We Never Were (So We Die!)

*Angel*

The girls and I have gotten mega-big in the one year we've been in the music industry. Our album is on the charts! We re-released our debut CD last year and wound up writing our sophomore album! Ever Night's success has been phenomenal. Most comments are on my voice, which irritates the scheisse out of me AND amazes me. Jadyn, Alura, Amara and Eva are PHENOMENAL musicians and yet my vocals get the compliments. Guess we'll have to up our limits for this world-wide debut as Blood Ravyn, Ever-Night's alter-ego. We went big, disappeared and emerged as Blood Ravyn. We have masks, hoodies, poses that cover our faces- anything that can disguise us. We decline anything that involves showing our faces. But today, the girls and I decided to reveal our true visage as the famous girl rock/metal band Ever Night. I'm damn excited! Hell in the middle of Slaying The Dreamer during the headbanging sequence I get to dramatically remove my mask! In the last order though.

"EARTH TO BLUT ENGEL!" Jadyn lightly slaps me across the face to end my trance. "Save your hypnotic-ness for the fans, 'cause baby we're on T-F**KING-V! WORLD-WIDE! :D" Jaidyn tunes her guitar, Alura on bass, Amara on her keyboards and Eva pats her drumsticks on stage. "You're angry with Keith, Blood. Let it all the fuck out. Sing "Heads Will Roll", "Crawl", "Get Me Out Of Here" and Cut You Down!" Oh HELLS yeah! "Jaidyn? Have I ever told you I love you?" She cracks up hysterically, holding her stomach and trying not to drop her blood red electric guitar. "Ja. Every fucking day. Ich liebe dich auch fur immer, engel! :)" We wipe a tear away and embrace tightly. "Girls you're on. Blut, you come out running and screaming to the crowd when the drumline starts playing. You start off with Get Me Out Of Here. ja?" The girls and I nod in unison and they (Jaidyn and Alura) tune their guitars, tap their legs with their drumsticks and Amara plays random notes on the keyboard.

"LADIES AND GENTLEMEN THE MOMEMT YOU'VE BEEN WAITING FOR!" *draws breath* *exhales* Here we go. I adjust my lace arm-warmers and studded wristbands. "BLUT RAVYN!" The cheers echo throughout my head as my sister starts the music with her powerful guitar skills. For this performance, I don't play guitar. I only play for our own music. :) The drumline begins, I adjust the earpiece that's supposed to feed me a recording of the original songs so I know what way to sing and run out to the ginormous stage, staring at all the hundreds of cameras, signs and screaming fans. "DEUTSCHLAND HOW THE FUCKING HELL ARE YOU!? LET ME SEE MY FELLOW GERMAN ROCKERS SCREAM! SCREAM LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW!!!" I point my mic at the crowd and they try screaming into my mic. "DANKESCHON! Now this first one is called Get Me Out Of Here. If you ever heard of Marion Raven, a rock/alternative singer-songwriter from Norway, you will know this song as one of her heaviest. ENJOY AND DANKESCHON!"

Jaidyn starts the guitar, followed by the bass and drums.

"(I am serious
I don't play around
This is your lucky day
I am dangerous)

Don't wanna stay so I'll leave with you
Had a thought in my mind of a game for two
Do you know what I want, do you want it too
Tell me yeah yeah yeah yeah

Oh my god, get me out of here
Take me now, take me anywhere
Away from everyone I don't care
Oh my god get me out of here

(I'm mysterious
Time is precious
What are you waiting for?
I'm dead serious)

You don't have anything to lose
Understand what you got, and I'll let you choose
Cause I know what you want and I want it too
Tell me yeah yeah yeah

Oh my god, get me out of here...

Yeah (x3)
Yeah (x3)

Oh my god, get me out of here..."

The fans start the shrieking as soon as Jaidyn's guitar stops. "DANKESCHON, MY FELLOW GERMAN BLOODED ROCKERS! NOW. This one is for all the girls going through a nasty break up as a result of cheating. Also by Marion Raven, WHO HAPPENS TO BE HERE TODAY, here is: BREAK YOU. Girls, take a motherfucking stand and kick some arsch. :D"

Again, the inhuman guitar skills of my sister starts the song and I put all my anger towards Keith, my ex who turned even more abusive after I told him I'd gotten pregnant by him. It wasn't rape, we both wanted it. "Keith Anderson, I am Blood Angel. You come near me again you abusive, cheating scum I will kick your wussy little ASS." The girls cheer me on and I begin to sing Marion's song. She's actually backstage watching me! :D

"I was your girl
Gave you my world
My everything
But you wouldn?t see

I had your back
I backed you up
Whatever I did
Was never enough

Just you
You
That's all you ever thought about
You
You
No one matters like you do
What goes around comes around
You should know by now

Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now

The palm of your hand
That was your plan
Gave me no time
But now you want mine

It's all about take
You took too much
Nothing inside
I'm all used up

Come on
You
You
Nothing else matters like you do
You know what I'm talkin' 'bout don't you
What goes around comes around
You should know by now

Bet you never thought that I could break you...

On your one night stands
(should've thought about that)
Says she's just a friend
(should've thought about that)
Are you satisfied now?
(should've thought about that)
Cause you can't hold me down
Not now
I wanna thank you 'cause now I'm free
I can breathe again and I'm never going back to you

Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way?
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now
Yeah yeah

Bet you never thought that I could break you
(Bet you never thought that I could break you)
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now!" The girls throw the rock sign in the air to me.

"TOM KAULITZ-TRUMPER OF MAGDEBURG-CURRENTLY IN LOITSCHE-GERMANY! I WILL TRACK YOUR WUSSY-ARSCH DOWN FOR SENDING MY SISTER TO HER DEATH. The part about the one night stands" I sing the ''On your one night stands (should've thought about that)...' "Was dedicated to Tom Trumper. He tried one night stands to see if he loved my sister. She killed herself. So now this song is fucking called HEADS will ROLL! Namely Tom's. :D" Jaidyn, once again, begins the song. This song is how I feel about Keith abusing me in every way. I tried fighting but for some reason, I always lost. I haven't been able to fight!

"(There's a taste in my mouth that I never had before
To be a cheater, defeater, are things I won't ignore
Like a rat in a trap you're head got in the way
Nothing left of you, but a memory of a bad lay)

Heads gonna roll (Heads gonna roll)
I'm back in control (back in control)
It's a jungle out there it's gonna eat you up & strip you bare
I'll swallow you whole (swallow you whole)
Then spit out your soul (spit out your soul)
I wanna make this clear, my dear that heads will roll

There's a look in your eyes, am I the one you dread?
You make me wonder what's going on inside your head
(Inside your head)
You lie and you slither like a cold-blooded snake
I'll make you pay for your big mistake

Heads gonna roll (Heads gonna roll)
I'm back in control (back in control)
It's a jungle out there it's gonna eat you up & strip you bare
I'll swallow you whole (swallow you whole)
Then spit out your soul (spit out your soul)
I wanna make this clear, my dear that HEADS WILL ROLL!

When I think of you, I think of this
And then it turns to Bitterness
I'm praying for amnesia, I beg for anesthesia

Forget the lies, and numb the pain
If this don't stop I'll go insane
The more I hurt, the more I'll curse your name

Heads gonna roll (Heads gonna roll)
I'm back in control (back in control)
It's a jungle out there it's gonna eat you up & strip you bare
I'll swallow you whole (swallow you whole)
Then spit out your soul (spit out your soul)
I wanna make this clear, my dear that heads will roll

Heads gonna roll (Heads gonna roll)
I'm back in control (back in control)
It's a jungle out there it's gonna eat you up and strip you bare
I'll swallow you whole......." I continue to soak in the screaming fans in the crowd. "You guys like that, ja? Here's a newbie. This is a calm power ballad yet- alright so two more Marion Raven covers, ok? This one is called Here I Am." Amara brings out my stool and I'm handed my acoustic guitar, sitting besides my sister who's accompanying me.

"I'll protect you don't be scared
No matter what I will be there
I'll be gentle I'll be light
These are the words you whispered in the night
Here I am (x2)

Now I'm standing in the cold
(everything is said and done)
Atomic winter in my soul
(from the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know
Is I got to let you go
Here I Am (x2)

But where were you when I was scared
A broken promise left me here
A post-it note is what I've got
It says "I'm sorry" but I know you're not
So
Here I am yeah
Here I am

Now I'm standing in the cold
(everything is said and done)
Atomic winter in my soul
(from the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know
Is I got to let you go
Here I am (x2)

There will come a day when all of this is in my past
And there will come a day when you're out of my head at last
I'm trying not to fall
Damn it's such a long way down
But here I am

Yeah yeah yeah

Now I'm standing in the cold
(everything is said and done)
Atomic winter in my soul
(from the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know
Is I got to let you go

And now I'm standing in the cold
(everything is said and done)

(From the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know
Is I got to let you go

Here I am (x2)" I let my tears fall as I soak in the memories of Jaidyn and I's younger sister, killed in a rage by our dad. Mom didn't care and beat us for everytime she got beat by dad. "Danke. That was for my little sister Helena. We miss you baby-girl. I couldn't save you and I kill myself for it every day but you're in a better place away from this world's pain. ALRIGHT! Now we have another song dedicated to one of my former ex-best friends. In time, you'll all know who he is. ;D" Jaidyn and I take our spots again as Amara begins the piano melody at the beginning.

"High on a hill,
heard a bird sing her song.
Sang you were true well,
she got it all wrong.

She didn't know about your lies,
and all your stupid alibis.
Don't you know this bird got wise,
surprised?
surprised?
surprised?

The writtings on the wall, (yeah x2)
in letters written tall, (yeah x2)
I thought i'd let you know,
before I go,
I will see you crawl

Fell of the hill,
into darkest of dreams.
Promises broke,
with the part as it seems.

So now you know this bird as flown,
you will repay me what you owe.
Don't you know you're gonna live
alone? (alone? x3)

The writtings on the wall, (yeah x2)
in letters written tall, (yeah x2)
I thought i'd let you know,
before I go...
You made a big mistake, (yeah x2)
silent sealed your fate, (yeah x2)
I thought I'd let you know,
before I go...
I will see you crawl

Away till the night comes,
in the darkness, you are no one
away till the night comes,
until I know,
all your shadows are gone.

The writings on the wall, (yeah x2)
in letters written tall, (yeah x2)
I thought I'd let you know, before I go...
You made a big mistake, (yeah x2)
silent sealed your fate, (yeah x2)
I thought I'd let you know,
before I go...
I will see you crawl!!! (x2)"

Marion had joined me on the chorus and sang everytime with me on the "I will see you crawl!" line. "DANKESCHON! Alright. I would like Blood Ravyn's mega-sexy pianist/backup singer and keyboardist Amara Blade to get her arsch on up here for this next song. You guys know NIGHTWISH!?" The fans scream louder than ever. "Good. Danke Gott we have true fans. *smirks* Alright then. The keyboard and it's goddess are on stage ready to play. You guys ready for one HELL of a show!?" They scream again. "DANKESCHON, WE ARE SLAYING THE DREAMERR!!!" Jaidyn begins the song in tune with Alura on bass. I get in two headbangs and start singing the lyrics.

"PLEASE WELCOME JAIDYN'S MAN ON MALE VOCALS!" David comes onto the stage and stands by his mike, waiting for my Soprano to kick in.

"I'm a priest for the poorest sacrifice
I'm but a raft in a sea of sorrow, sorrow and greed
You bathed in my wine
Drank from my cup, mocked my rhyme
Your slit tongues licked my aching wounds

Put a stake! Through my heart
And drag me into sunlight
So awake! For your greed
As you're slaying the dreamer"

I can see the girls headbanging and the guys staring in SHOCK. :D *smirks*

"Swansong for the Wish of Night
God it hurts, give a name to the pain
Our primrose path to hell is growing weed

Put a stake! Through my heart
And drag me into sunlight
So awake! For your greed
As you're slaying the dreamer

Blame me, it's me
Coward, a good-for-nothing scapegoat
Dumb kid, living a dream
Romantic only on paper

Tell me why! You took all that was mine!
Stay as you lay - don't lead me astray! [x2]

"MY MAN DAVE LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!"

"Wake up! Mow the weed!
You'd be nothing without me!
Take my life if you have heart, heart to die!"

Dave can fucking sing, man! O.O

"You bastards tainted my tool
Raped my words, played me a fool
Gather your precious glitter and leave me be!
The Great Ones are all dead
And I'm tired, too

I, truly, hate, you, all!"

I launch into the ending siren chant and glare at the crowd, waving my arms around in a mystical move. "DAAAAANNNNNNNNNKKKKKKKEEESSSCHHOON, GERMANY! We have one more song. How many of you guys remember my sister Angel Garabouldie? She's dead now, but she fucking loved this next song. Another point: JAIDYN'S BOYFRIEND CAN FUCKING SING!!! O.O DAMN Jade! Keep this one, ja! xD" The girls laugh with me, and she begins Dead To The World by Nightwish, MY favorite song of theirs.

"All the same take me away
We're dead to the world

The child gave thought to the poet's world
Gave comfort to the Fallen
(Heartfelt, lovelorn)

DAVE CAN FUCKING SING, DUDE! O.O

"Remaining, yet still uninvited
Those words scented my soul
(Lonely soul, Ocean soul)

At this point I remove my hat and make my hair cover my face, extending down to my waist.

"It's not the monsters under your bed
It is the Man next door
That makes you fear, makes you cry,
Makes you cry for the child
All the wars are fought among those lonely men
Unarmed, unscarred

I don't want to die a scarless man
A lonely soul
(Tell me now what to do)

I studied silence to learn the music
I joined the sinful to regain innocence

And at this point the cameras close up to me, Angel Garabouldie. Revealed to the world as rock voice of Ever Night. :)

"Heaven queen, cover me
In all that blue
Little boy, such precious joy
Is dead to the world

Heaven queen, carry me
Away from all pain
All the same take me away
We're dead to the world

Dead, silent, constant
Yet always changing
- My favorite view of this world

As he died, he will return to die in me again
Weaving the cloth, giving birth to the Century Child
Who gave his life not for the world but for me
Innocence reborn once more!!!"

The fans shriek for 10 minutes straight, knowing that the band before them is the infamous Ever Night. They keep chanting our band name, holding up peace signs, devil horns and chants. "DEUTSCHLAND, AND PLANET EARTH. THE NAME IS ANGEL. BLUT ENGEL. WE ARE EVER NIGHT AND ARE GLAD TO BE BACK. I made it through several not nice boyfriends and even had a kid with one then he went more abusive on me. Yet I made it. Girls you can too. We are not some fucking puppets to satisfy men's desires for punching bags and good FUCKS in the sack! TOM KAULITZ THE LAST PART WAS DIRECTED AT YOU! OUR PAST IN MAGDEBURG IS NOTHING TO ME YOU SACK OF LYING SCHEISSE! Dankeschon, deutschland! Let me hear you say EVER NIGHT!!!" I walk around the stage, soaking in the screams. Danke Gott we accepted this gig.

I have never felt so fucking alive and kicking! :D