Never in love

Two years have passed since I fell in love, since my life had been turned upside down, and to tell you the truth I liked this new world, nothing bad had happened yet. But I had this weird feeling that something might, you see I have been with Milo for the last two years, and they have been the best two years of my life, I think it could be coming to an end. I still love Milo with all my life, but he has seemed to be drifting more and more away from me. Rhi is with Jake, and they have been a happy couple just as long as Milo and I have been, but they still seem happy. Jake and I have grown really close over the years and I think I should tell or ask him about Milo, I have already told Rhi so I think its about time to tell Jake. Oh and also what has also changed is, my mum moved out into a new house with her new husband and Jake Milo and I think Rhi have moved in.
“Sarah…. Do we have anything to eat that doesn’t consist of left overs?” Jake was walking out of the kitchen with a plate of leftover pizza and sausages.
“Um.. not sure its Milo’s month.”
“What’s with him lately, he’s always out, never bringing money home, nor food.”
“I was hoping you would know. I think he has another girlfriend.” I saw his eyes widen, I knew this wasn’t a good sign, I looked down at my coffee as I pulled my blanket up further, it was a really cold winter, so I was mainly living on the couch with a hot drink and blanket.
“Sarah, he wouldn’t have a new girlfriend, he loves you” He came over and sat next to me, pulling the blankets over his legs.
“Yea I guess, he’s just been acting weird, and like he has always wanted to.. you know.. but lately every time I ask he says he’s not in the mood. I mean that’s not like him, that’s not like any guy that’s not getting laid by some one else.”
“Sarah he’s a nice guy, he’s not like everyone else”
“Okay, just promise me Jake, if he does mention a new girlfriend or something tell me, I don’t want to keep him from his true love.”
“You are his true love Sarah, and yes if he does I will tell you, I love you too.”
“Thanks Jake.”
“No Problem Sarah.” His phone started to ring so he left and took the call. I dropped out of my sitting position and fell on the arm rest, it would be fine, he loves me, he would never leave me. I drifted off into sleep.

I woke up in my own bed by the door slamming; I guessed that Milo had left for work or whatever he does. I laid in bed for a good half an hour til I could be sure he left. I then got up, wandering slowly in this empty house down the stairs and into the kitchen to put on some coffee. When I walked in I found a note left on the coffee machine, I had to give it to him, for being away so often he knew me well. The note read:

Dear Sarah,
I’m sorry sweetie that I have to leave so early in the mornings and come back so late in the nights, but we have a real problem at work, I am so sorry. I have taken this weekend off and have our whole weekend planed. I really hope you do like it. . I just wanted to tell you so you knew I still love you and so you don’t plan your weekend.
Love Milo.

Jake was right he loved me, still and forever. For the rest of the day I wanted to know what he had planned, I thought about calling him, but if he had the weekend off I really shouldn’t interrupt. The morning went by really quickly but then slowed when I was counting down the hours, then minutes til he came home. I had to do something for him so I went shopping and got all the food we needed, well even if he didn’t notice at least Jake and Rhi wouldn’t be complaining. I had also called Rhi and told her about the letter, and the weekend, she was just like the first time I said I loved him, all the way back in high school. You see when we first met we were in the 2nd last term of year 10, now we have just finished school, which is a total relief. I was going to be okay. He came home around the time I expected and seemed really happy when I stayed awake and ran to him when he opened the door. He did notice all the things I had done for him, it just reminded me how much I love. The only problem was that the weekend was still kept as a secret.

Finally it was Saturday, the weekend, the big surprise. I got up and woke him like a kid that had been promised to get taken to Disneyland the night before, I was so excited.
“Milo, sweetie its Saturday”
“I know, okay lets get up.”
I jumped up, I was incredibly excited. Milo seemed just as excited, by the time I turned around which was in like a millisecond he was behind me but his hands around my waist, it sent shivers down my spine in a good way. I missed him so much, I turned around and kissed him, he turned me around and pushed me back on the bed.
“I have missed you so much these days Sarah.”
“I have missed you more.”
I was laying on the bed and he was holding himself above me and we were kissing, I knew right there and then that he still loved me, and he had no one else, we were back to the first time we went out. Then the most annoying sound, the phone ringing.
“Can’t Jake get it?” I asked, he had stoped kissing me and I didn’t like it.
“Jake get the phone” Milo shouted then went back to kissing me.
“Fine!” He didn’t sound that happy, well considering it was like 7am, he was probably still asleep, who would call at this time anyways? Jake walked into our room without knocking, I don’t think it bothered him that all I had on was a bra, he had seen me like that, and I’m sure that he had seen Milo without his shirt on, but I think it was that we were like kissing without our shirts on that made him do this, “Shit,” He put his hands over his eyes. “Okay sorry to disturb you guys, but umm its Sarah’s mum” He held out the phone, “I really should remember to knock” He put the phone down on the side table and walked out of the room.
“Sarah you really should get the phone” Milo whispered. I groaned at the thought of that.
“Okay, I will” Milo got off of me, and gave me the phone.
“Hi mum.”
“Hey hunny” She kept on talking but I wasn’t listening, I was watching Milo’s every move, he was trying to find his shirt, once he did he put it on and smiled at me. Then he found me shirt and through it to me.
“Mum hold on a sec.”
“Um okay.” I put on my shirt then picked up the phone and let her continue with what she was saying. Milo was making the bed, which made me a little sad knowing that we weren’t going to continue were we left off before my mother had to call me.
“What’s she saying sweetie?” Milo whispered.
“Not sure, I’m not listening” I whispered back.
“Listen.” He walked out of the room.
“Okay well I land at 9am.”
“Land?”
“Yes land, but get there at like 8:30, because I don’t want to wait around for you like I always have to do, oh and I have the purple suitcases, so were are you going to park the car, because you can go and get the bags and I can go to the car, I don’t like baggage claim.”
“Can’t I tell you later?”
“Well I’m getting on the plane like now.”
“Wait your landing today, and I’m picking you up?”
“Yes”
“When did we decide this? Can’t you and Mark just rent a car, or catch a cab to your hotel?”
“Mark isn’t coming, we broke up, I’ll explain in the car. And you’re living with me in my house.”
“Mum you don’t own a house here.”
“Yes I do you are living in it now.”
“This is my house! I pay for it, and I always have!”
“Talk about it in the car on the way home, oh and you better have my room the exact same, I don’t want to have to sleep in a different place.”
“Mum, som-”
“Got to catch the plane, see you soon” the phone disconnected. I was so pissed I through the phone at the wall.
“BANG!”
“Sarah are you okay?” Milo came running, he had changed into a bit nicer clothes, but still simple nothing to fancy.
“NO! My stupid fu-”
“You aren’t physically hurt?”
“No, its just my mother.” He put his hands around my waist.
“Forget about her, today and tomorrow are all about you, and well a bit about me.” I sighed really loud, he knew my mother had screwed this up.
“What did she do?” He had what I think was fear in his voice.
“Well,” I explained everything. He nodded along and I could tell he had a plan.
“Okay, we will pick her up from the airport. We will make he sleep on the not her room, and we will tell Jake that no matter what for him to sleep in his room. We will give her $1000 to go shopping that will take her all day today-”
“ONE THOUSAND DOLLARS”
“Sweetie, I will explain today. Don’t worry we can afford this”
“Okay, continue.”
“So that will take all today, and tomorrow she can do what ever she wants, so that gives us the weekend to ourselves. We will lock our door from the outside with the key so she can’t go through our stuff while were out, or sleep in the bed.”
“Were not going to be at home this weekend?”
“No not at all.”
“Okay, well that sounds good enough to me; we better go if we want to get to her on time.”
“Yea okay, oh by the way I have packed your bag for today, and what you are wearing is fine.”
“Okay then.” And so we left, he chucked our bags in the back and went to pick up the mother from hell.

“Your late!”
“I told you she was the mother from hell” I said to Milo as we approached my mother.
“I’m so sorry Ms. Richers, the car park was full but we did find a spot close to the airport, its in B3, and the car is well Sarah’s car so you should be able to pick it out.”
“Keys? I don’t want to go to the baggage claim.”
“Um yea here you go mum.” I through her the keys and they fell on the floor next to her.
“Sarah that was a horrible through, you should know that you can’t throw you should just pass the keys.”
“Sorry mum.”
“Okay well I will see you Sarah in the car and um what’s your name there too”
“I’m Milo, Ms. Richers.”
“Mum, you have met him before, be nice.”
“Well Sarah unlike you I have friends, so I’m sorry if I cant remember his name is Marlo.”
“MILO!” I was mad, I mean this was the man I loved and she couldn’t remember his name.
“Sarah hunny calm down, I don’t mind, this weekend is a relaxing weekend, nothing to worry about, calm down hunny” He whispered in my ear as he kissed my neck. Mum was already walking away to the car, so it was just me and Milo to get her bags. We drove home in silence. My mum wanted to sit in the front and would not get in the car if Milo was driving I felt like leaving her there Milo always drive but he said that’s okay and got in the back. We got home and I went straight in and got a Panadol out and sat at the table, it had been a few hours and I couldn’t stand her! I must have sat there for 40 minutes and I didn’t hear them come in, they hadn’t. I sat there reading the paper waiting for them to come in, but they didn’t it was weird, another 20 minutes passed so it had been an hour and finally they came in. Milo seemed different, almost like he had been crying, or arguing, probably with my mum, I wasn’t going to pay attention to it.
“Hey Sarah, Milo told me I was going to sleep on the couch and I understand, totally. Now he also said that you two were going away for the weekend, so you better get going, have fun.”
“Umm okay.” I was a little surprised that Milo was able to that but oh well.
“Come on lets go Sarah.” Milo dropped my mum’s bags by the couch and grabbed my arm and pulled me out. We got in the car, him driving and didn’t talk at all, he reversed and drove off down the street.

“Hungry?” Milo asked, it had been the first thing any of us said after we left the house almost 40 minutes ago.
“Um yea a little bit.” I said studding his eyes, there was something different about them, it looked almost like fear. He pulled off the highway and pulled into a little restaurant off to the side. We both walked in silent. Sat down at a table and waited.
“Sarah, you do know I would do anything for you right?”
“Of course I do Milo, and you know I would do anything for you?”
“Yes, Sarah I only want good things for you and I would never lie to you.”
“What if I asked you to lie to me?”
“Then I would.” He looked me dead in the eyes, it made me fall in love with him all over again.
“Lie to me.”
“I love you.”
There it was, what I had been fearing. It took me a few seconds to work out that by saying he loved me when I asked him to lie ment that he didn’t love me it waas a lie. He got up from the table, threw the keys next to me and walked away, leaving me in the middle of no where, in love with a fake. I didn’t cry, I sat there, just remembering, how I let myself fall for something not real, I was right all along, I think. But there was a part of me that wasn’t letting go of the fact that love was real, it made me think that all this was, was a heart brake, nothing more, nothing less. That little part of me, that was what made me realise that love was real, love was as real as the fact that I was sitting alone in the middle of no where by myself, love was and still is real, and Milo well he is just a dick, I had to face that. I left the dinner place got in my car and drove. I ended up at home, a place that I knew I couldn’t face alone, but I had to. As I got out I saw that the bag of clothes that was in the car when we left ot pick up my mother was behind the car, did that mean Milo intended not to go there, my mother had to have something to do with this. But what?
“MUM!” I was yelling as I walked into the house, “WHAT DID YOU DO??!!”
“Oh sweetie, I did nothing, he came into the house and started collecting all his stuff, and I kept on asking what had happened and he said nothing, I’m so sorry hunny I-”
“You don’t get to call me hunny on Milo can call me that!”
“Sweetie he has left you, I tried to stop him but, he just wouldn’t talk or listen so I I had no idea what was going on.”
“Mum just leave me alone!” I ran up to my room and jumped on my bed and cried.
SUNDAY
MONDAY
TUESDAY
WEDNESDAY
THURSDAY
FRIDAY
SATURDAY
“Sarah, its Jake, its been a week and me and Rhi are scared, just unlock the door sweetie, please.”
“Please Sarah, just let me in.” Rhi hadn’t asked to come in before, I mean she had a key and she hadn’t used it all week, she would always unlock the door, even when me and Milo were havin- NO I had to stop thinking about him.
“Rhi come in, its unlocked.” And it was, I had unlocked it on Friday. I wanted to leave this room, but the thought that this is the only place that I could hide from the world, the one place that for some reason maybe me feel like Milo was next to me, I needed him more then I needed water or food. He was my everything I need in life and he still is, I feel so broken without him, no amount of chocolate or cookies and cream ice cream could match the feeling when I laid with him, or kissed him or even talked to him.
“Hey Sarah, its Rhi” She spoke quietly and walked up and sat on the end of the double bed.
“He’s gone, he is really gone” It was obvious that I was crying but she had seen me cry a million times, but his time it was different, it was heart brake.