@ Alex Moore. Yeah I know, but its sorta natural after my sons father to guard myself. Then the relationship after him just made it worse. Like I loved the guy and yeah. Then I tried again and the guy just left, I guess cause certain reasons. He came back a month Later but took two months for my to see him. I wouldn't chill with him. And its like I chilled with him but refuse to get close. Then with everything else I see it as, they have problems and come to me but in the back of mind I just don't care but I still help them out. But its also that I've got friends who keep putting themselves in the same situation. So why should I care ? Ugh lol
I understand you, and I have been there. But you should not let yourself get to a point that there are no people you care about anymore. Guarding everyone off like that is not healthy. Care a bit. Its human.