Exspes

The car ride was 2 hours long, to be honest it drove me insane just sitting there for 2 hours long and yet It gave me some sanity it gave me time to think.

He sat there a smile on his face that made my heart melt. I didn't deserve him I really didn't and then I felt it again

That feeling surging upwards from my stomach, like bile

I was going to destroy him like I did you. And I wanted to cry but I didn't because he expected better of me James deserved me loving him. God I'm so fucking awful. We got to his apartment building a huge red brick one

He spoke with a smile "Home sweet home" I smiled back at him as we climbed up the stairs into the building.

We entered the small apartment and unsurprisingly it was neat and clean, unlike your room whenever I went in there it was cluttered with clothes, shoes, and paint brushes

James put my stuff down and walked over to me brushing my hair aside, cupped my face and kissed me. His lips tasted like cinnamon, I liked the taste of his lips the way it felt on mines. This time though I didn't think of him I could only think of James of how good his lips tasted. On how good it was to be kissed, how good it felt to forget you, to be free, to be with someone. To be with James