kisten is right devin. bottleing up your feeling might turn you numb like is used to be to the piont where you basicly are dead till you snap and everythign comes out (ya not fun especialy if it happens in school) so take her advice :)
All I can say is i will never know exactly what it feels like to be in your shoes its impossible. I know some of the things I write may seem crude but you said it yourself it makes you stronger, and thats all I am trying to do. I spent half my life (so far) trying to be a big tough girl but I still slip up sometimes. I want you to know I will always be there for you and I also want to give you one advise. I learned from personal experence that bottling up your feelings to "look" ok is not the answer. Soon you will become like me. People will think your a person with no feelings/heart. You will also snap out after awhile at stupid things like someone turning your anime off after you already seen it a thousand times. So please be strong but let your feelings shine through and don't put so much on your shoulders.
Sorry if this doesn't make sense I'm zoning here and can barely concentrate.
Hey... I think I'm in sorta the same position as you are.... only I'm worse...
SO theres this guy I like, right?
Yeha but if he knew I liked him he'd kill m e socially with it...yeah one of those types... popular cooler than me we used to be friends, then he ditched me for the perfect girls. he avoids me unless I say something funny or joke about he's in live with me (oh if only...). I don't even really want him to like me that way. I just want him to like me as a friend. But no...
There is nothing like the total agony of being in love
(Well... I wouldn't called it love, more like a very big crush)