It use to be like that when I was younger. My dad would throw things he'd whip me with his belt. Thank god for my grandmother to tell him to stop finally I guess it broke through. I guess it's just when you gotten sick of crying and hating on yourself saying "I can't believe I was stupid enough to do that and cause all this." it jsut all ties in...I've only cut once but I i couldn't controll any emotions nothing even happened I guess everything just hit me, moodswings break downs I still have no idea whats going on. Then I cut once...I felt worthless but then listening to flyleaf made me realize it's selfish to hurt yourself and it's "I'm so sick" basically ties in of how I feel. I know my reason was a stupid reason to cut, but sometimes when you finally break it just feels like that's the only choice left.
March 29th, 2008 at 05:20am