Devil with Angel Eyes

FWD March 18th; the premiere of The Dirt

Today is the day of the premiere. I find myself getting ready at my dad’s place. Danny is sitting on the bed in the guest room as I walk in completely dolled up and ready to turn some heads. And apparently that starts with my date for the evening.

“Damn, Nik.” Danny smirks. “Looking good. You are definitely pulling out all the stops. It’s as if you are trying to make someone jealous. Loving the shorter hair by the way. The edgier look suits you.”

“Thanks.” I smile as I play with my much shorter hair. “It was time for a change. I’ve had long hair for hair too long.”

“Just don’t be like every other girl that goes through heartache. Don’t have a bright red hair phase, please?” He chuckles. “I can’t picture you any other color but blonde.”

“I plan on staying a blonde for as long as possible.” I assure the lead singer. “Besides I’m not in the mood to wreck my hair like I did in my teenage years. I swear I was dying it a different color every week.”

“I honestly wish I knew you back then.” He states. “You sound like a fucking hellion.”

“I’m still a hellion and you fucking know it.” I chuckle. “Not much has changed, honestly. The big change is my lack of drug use. I’m not dropping acid as much, I’m not doing lines a coke once in a blue moon. I’m just smoking a ton more weed and cigarettes and me and Jose are renewing our vows soon.”

“See where was I during your drug phase?”

“London?” I shrug. “I don’t know. I stopped doing drugs once a saw my college roommate die from a heroin overdose. Plus I was slowly seeing myself turn into my dad and that scared the everliving fuck out of me.”

“That I can understand.” He nods his head. “And I can see now why you were always so worried about me when I would go on my benders.”

“Despite popular belief, I’ve always cared about you Worsnop.” I smile. “I am your future ex-wife aren’t I?” He gets up off the bed and pulls me into a hug and places a kiss on the top of my head.

“Love ya Lee.” He says as he tightens the hug. “Douglas was a fucking idiot to let you slip through his fingers.”

“Love ya too Worsnop.” I squeeze back. “And you’re a little bias, aren’t you?”

“Future ex-husband after all.” He chuckles, mimicking my statement earlier.

**

“So why me and not anyone else?” Danny asks as we make our way to the red carpet. “Not that I’m complaining or anything. I get to hang out with you and watch a movie about Motley Fucking Crue. And get to hang out with said band.”

“Out of all my guy friends, you’re the only one Douglas as shown to be jealous of.” I reply. “This is coming from Ashley and apparently seconded by Kennny.”

“Why is he jealous of me?” He chuckles. “We are just friends.”

“Ben has mentioned that he has tried to get us together in the past.” I reply. “Plus I think it’s the whole “future ex-husband/wife” thing we do.”

“Don’t you call Gunner your other half?”

“Yea but Douglas knows my history with Gunner. He doesn’t really know our history. And I think that’s what scares him.”

“What history?” He laughs as we make it to the start of the red carpet. We can hear the photographers screaming names and see the blinding lights of the flashes. “We’ve been friends for around ten years. We’ve partied together and our mutual friend has tried to hook us up. That’s it.”

“See I know this and you know this but Douglas doesn’t know this.” I say through a smile as Danny and I pose for pictures. “He is fearing the possibility of me and you.”

“You even said it yourself, there will never be an us.”

“Yea but that’s when you were high all the time.” I remind him. “Your sober now and more bearable.” He looks down at me and smiles just as a paparazzi takes a picture. “People are going to think we’re dating if we keep getting our pictures taken like this.”

“I thought that was the game plan?” He smirks before leaning down to whisper in my ear. “Let’s make your boy jealous, shall we?” He places a soft kiss on my neck, knowing damn well the cameras are living for this.

**

“Damn Mami!” Colson says as he forces me to spin for him. “You’re looking damn fine tonight, loving the hair.”

“You look amazing Nik.” Iwan agrees before pulling me into a hug. “I feel like I haven’t seen you in forever.”

“I know. I kinda miss seeing your lovely face every day.” I smile. “Fuck I miss seeing all of your faces every day.”

“Even a certain Brit?” Iwan questions. “It sucks you and Doug didn’t work out. All of us were shocked when we heard.”

“He’s an idiot.” Colson chimes in. “But it seems like Princess has moved on to another Brit, huh?”

“Me and Danny?” I point to the lead singer talking with Vince. “Yeah right.” I laugh.

“All of us have seen his hands all over you on the red carpet.” Iwan states. “If you guys aren’t together, what was the show all about?”

“I think we all know the answer to that.” I vaguely reply as Douglas and his girlfriend, Bel Powely, walk up towards us.

“Nik, wow.” Douglas smiles. “You look amazing.” He pulls me into a brief hug. “Love the hair.”

“Thanks.” I smile before turning towards Bel. “I’m Nikkole. You must be Bel. I loved you in Mary Shelley.”

Bel looks shocked but smiles. “Thank you. That was very kind of you.”

“Hey Nikki Lee, you’re needed.” Gunner yells, calling me from the group.

“I’ve got a show to prepare for.” I smile. “I’ll see you guys later, I’m assuming.”

“I forgot you’re performing tonight.” Douglas admits. “Is it still Motley Crue songs?”

“No, Nikki wants me to perform some songs from the CD.” I reply. “Which is something I’m happier with. I’m not good at playing drums and singing at the same time.”

“I highly doubt that.” He smiles. I can feel butterflies fluttering in my stomach. “Break a leg.”

“Thanks.” I smile before allowing Gunner to pull me through the crowd.

“Which song are you performing first?” He asks. “And is it Douglas related?”

“Ish.” I laugh, replying to the second question first. “I’m performing Dark in my Imagination. It’s not totally about him but it’s about him enough.”

“You’re performing Goodbye, For Now tonight, right?” He asks. “I honestly think that Brit needs to hear it.”

“Not tonight.” I tell him. “Some other time. Tonight isn’t the night.”

Gunner is about to say something but quickly shuts it mouth when the intro to Dark in my Imagination starts. “Break a leg, Lovey.”

“Will do Sixx.” I kiss his cheek before hoping up on stage and grabbing the microphone and taking a look in the crowd. Iwan, Colson and Douglas are all standing right up front. A smirk dances on my lips as I begin to sing.

”There's something in the look you give
I can't help myself I fall
I can't help myself at all”

I briefly kneel down in front of Douglas, despite his girlfriend standing right there and continue the song.

“There's something in your touch when we kiss
I scream god forgive me please
'Cause I want you on your knees”.

I break the stare we’re sharing as I stand up straight and walk away, smirking as I do. I’m going full force tonight. I’m going to make sure he knows exactly what he left behind.