Adolescent suicide. - Comments

Oh my god. With every word that i read, my mind drifted off to my one friend. She was so upset one night, and I almost lost her. I actually thought i did for a while, because she faked her death, thinking that everyone would be better off without her. Everything changed when we were told she was dead. August 3, 2009. I'll never forget that day. I cried my heart out for hours on end. But, two months later, when me and her step-sister were talking, the phone rang. So, her step-sister picked up. It was her. My best friend. The one i thought i would never see again. Alive and whole. She had snuck out to California with her mom. She changed her name and her entire look. It was a miracle none the less to have her back. I know how it feels when someone you love for and care about does something stupid. I admit, that I myself, was once suicidal. But I've changed so much. I realized, that it wouldn't stop the hurt, it would begin a whole new kind. I couldn't do that. I couldn't be so cruel to my friends. I love them dearly and i would be lost without them. So, as i say this, i agree. Self-destruction is a horrible thing and never the answer. I am truly sorry. This put me into tears. I know the pain you feel. You're not alone.

I'm sorri about about your friend. At least you guys had a strong frienship before that happened. That's hard to find now.
But I think the hard thing that comes in second to losing someone like that is having to talk them out of it.
I felt like I was the only one that would be responsible if anything happened to her and she left me with nothing to know how she was feeling and I was so worried. But now she's okay and i'm so happy.

But I really am sorri.

That seriously made me cry.

Even when you are RAMBLING you are an amazing writer. God!

Suicide has never really hit me like that. I've been suicidal [god I'm not anymore]. But the only reason I was suicidal was because there was only one thing left in my life that i was living for, and when that one thing was taken away? I didn't know how to deal. I still don't know how to deal. But I'm not suicidal anymore. One certain person came into my life and now I couldn't stand to leave her.

But no one close to me has actually killed him/herself. I don't think I would be able to cope if they did. It was bad enough when my best friend Drew died, and it wasn't even a suicide. If one of my best friend decided to kill themselves, me being the masochistic girl I am would blame myself for being a sucky friend.

So I just hope no one that close to me decides they are going to end my life...

I had a friend kill themself too. It was really sad and I don't think I'll ever get over it especially his funeral. It was terrible.
I'm sorry that had to happen to you too.

Aw that made me cry. ='( Suicide sucks sh*t. I know how it feels, honestly. ='(

I have this quote...

'Before you commit suicide... ask yourself first who might be going in after you.'

I'll be honest and say I've never lost anyone close by suicide, but I've experienced that feeling. About wanting to kill myself because it's just so friggin' pointless. One time I actually gave long, personal messages to everyone I knew (my regrets, my thankfulness, reminiscing, etc.) because I really thought I was going to do it then. The morning after we all laughed about it - they asked me what got into me to become so sentimental... they don't know how close I was. The only things that stopped me was the thought of going to hell, and letting MCR down. I was planning pills and booze too. So, yeah. I genuinely feel sad.

:(

Helena, it's always good to know someone cares. :hug:
I'd do everything to have people who are important to me
smile every second of every day.
And I love you too. I didn't expect to meet someone this good
in our school. x] So you were a nice surprise. :)

"I find it so much easier to tell all these people on the internet my life story. Talking to people in real life is so difficult, they know you. You have to face them every day, and telling them all your dark and twisted secrets is so scary."
~ Exactly.

And, Sara, I really couldn't agree more. Everything you said was so painfully correct. I can only hope that suicide soon won't be 'in' anymore.
I am sorry for your loss. God, I can't even imagine how it felt. I know you don't need my condolence, but I'm there for you. After all those times you made me smile, when I didn't think I had the strength to smile, I want to thank you and let you know how much I love you.
I wish you luck! :}

Thank you people.
I posted this because too many kids on here ramble about suicide.
No one should have to want to take their life because that's not the way
out and it's only hurting others. Reason and consequence, people,
one thing leads to another. One death leads to another.

-hug-

Sara, I didn't know it was that bad. I'm so sorry I wasn't there when you needed to talk. Fuck, just...Just remember that you CAN talk to me, kid. I'll listen, fuck, I'll give you shitty advice if you want. Remember that I love you and I fucking hate seeing you like this.

:(

Im so sorry about your friend. Im really really sorry and I kinda understand though I cant get in ur situation properly and ofcourse I cant feel the exact pain you felt but I understand feeling angry at the person you lost for leaving you. But not exactly angry either. Its the empty feeling that you didnt see it coming or something. Well Ill stop with my rambling since you hate them
Im so sorry again

I'm so sorry. My brother's friend hanged himself a few years ago and even though I didn't know him very well, it was a huge shock for me.
Suicide is not the way out.

I find it so much easier to tell all these people on the internet my life story. Talking to people in real life is so difficult, they know you. You have to face them every day, and telling them all your dark and twisted secrets is so scary. Only very few people in my real life know about the darker parts (well, those that weren't obvious) of my life, and I plan to keep it that way.

I'm so sorry to hear about this. Suicide is fucking painful, for everyone. Recently, my friend told me of how she was planning her suicide three years ago, and it scared me so much. The pain doesn't just affect the person who kills themself, but their loved ones. It ruins the lives of so many people, but so do a lot of things. Self destruction is a fucking painful thing.