I could relate to this so much. I had been cutting for nearly four years before I found the courage to stop. Unlike most people, I didn't have a friend to help me overcome it, I did it on my own. Sometimes I look at my scars and wonder why I ever thought it would help, other times all I want to do is start doing it all over again. It's reading about experiences such as your own that stops me from picking up that blade once again. Thank you. <3