Duude. Nothing is wrong with you; Everyone needs a friend, or a bestfriend with them :) And you have this James person. I feel like we have the same problem with our friends. My friend Ashley falls hard fast on love too. But instead when guys dont like her, she goes all depression and talks it out. Maybe you can do the same; Have super loooooong talks x]
I'm pretty sure this is a normal feeling. I get it sometimes. Like, I'm an s-mod on another forum and I feel often like people should look up to me and respect me and that they should get excited when I post in their topics and stuff :x They shouldn't, since I'm just another person, but it's a feeling I get.
It's the same with people. Sometimes I just want someone to be wrapped around my finger, the kind of dependency where I'm all they think about day and night. So if you're diseased, then I'm diseased :3