As My Tears Turn Red

My sleep was dreamless.

Just darkness.

Waking up I felt awful.

My shoulders sore from being tackled and pinned and my head was throbbing.

I was also confused.

I want to be with Kay and the guys again, but at times I feel so safe here in Dakota's arms.

I rolled over on the bed I was now on, under the mounds of covers.

Probably set up just for me, the wolves don't seem to be affected by the cold they're always so warm.

I wonder if that's why its cold anyway.

The sound of the bedroom door opening caused me to sit up.

“Ah your awake” Dakota was calm.

“Yea”

“Well now you really must be hungry”

“Yes!” I eagerly jumped out of bed, regretting it as I hit the cold air.

Dakota chuckled and walked up to me.

He picked me up and began carrying me to the kitchen.

I snuggled my head into his warm chest.

I fit perfectly.

We made it to the kitchen and I heard him grabbing a plate.

He put something on it and I lifted my head.

Cinnamon rolls, yum.

He set it down on the table with one hand and put me in the chair.

I shivered and frowned.

“I'll be right back, I'm just getting you a drink, eat” He reassured me.

I dug into the glazed roll and ate it in a spiral pattern.

I tried to ignore the cold but didn't have to for long.

Dakota came back carrying a mug of hot chocolate.

He sat it next to my plate and pulled me out of the chair.

I sat on his lap when he sat in the chair and continued eating.

I finished my breakfast with downing all the hot chocolate.

I leaned against his chest and sighed contentedly.

Upon hearing this I could tell he was smiling.

“What are you thinking about?” His voice was soft, showing interest.

“I'm thinking...” I paused slightly, “how is it that I feel so safe in your arms?”

I tilted my head to look up at him.

He was looking down at me, eyes shining.

“It's good that you feel safe”

“Yes it is, I just find it odd”

“Why?”

“Well I still miss Kay-” His eyes turned hard with the mention of my friend and I stopped.

“I mean you did snatch me during a battle, it's just odd” I finished.

He pushed me off of him and that uneasy feeling returned.

“Sam!” Sam came into view from another room, “Watch her , I'm going out” The harshness of his voice was back.

He stormed off and out the door, me still sitting on the floor staring after him.

“Lily?” Sam called with concern, “Lily, what happened?”

“I screwed up” I picked myself off the floor shivering , “ I mentioned Kay”

Sam nodded in understanding and walked out of the room, I followed.

He led me to a T.V. Room, a huge plasma on the back wall and a sectional before it.

He motioned for me to sit down and I curled up in the corner.

He draped a heavy blanket over my shaking form and then sat down on the couch himself.

We watched random shows, though I didn't really pay attention to any of it.

I was too busy thinking.