The Fueled By Ramen Analysis

I looked at him, waiting for his adorable grin to grace his face and for the words ‘just kidding’ to escape his lips but they never did.

“Wait, what do you mean?” I asked him as tears began welling up in my eyes.

“Here, follow me,” he said, getting up and walking away from the group. “If we’re going to talk it can’t be anywhere near them.”

I quickly mimicked his moves and followed him past all the brightly colored games and into the ball pit area.

“Adam,” I began in a small voice. “I don’t think-”

“No, Chelsea May. For now, just… just let me speak while I have the courage to,” Adam said as he let his body sink into all the plastic balls. He then pointed at the spot in front of him. “Go there.”

I took a deep breath, calming my wildly beating heart. If I wanted him to talk I had to follow his every instruction. It was not only my duty as his therapist to find out what was wrong but my duty as his friend. After reassuring myself that he wasn’t going to hurt me, I waded through the sea of balls and situated myself in front of him.

“What did I do wrong?” I asked him, trying to not let any tears escape as his eyes locked onto mine.

“Chelsea May, ever since I laid eyes on you in Pete’s guest bathroom you haven’t left my mind. At first it was manageable. I could get through the day easily, joke around, goof off with everyone… you were easily pushed to the back of my mind. But as we hung out more, it became harder to do that. I now honestly dream of your eyes, that smile. And that day at the airport, when we kissed… it felt so right,” he said, taking my shaking hands into his. “Now whenever I see you, my heart stops in the best way possible. Look at the way I’m acting! The words I’m saying! I feel like I’m listing every cliché in the book but that’s how you make me feel. I’m not the kind of guy to do this… to let a girl get to me.”

He paused for a moment and closed his eyes as he took a deep breath. Adam then continued to talk at a level just above a whisper, “I don’t know what you did, Chelsea May but you got me falling for you. But this morning when Will and I stayed over I went to go check on you and…”

“Oh Adam,” I cried softly. “It’s not what you think! We-”

“Chelsea May, please let me finish,” he said softly, disregarding my last sentence. “I saw you two and I couldn’t help but get jealous as my heart felt like a thousand needles were poking it. You looked so beautiful as you slept on his chest with his arms wrapped around you. I wanted to be him. I wanted to be the one to keep you warm and fall asleep with you right by my side. For the first time in years I wanted to beat my best friend into a bloody pulp because he knew your effect on me, he knew exactly how I felt about you and yet he did that. Even though it may hurt for a while, if Will is what you want then I won’t stop him. It would be selfish of me to-”

“Stop it Adam!” I said, gripping onto his hands. “Will and I are just friends.”

“Bullshit! Friends don’t sleep like that.”

“Yes they do,” I said pleadingly. “Just let me explain. Okay?”

He nodded for me to continue.

“After last night's incident I slept to forget about the picture frame but then I had this one nightmare that I haven’t had since I was 13. It scarred me as a child and the only way I could go back to sleep was if I was in the arms of one of my parents. When I woke up from it, I got a glass of water and Will was there. I didn’t feel safe, I was so vulnerable and Will told me you were knocked out so I asked him to stay with me for the rest of the night. If you were awake too I would have asked you to sleep by me too, cause at the time I would take any protection I could get,” I said, finishing my story.

“So you and Will are just friends?” Adam asked, making sure.

“Yes, me and him are just friends,” I replied.

"And that means I have a chance, right?” he asked, his mood instantly turning around.

The weight of our conversation had finally gotten to me. Adam T. Siska, my old crush, not only liked me but he was crazy about me. And here he was asking if he had a chance. Although I wanted to say yes my mind couldn’t help but wander to Will, Ryan and even Brendon, the other boys who seemed to confuse me. I racked my brain for a way to not get his hopes up but still not discourage him.

“The chance is always there Adam, and I admit, I used to have the biggest crush on you but right now I’m not in any position to get involved in a relationship. I’m in a new city with a new job and I still need time to adjust to it all. Plus I have no idea if the big bosses at Fueled by Ramen would approve. For now just keep your options open,” I said truthfully.

“You‘re right. I‘m acting selfish again. But if you ever do feel like you‘re ready, tell me yeah?” he said, smiling slightly.

“Of course, we’re still friends… right?”

“Chelsea May,” he said, softly cupping my cheek. “I could never stay away from you for too long. Even if you had said that I didn‘t have a chance, I‘d be mad but I wouldn‘t let that break our friendship.”

I dove towards Adam and hugged him tight. He instantly returned the hug, gripping onto my body as I sighed out of delight.

“What was that for?” he chuckled, releasing me as we got up and out of the ball pit.

“Bone crushing bear hugs are my favorite,” I said as we slowly made our way back to the booths. “Adam, please promise me one thing.”

“Anything,” he said seriously, stopping in his tracks.

“Whenever something’s bothering you, please let me know asap, especially when it’s involving me,” I said.

“In that case… May May, you look absolutely breathtaking today,” he said, grinning madly.

“You dork!” I laughed, shoving his chest slightly.

“Well you said if something was bothering me to tell you and so I did! But come on, let’s go back. Knowing Joe, he probably ate our pizza already,” Sisky said, linking our arms together.

“I hope you know what you just did,” I giggled as we raced back to the other guys.

“What did I do?” he asked.

“Welcome to the madness,” Andy cracked up instantly when he saw our arms linked. “I see the mac daddy pimpcess has captured herself another hoe.”