then I note he inches towards me ,our face are almost touching that makes me feel knots in my stomach
-"Vic, I still love you"- he whispers and presses his lips against me I was shocked at first I don't kiss him back but then I respond to the kiss , now with our tongues moving and dancing together in perfect harmony
god! I forgot he's a great kisser
I wonder how it's gonna turn out , I couldn't deny I feel a little excited too, wait excited ? no no I didn't say that.
anyway, I was trying no to think about it but I couldn't help it, now Cris asking and talking about it every second wasn't helping me either
he always was asking me if I knew something about the surprise, of course he tried with Marshall too but Marshall didn't say anything either so he came back to me again
oh boy, I love my son with all my heart but I swear he's something, he can be so persuasive and obstinate that is not even funny
I swear I was about to tell him everything but I knew I couldn't Marshall would be sad, he really wants to surprise him and...why do I care about Marshall's feelings? anyway
today was tuesday so I had my day off, so I drove Cris to the school, then I went for a walk with Pulgas and did some shopping after I finished my shopping I went back home
I had time so I decided to clean a little the house, I cleaned the bathrooms, vacuumed the floor
I was washing the plates when Pulgas went towards the door and started to bark and a second later someone was knocking the door
-"shhhh Pulgas, shhh, "-I say while I went towards the door and move him aside to open the door
it was Marshall,
-"Hi "- I say shyly while I order Pulgas to go to his blanket
-"ehmm hi "
we glanced each other for a few seconds
-"can I come in or.?"-he says looking at the floor
-"sure, sure"- I say and move so he can come into the house
he walks pass me and I can smell his perfume, he smelled really good today
I close the door when I fell his eyes on me
-"what?"
-"nothing, nothing"
-"whatever"- I say a little annoyed why was he looking at me like that?
we walk into the kitchen and he sits down in a chair
again we're glancing each other but we don't say a word, this is really awkward
I clear my throat
-"do you want something?"
-"ehm? yeah, a glass of water please.."
I nod and put him the glass with cold water
-"thanks .."
-"you're welcome"
..........................
again this awkward silence
-"I didn't know you were coming today"- I say trying to make a conversation
-"I already told you I wanted to come and see Cristian before my concerts in London"- he says like I was stupid and didn't remember our conversation or what he told me
-"I know Marshall, I remmeber very well but you didn't tell me you were coming TODAY and where are Paul and your bodyguards?"- I ask,
he always goes with 2 bodyguards sometimes more, he never goes out without them
-" Paul is in the hotel, and the Steve and Andrew are in the car I wanted to come alone,and I didn't say anything because I wanted it to be a surprise!" -
-" whatever"-
if he's gonna act like this I won't talk to him
-"whatever?"-he frown
I avoid him and turn on the tv, which makes him gets more pissed
-"bitch"-he mumbles
I turn my head and look at him
-"what did you say?"-I say with anger
-"you heard me"
-"get out !"
-"what?"
-"you heard me"- I say imitating him
-"vic.."
-"no, I won't let that you come to my house an insult me plus you are the one that is acting like a bitch so get out now, ". I say and point at the door
-"it's you who is bitching me because I didn't say I was coming, like if it was a bad thing that I want to see my son"
-"I've never said it is a bad thing, I already told you I'm very grateful for the way you treat him, he really loves you"
-"then let me see him and don't take him away from me"- he raises his voice
I glare at him and start to cry , I put the my hands on my face trying to calm myself but I can't
-"shit... "Marshall says when he sees I am crying
-"Vic, don't cry please"- he says and tries to console me while rests a hand in my shoulder but I take a step back
-"don't" - I say and look at him,
his eyes are with sadness and deception, he was hurt but I honestly didn't care
-"I'm sick of this Marshall,seriously, I can take it nomore,this is too much, we're always fighting"
-"and how do you think I feel? I didn't want this , I don't want this , I didn't want our future be like this, I didn't choose this for us"
-"again you're blaming everything on me"
-"Vic you were the one that walked away,if you had stayed we.."
-"you would have kept on playing with my feelings , using me and you would have kept on cheating on me!!"-I yell
-"no!!! will you stop with that? if you had stayed we could have been a family together, I'd have asked you to be my wife and we could have raised our son together as a happy family and we even could have had more children"
was he serious right now?
I glance at him
-"Marshall, are you serious right now?"
he looks at me and comes a little more closer to me,
-"dead serious, Victoria I really loved you even if you don't believe me"
-"I believe you"-I whisper
shit why did I have to say that? I had to be angry
he interlaces his hand with mine, oh shit !
-"Vic, I have never forgotten you and when I saw you I felt the same, I had the same fucking feelings like if everything happened recently not 10 years ago"
-"Marshall, please"- I say and close my eyes, I didn't want to hear this
-"but it's true! and when Cristian asked us if we could be together again I wanted to say yes"
-"Marshall what do you mean?"
don't say it please don't say it
-"I want to give us a try again "
damn it!
I try to talk but I can't then I note he inches towards me ,our face are almost touching that makes me feel knots in my stomach
-"Vic, I still love you"- he whispers and presses his lips against me I was shocked at first I don't kiss him back but then I respond to the kiss , now with our tongues moving and dancing together in perfect harmony
god! I forgot he's a great kisser