Wreckage From the Past Haunts Me; Shakes Me to the Bone

“Ugh why did you let me get drunk?” I asked Matt as I leaned on him.

“Because I was drunk.” He said as he nursed his head. I sighed and took my head out of my hands and rested my head in the crook of his neck. We were at the airport in China. I don’t even know what town. All I know is that our ride is late and I mean everyone’s ride! Jimmy shifted slightly. His head buried in my neck keeping the sun out. I lifted my head for a moment before laughing at the sight of Joey hiding his head in Sid’s neck.

I groaned again as a pain shot through my head. I buried my head back in Matt’s neck before sighing. He giggled. Yes M. Shadows giggled, as my breath hit his neck making me laugh quietly again. The Advil I took earlier wasn’t working. The pounding was annoying. It was like Joey, Jimmy, Brandon, Jussi, and Gas were all playing the drums in my head at once.

“I think Joey needs a girlfriend.” Audrey said as she hugged herself closer to my leg. Yeah she’s sitting on the floor in front of me. I don’t know why though.

“I think you’re right hun. Maybe he’s really gay.” I said as I pulled my head out of my brother’s neck. He groaned and shoved my head back into his neck before leaning his head on mine. I felt something hit my knee and I yelped. I looked down at the drum stick on the ground and back up to Joey who was glaring.

“He’s not my lover!” He yelled before grabbing his head.

“Hun that’s not what we said.” I said as laid my left leg in Matt’s lap. Jimmy’s breath was lightly tickling my neck making me kind of tense. I looked back to see he was asleep. I noticed that he was slowly leaning back. I laughed inward before wrapping an arm around his back.

“Where’s Nikki?” Tegan asked for the first time today. Johnny just pointed out towards the door where Jocie was yelling into the phone. Tegan just nodded and went back to burying her head in Zacky’s neck. Ville shook his head before walking outside. Nikki walked back in and sat with her head on Johnny’s leg.

“When’s our ride coming?” Corey asked smiling at the site of the rest of us in pain. Jackass never has a hangover and I know for a fact he has pain pills in his bag. He’s just selfish! Lauren was laughing at us too. She didn’t drink. She went to sleep there, but wasn’t passed out.

“Ask Ville.” She said as she rolled over. Something’s bothering her. Tegan looked at me questionably. I just shrugged my shoulders in response. I closed my eyes and tighten my grip on Jimmy’s waist. He shifted so his arms so one was wrapped around my shoulders and one was wrapped around my waist. I heard Raynee huff as he moved his foot over.

“Tell your husband to get his foot off of me.” She said, but it was kind of muffled.

“I can’t.” I said as I yawned.

“Why not?”

“Well one: he’s asleep; two: he’s not my husband yet.” I said smartly.

“Shut up!” Syn mumbled from his spot on the floor.

“Ok good news and bad news.” Ville said as he walked back into the airport.

“You found us a ride?” Jussi asked as he sat on Raynee’s lap. She just laughed and wrapped her arms around his waist.

“Yes, but you’re going to kill me for who I got.” He said as he smiled sheepishly.

“You didn’t.” Lusty said as her head shot up from Syn’s chest.

“I love you.” He said as he walked backwards.

“Have no fear Party Boy’s here!” Chris *Ponious* yelled as he ran into the airport. He was dressed in a super hero outfit. A blue spandex body suit with a thong in the middle of his chest and a pair of red tighty-whiteys on. Needless to say him yelling made various items go flying.

“Oh shit.” Nikki mumbled.

“Hey I got a free condom!” Steve-o yelled as ran over.

“Hey that’s my condom!” Dan yelled.

“Finders keepers!” Knoxville said as he walked over to Dan.

“Alright everyone there is five buses outside. Pick your shit up and get the hell out there!” Bam said as he walked in.

“What the hell are all of you doing in China?” I asked, thinking about it for a minute. Finland, I can understand. Hell I can understand the rest of the countries too, but I don’t think I had ever heard of them in China.

“When do I think about where I go?” Bam asked as he picked up Steve-o and threw him into the wall. I shook my head.

“Baby wake up.” I whispered quietly in Jimmy’s ear. He shifted and opened his eyes staring at me.

“Our ride here?” He whispered just as quietly.

“Ville got the Jackass crew to pick all of us up” I said as I kissed him. He groaned, but nodded. He grabbed one of his bags and I grabbed mine before walking outside. Right outside of the airport sat five buses. All different colors. Well black, white, tan, dark blue and light blue.

“Avenged and Angels you get the express. It’s got three flat screens, a small kitchen, 12 bunks, tvs in every bunk, radios, dvd players, 2 closets, a bathroom with a Tv, and a back room full of electronics!” Johnny yelled as he walked to the light blue bus. We nodded and climbed into the bus. It was pretty awesome. It had two leather couches that had tvs over each other. That’s all I really saw I was walked back into bunks. Sure enough 12 bunks sat against the wall in an even, straight line. Jimmy was behind me obviously wanting more sleep.

“Here let me see your bag. Go ahead and get in bed.” I said as I kissed him lightly. He nodded and climbed into the top bunk. I smiled and put both of our bags into the closet before climbing into the bunk with him. He was staring at a piece of paper.

“Bam said to clean up any spots we leave.” He said as he smiled weakly. I laughed and shook my head, laying down with my head on his chest. He sighed quietly and wrapped his arms around my waist and ran his hands up and down my back. I wrapped on arm behind his shoulders and one just laying up near my face. My eyes were closing a bit more with every breath before they were all the way closed. Jimmy’s heartbeat was acting as my own personal lullaby making it that much easier to fall asleep.

Lusty’s P.O.V

“I’m going to kill Ville for getting Bam to pick us up!” I said as me and Brian sat down. He laughed at me knowing exactly why I wanted to kill Bam. Three years ago Bam had almost ruined my relationship with Brian, by saying I slept with him. Childish I know, but me and Brian had only been dating for a short while, three months at the most. I was a party girl and he was a manwhore. So when the joke got out Brian believed it at first. Then later on realized the no way in hell is Bam my type.

“Hun control your self. Let’s just watch movies. It was nice of him to pick us up.” He said as he looked at me.

“I guess.” I mumbled. He laughed and kissed me.

“I’m tired.” Brian said as he pressed his head to my chest. I laughed quietly and ran my hand through his hair.

“I need Advil.” I said as I rubbed my temple with one hand.

“Nikki has some in her purse.” Brian said as he pointed over at the black tote bag. I nodded and got up, pushing him off me. He huffed making me laugh. I got into Nikki’s bag and grabbed out the Advil. I swallowed two dry before putting it back into her bag. I turned away and started to walk off, when I heard her phone go off. I picked it up and went to put it back in her bag, knowing it was wrong to read it, but something caught my eye. It was a text from her dad. When we tour in Europe she doens’t talk to her dad a lot because it makes her home sick. I looked back at Brian who was nearly asleep. I closed my eyes and opened her phone. There said the words that I wasn’t expecting.

The Same thing happened to your mom when she was this far. This far of what?

Nikki’s P.O.V

I was currently throwing things all over the bunk space trying to find a good shirt to wear. I finally just settled on a plaid black and grey shirt that would go with my dark blue jeans. I fixed my hair quickly and put on my make up. We had a little over 30 minutes to get on stage but something was plaguing my mind. The conversation me and my dad said was getting to me. I shook my head and leaned farther into the skin. I heard the bathroom door open but I didn’t pick up my head. I felt an arm wrap around my waist and pull me back into their chest.

“What’s the matter baby?” Johnny asked placing soft kisses up and down my neck.

“Nothing. I’m ok.” I said looking at him through the mirror.

“You’re lying to me. Your eyes are changing color. Plus your dad texted me earlier and said he wouldn’t tell me why, but that I needed to keep an eye on you.”

“When she had went to Europe with him she felt extremely homesick. So homesick she actually started to have suicidal thoughts. I was starting to get them so I talked to my dad and he said the same thing happened to her and that I need to be around my family.” I looked up and saw him nod. He turned me around so I was facing him.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” He said as he placed a hand on my cheek.

“I didn’t want you to worry.” I said as I stared at him.

“I’m your boyfriend. I’m supposed to worry.” He said as he kissed me.

“I know, but I had a lingering thought of you leaving me.” I said with my head down. He picked my head back up and kissed me softly again.

“I’m never go to leave you. Where would I go that you wouldn’t know of?”

“New York?”

“You know about it.” He said laughing, “Baby. I’m not go to leave you ever. You have my heart way too much. I can’t picture myself with anyone else. Ever. You’re the only one that I want. To marry, have kids with, and grow old with. God I sound like a girl.” He said laughing. I giggled.

“No, you’re being honest.” I said. Feeling bad about the whole thing.

“Don’t feel bad about it baby. Come on. You have a rock show!” He said as he dragged me out of the bathroom with a huge smile. I laughed feeling a bit better. He wasn’t going to leave me...even if what I told him was a lie.