Love Lust & Heartbreak

sometimes
living with disabilities is difficult
living without confirmation is almost as bad
knowing that some of the most basic things you do
are completely unnatural
or weird
weird weird weird weird weird weird weird weird weird
and that
talking makes it worse
because your parents don't understand it
and you can't afford to see someone

and soon
even though you don't even know how to cook a proper meal
or drive
or talk to new people
talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk t
you're expected to become an adult

depression
anxiety
speech
"emotional intelligence"
rent
food
college
loneliness
all struggles have words
but i can never find the right ones