I'm Not Okay

***** five weeks later*****

"Come out already." I said and started poking my huge belly.

"They'll come when they're ready." Gerard said, he was sitting next to me on the sofa reading a book, he got new glasses and we were all still getting used to him wearing them.

"You're not the one who has two basketballs under their shirt every day." I said under my breath.

Gerard sighed and put down his book and put away his glasses before getting off the sofa and getting on his knees in front of me and grabbing one of my hands in both of his.

"What can I do?" He asked then stuck out his bottom lip.

"Get me some ice cream with whipped cream." I offered.

He shook his head at me with a playful smile then got up and kissed me before walking into the kitchen. Things have been going really well so far with all of us, two weeks ago Gerard finally gave in and bought a car that could fit all three car seats and last week we told Ray that we are "adopting" twins, he was really shocked, but he congratulated is nevertheless. It is January and these babies needed to come out of me soon or I was gonna kill someone, my back always hurt, I was always in a bad mood, and I was always hungry. I was thankful that Gerard was trying to help with all of my uncomfortableness.

"Here you go babe." Gerard said when he entered the room again and handed me my bowl. I thanked him and began to eat. "I'm gonna go out with Mikey and see my parents, do you wanna call your mom?"

"No I don't wanna put her out, why do you have to go?" I complained.

"Because my parents flew in a week ago to see Mikey and I and I haven't seen them once yet, they're flying out early tomorrow morning so I wanna see them once before they leave, plus them coming here isn't the best idea."

"Whatever." I muttered and turned away from him.

"Baby, come on-"

"You should leave now if you wanna get there before traffic." I said as I continued to eat and watch TV.

Gerard sighed and kissed my head; I didn't respond. Soon after he kissed me I heard the front door open and close, I know I shouldn't be mad or upset at him for wanting to see his parents but his mom was such an ass to me and my kid, it really hurt my feelings. I waited until I heard Gerard's car drive away before I got up and headed into peanuts room, when I got there he was inside his crib playing with his teddy bear. When he saw me he dropped his teddy bear and grabbed onto his crib railing and started to bounce on his legs and make noises only he could understand.

"Does my baby wanna start walking?" I asked as I took him out of his crib and put him on the floor. Because I was so big I couldn't carry him for so long anymore, just short periods at a time.

"Okay baby, let's play!" I said as I sat down and peanut crawled over to me and sat on my legs.

For the rest of the day we played together, we read stories, we ate and took a bath, and it was great to have a peanut and me day. It wasn't until his bedtime after I had changed him into fresh pjs and was about to pick him up and put him in bed when I noticed that he was wet.

"Did you go potty?" I asked, instead of crying like he normally does when he's wet he just looked up at me and laughed. I gave him a curios look then turned around to the spot on the floor where he was playing and I saw a big wet spot. It wasn't until I felt a ripping pain in my lower abdomen that I realized that the water had come from me and I was in labor.

"Holy shit!" I yelled and sunk to the floor next to Bryce's crib, peanut began to cry his little eyes out and I got another painful contraction. Right now I couldn't comfort peanut I had to take care of myself.

I slowly made my way out of Bryce's room with him still crying and called my mom.

"Hey sweetheart, what's going on?" She asked upon answering.

"Mom." I groaned out, "My water broke, I'm having the babies."