Rachel Rants: Driving.
Oh god.
So you know how some people are scared of spiders? And some people are scared of flying? And some people are scared of sharks?
Well me, I'm scared of cars.
There are only a few people I'd get in a car with. They terrify me.
So my mum and I had this deal. I am finally allowed to get my lip pierced if I got my learners licence.
So I studied the road code, went and sat my theory test and passed.
Excellent. BUT
Because I got my learners licence through my course they expect me to do driving lessons. I was like "Uhh.. No. I can't. Sorry." And explained to my tutor that I have this weird irrational fear and what not... So they decided I should go with Charlotte during her lesson and just sit in the back and "Take a chill pill or tw- seven."
So while Charlotte was a good driver and the instructor kept asking me if I was okay I was just about crying the whole time. I can't explain it. I was just terrified.
Then Charlotte has this great idea "We should go up to Seaview and let Rachel drive!"
Seaview is the old abandoned hospital place. Very big, Very empty...
I nearly threw up.
So the instructor turned around and said "So what do you think?" I told him I didn't want to drive. He said that was fine but told Charlotte to go up there anyway and practice U-turns. So I semi-relax.
Anyway, we get up there and he's like "Right stop here, Charlotte." So she parked the car, turned it all off and everything. then he goes "Right, swap drivers."
Instantly my hands got sweaty and my mouth dried up (Why is that...?) anyway I was all "Waaah. No I can't."
At this point Charlotte was out of the car, trying to open my door to get in the back seat. But I freaked out, tried to lock it..., couldn't. So I was just holding it shut while trying to explain to this guy I couldn't drive the damn car.
And then, I totally hate my self for this part... my voice started cracking and my knees were shaking. My face got all red cause I was embarrassed for being so scared. He was like "Look we'll take the keys away. I'll get out. You just sit in the driver seat."
GRR. STOP BEING SO UNDERSTANDING! NOW I FEEL WORSE!
But I couldn't do it and Charlotte's just like "... Rachel... are you... crying?"
" -sniff- Nearly. Can you just take me back?"
So they did and kept looking at me like I would spontaneously combust at any second.
When we got back inside my tutor was her usual oober-happy self and said "How'd it go?"
I do believe the answer was "I am a driving instructor. Not a therapist. I don't think I can teach this girl."
...Good news is: I'm getting my lip pierced on the 10th...yay..
Posted on November 3rd, 2008 at 08:31am
LOL! rach! i can't wait to get behind the wheel! that would be the driving wheel that is.... hehe.
i'm 17 and still can't drive yet, whereas my 12 year old cousins best friend is 15, or 16, i dunno, and can already drive! >< come on!!!
onlyfiction, November 17th, 2008 at 08:05:56am
I had my first driving lesson on Saturday. :tehe:
Belikov, November 5th, 2008 at 03:11:44am
Ug, I feel your pain m'dear.
So, you have a fear of whales and cars. Interesting combination...
Nothing_At_All, November 4th, 2008 at 06:04:16am
wow...i knew driving freaked you out...but i didnt realise it freaked you out THAT much :| *hugs* i sorta agree with lost.profound....driving around local streets is alright...but busy highways freak me out...although if they aren't so busy it's not so bad XDand i've probably already told you this but erni+rachel lip piercing = green eyed monster...lol
DevilWearsConverse, November 4th, 2008 at 01:34:57am
:arms:
British people are naturally born sh*t drivers anywhore.
And whoop, lip piercing!
Roonil Wazlib., November 3rd, 2008 at 07:10:11pm
The important thing is that you get to get your lip pierced, right? lol.
Tweaker, November 3rd, 2008 at 06:47:13pm
I just got my license this year and nearly had a break down before both tests I took (I failed the first time, passed the second). The second time, I was crying and begging my mom to go home. Its not so bad driving through my town to school, but ask me to merge or be on busy highways and I have an anxiety attack.
Saint Laralie, November 3rd, 2008 at 05:54:29pm
holy sh*t! i'm totally scared of cars too! my dad is french, so he drives like a f*cking lunatic, and i always start writing my will out in my head, not that it would help or anything >.<
yay for the lip piercing, though :)
ohnonottheanalprobe, November 3rd, 2008 at 01:54:29pm
Awwwww, Rachel :arms:
It'll take time, love - until then... Be happy, you will get a piercing !
I am God, November 3rd, 2008 at 09:52:24am
So that kind of makes me laugh... But I really feel bad for you. I couldn't stand it if I couldn't drive. Where I live, I need a car and I need to know how to drive. If I don't, there's no way I'm getting to town... ever.
So... Yeah, I have no advice to get over your fears, but piercing! Yay! It's almost completely worth it... right?
Good luck with your fears of cars.
ToastAndJam, November 3rd, 2008 at 09:14:44am