how could i

How could i be so FOOLISH! i knew he was 2 good 2 be ture. how could i believe that a great guy like that would want 2 date a girl like me. i should not belaive him when he said i love u and kept leaveing those noted saying i love u SOOOO much!!!!... and of coresed i said i love u alot 2 and i meant it i really did but did didnt matter 2 him.he was the reason why i woke up every moring why i spent my days thinking of him us in the future and if he will.....nm but like how could he this 2 me . now i have no reason 4 getting up in the morning why dont i just end the pain and suffering why why cant i do that that why why. i just cant caus i 2 see wha waits 4 me at the end of the bridge just probly another heartbreak just another.please tell me what 2 do i dont know what 2 do when im like ths what cani do and let me give u this information when he said it was over he left me a note..a note... a note that said he was sorry that it was not me nd then he dedicated this song 2 me and then he said that he just wanted 2 make me happy but also tell me how can i be happy if i was the happest ill ever been in my life when i was with him and if im worring about him every moment everyday how can i be happy with out in me he is in me but like hes not feeling what im feelin (i dont think). how can i listen 2 ny song with thinking of him having a tear roling dowm my face and doing my work HOW can i do anything with out being happy with him. i cant i cant i feelin like 2 end my life right now and watchin over or under him.do u have any addvise 4 me any at all ill take please. i cant help it just saying i love him and nuting will change it. if i have 2 ill give my life 2 prove it or write it on my heart. help