I Told Myself That I Wouldn't Miss You, but I Remember What It Feels Like Beside You

Currently I'm taking my daughter (who is extreamly upset with me) to her father's house. Who has moved on and we are back to friends unfortinuately. "Mommy?"

"Yea sweety?"

"Why did you get mad at daddy?"

"Because daddy did some stupid things."

"Oh."

That's all she says anymore and it upsets me because she doesn't understand.

You're the one that doesn't understand.

What the hell are you talking about?

You had the greatest thing in your life again and then you left him.

SHUT THE HELL UP!

I finally pulled into Brian's drive-way and helped Olivia out. She made a mad dash to the door and Brian had it open just in time. "Daddy!"

"Hey girlie."

"I missed you."

"I missed you too."

I made it up to where they were and politely said hi to him and handed over her over-night bag. "Hey guess who's here."

"Who?"

"Papa Gates."

"Yay! Put me down Daddy!"

She went crazy to find him and Brian shut the front door and came closer to me. "Andie, I have to go to LA for some band stuff."

"Why are you telling me?"

"Because I want to go together-"

"Hell no."

"I was going to say as friends and all but alright. I guess you haven't stopped
being a bitch."

"I didn't mean to say it like that."

"Of course not. You never have."

"Cut the shit Gates. You fucking know better."

"Yea I do. You fucking used me."

"Why would I use you?"

"Because I'm rolling in dough and all I was to you was a lover. You never wanted me just Synyster Gates."

"No I wanted the Brian Elwin Haner Jr. that was a egotistical jerk and stuck up
for me and loved me. The one that didn't cheat on me with my best friend."

"I-"

"Just shut up and leave me the fuck alone. I'll see you when I pick Olivia up."

I left angry and dissapointed.

The last emotion I thought I would feel when I was yelling at him was complete.