Ever Feel Like You Are Losing The Battle With Your Mind? Please Read and help me.

I have a problem with thinking. i think all the time about things that have happened in the past. alot of the time i end up upset and depressed. it just depends on what i am thinking about. I have been addicted to speed in the past and, it is one of my big triggers. just thinking about it puts me in a bad mood. I was a huge cutter and i have stopped but i still cant get that out of my head. you know? i was also touched and rapped by a man named walt... That just ruins my day.

i was thinking about walt. i did not mean too. my mind just woundered. i hate that today is one of my favorite holidays and i cant seem to enjoy it. i need help, i need help forgetting all the bad and moving on! can anyone out there give me some help on how to forget forever?

-Ausitn