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Lunch with the girls was fun. Hayley was asking us questions about Zeb, she really seems

to like him. The whole afternoon I couldn't help think about what I had done earlier with

Ryland. Now that i think about it, it really was a stupid thing to do but I was mad you

can't always help what you do when you're mad.

"Candee are you ok?", asked Roxii

"Yeah I'm fine", I said sounding hyper

"You look like you've been thinking too much."

"I'm alright come on let's finish shopping!"

"Perfect!"

The rest of the day was good. It was fun even. It was time for dinner and we were all

eating pizza and having a good time until Gabe started making fun of Bill. He finally

apologized to him only because of Roxii. Gabe came over to me and wrapped his hands around

my waist. I felt so gross next to him.

"Ahh baby you know I'm just playing around with Bill he knows I don't mean it."

"Mhm"

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. Why do you ask?"

"You look guilty."

"WHAT!"

SHIT! He knows, he knows what I did with his best friend. Ryland probably told him. I'm

going to kill that tall skinny man!

"I mean what are you talking about?", I tried to sound chilled out

"You don't look happy, is it something I did?"

I lied.

"No why would you say that?"

"Something I said?"

"No baby nothings wrong."

I lied to him again. I felt a little bad about what I did but I'm still mad as hell! I've

been cheated on before and it pissed me off more than anything. I told myself after that,

that it will never happen again but I was wrong. This time is going to be different. I

can't let his boyish good looks and charm come over me. I wanted revenge. There is to be

no feelings involved in this.

"There's something I wanted to ask you?"

I put on my best smile on. I figured that to get my revenge that I had to pretend like

everything was perfect.

"And what would that be Mr. Saporta?"

"Jeez I feel like I'm 13 again."

"Oh come on and say it I promise I won't laugh."

"Alright will I was wondering if you'd be like my girlfriend?"

I wanted to scream HELL NO! but I kept myself from laughing and said.

"Oh baby I would love to be your girlfriend!"

"I got you something ya know in case you said yes."

"What is it?"

He pulled a cute little hello kitty ring. Ya know like the ones from the little machine

where you put in some quarters.

"Oh baby it's perfect! I love it!

I really wasn't lying. I love hello kitty. Even if I hated him I at least I loved the

ring. He picked me up and I kissed him.

"Let's make it official?"

"Oh and how would we do that?"

"Like this."

"HEY EVERYONE!"

"Babe what are you doing?"

"CANDEE IS NOW OFFICIALLY MY GIRLFRIEND AND I WANT EVERYONE HERE TO KNOW!"

I laughed and acted like I was happy. I turned my head and saw Ryland he was clapping

too. His face looked very excited. At least I knew he wasn't going to say anything now.

"Alright Gabe put me down."

"I just want everyone to see you is all."

"Ha seriously put me down and go have fun with your friends."

"I'll see you later?"

"Yeah go have fun."

I saw Roxii talking to Spencer and she looked very happy. I wonder what was going on over

there? I didn't see Zeb so I thought he was off with Hayley. I felt all alone with no one

to talk to. I saw Bill walking over.

"Hey Bill."

"Congrats."

"Thanks."

"You seem very excited.", the sarcasm from his voice was dripping

"What?, Oh I'm so excited! What are you talking about? I'm very happy."

"Really?"

"Of course."

"Alright then."

He had a smirk on his face like he knew something I didn't know.

"Why don't you believe me?"

"Ryland told me what you two did."

"Damn it."

"Did he really?"

"Yeah."

"Are you mad?"

"No."

"Why?"

"Gabe is Gabe he likes sex and there's not much you can do about it. And besides it's not

like you were really into Gabe anyways."

"That's not true. I really liked him up until this morning."

"What happen this morning?"

"I over heard him talking to someone on the phone about how much he missed them and how

much he loved them."

"That could have been his mother."

"He also said he was going to fuck them 'til they couldn't walk."

"Gabe said he broke up with his girlfriend."

"Well I guess they got back together.", I felt disappointed

"Come with me Candee and I'll let you know something."

I followed Bill to the other side of the buses.

"Look Gabe is one of my best friends but he's a stupid prick that doesn't see that he

really hurts the girls who care for him. He really only cares about sex and where the

next piece of ass is coming from."

"Oh wow that makes me feel a lot better."

I started to walk away but Bill grab my hand before I could.

"Candee I didn't mean it like that."

"I understand now can you just please let go."

He let go of my hand and grabbed my waist instead. He turned me around and started to

kiss me. I wasn't going to object. I mean come on it's William Fucking Beckett! you

wouldn't give that up. He picked me up and whispered something.

"I won't tell if you won't."

I thought about it for a moment and I really didn't want to be labeled as a slut.

"Sorry Bill, you're a great catch and probably a good fuck but I won't be labeled as a

slut."

"I understand."

Instead of letting me go he did something that was unlike him.

"That's why I promise to forget about this."

I wanted to trust him but again I wasn't the type of girl to sleep around.

"Bill I'm really sorry but I can't."

"So what you're just going to go back to Gabe! Aren't you mad at him for using you? Don't

you want to hurt his feelings like he hurt you?"

He made a great point and if I slept with Bill then my plan would be back on. I kissed

him hard.

"Not a word to anyone."

"You have my promise."

About 20 minutes later I heard Gabe yelling for me. I got scared and waited for Bill to

finish. I jumped down and fixed my dress and panties and hair. I smelled but Gabe

wouldn't mind. I started to walk towards Gabe but stopped Bill from walking so close to

me.

"Bill wait a second let me go first and then you come out. I don't want anyone asking

questions."

I found Gabe and ran up to him.

"Hey baby I was looking for you."

"I know I heard that's why I came running."

"Is that why you're sweating?"

I paused for a second.

"Yes."

"I thought we could go to bed a little early.", he arched his eyebrows a little

"Well I was thinking we could...maybe take a shower?", I smirked

"Perfect. lemme go tell the guys we're leaving."

"Oh they'll be fine."

"I really should."

"Fine I'm going to go find Zeb I haven't seen him all day."

"Meet you on the bus?"

"Yeah sure thing."

I was glad to have finally gotten away from him. I walked down the buses in search for my

Zebra. I heard some moaning I wasn't sure if they were having sex or if they were dying.

"Zeb?"

"Candee! what the fuck are you doing?"

"Ha ha looking for you."

They were having sex. Hayley's face got as red as her hair and she quickly ran into her

bus.

"What do you want?"

"I came looking for you I haven't seen you all day."

"I haven't seen you either. I missed you."

"I'm sorry for um interrupting."

"I was just finishing when you came by."

"Ewwww Zeb that's gross!"

"You're one to talk you smell like sex too!"

"Point taken."

"How were you with Gabe when I saw him talking with Adam and Travis?"

"Oh you know."

My face started to get beat red and my heart was pounding.

"Unless you weren't with Gabe at all!"

"Zeb put your dick back into your underwear it's just hanging out."

"Don't change the subject were you with Gabe?"

"..."

"CANDACE!"

"Alright no! I wasn't with Gabe are you happy?"

"No why weren't you with Gabe?"

"..."

"Candace! why weren't you with Gabe? Who were you with?!"

"I don't wanna tell you."

"Tell me now!"

"Or what?"

"Or I'll break your zombie baby collection!"

"You wouldn't dare!"

"Try me."

"HA! I locked all my zombies away!"

"I'll tell Roxii you used her toothbrush for a week."

"I'll tell her that you wore her brand new thongs!"

"You promised!",Zeb yelled

"Things change."

"Candee I'm not joking anymore you tell me who you were with or I'll tell Gabe."

"NO!"

"Tell me."

"Alright!...I was with Bill."

"Bill?"

"Bill!"

"Why?"

"I wanted too."

"No really why?"

"Because..."

"Did he force you too?!"

"NO! what? Of course not! Bill would never do something like that!"

"Then why."

"Because he made a very good point."

"Candee you're not making any sense."

"Look just be happy I told you this much I haven't even told Roxii."

"Candee look at me."

Zeb grabbed my face. I couldn't lie to my best friend no matter how hard i tried. I had

to tell him everything. I had to tell Roxii too.

"What happen?"

"Gabe was just using me to get some ass and I found out and I wanted revenge so I fucked

Ryland to get back at Gabe and I had a plan to fuck his best friends. Then Ryland told

Bill and wanted to get in on it too but I told him I didn't want people to call me a slut

then he promised not to tell anyone and he said that it would make sense for us to have

sex because then I'd be getting back at Gabe."

I said all of that in 2 breaths.

"Can you be any more stupid?!"

"Are you mad?"

"I'm yelling do you think I'm mad?"

Zeb only yells when he's really really mad.

"Candee those guys are using you do you not understand that?"

I started to cry.

"No."

"Don't cry baby."

"I don't mean too but this is all a mess."

"I know but that was a stupid thing you did."

"I know."

"If you wanted to get back at him why didn't you just come to me and Roxii first?"

"I didn't think about it."

"Let's go get Roxii and fix this whole mess alright?"

"Oh no she's going to make it a huge deal."

"We'll calm her down a bit."

"How?"

"We'll think of something."

"Hey Zeb?"

"Ya?"

"What'd you thinking?"

"That no one fucks my Candee and gets away with it."

Zeb smiled and wiped what tears I had left. You don't know how much it hurts to be used

until someone says it out loud