Today was...very not good. - Comments

I felt like that yesterday! i just sat in bed eating cereal and then later on i had a random urge to drink this whiskey my mum and dad had, i thought yeah why not try it? so i did, and it fucking killed my throat so now i feel bad again, i guess i just wanted to forget everything :/

Thank you for the suggestion, but I can't really turn to something I don't believe in...sorry?

I hope you can recover from whatever it was, some day.

Hey...I've been feeling that way for the past two yrs. I'm serious. Ever since something very drastic changed my life for ever...actually, the two year anniversary of it is in 10 days...or is it the three year anniversary? Hmm...that's sad that I can't remember...sumtimes I wanna cry so bad I feel naseous...do you know what I do? Sorry if this offends you in any way but...my outlet is Jesus...and I don't really care if that makes me dumb or not. Sometimes Jesus just didn't seem like enough so I took some of my mom's perscription medicine which is suppose to make you crazy drowzy....I regretted it big time! I was drowzy for 3 dayz! Off ONE pill! But...then, I thought about what I did and prayed...it helped...oddly enough. I still haven't really cried in about 2 yrs. though...the psychiatrist said it's not weird...he actually told me that I didn't need to see him anymore...He said my only problem was I was too much of the Picture Perfect Daughter/Kid/HumanBeing...if he only knew.