Just your usual rant and a reason why I don't believe in God

Don't you just hate being frustrated? I know I do.

Love is one of those joyfull things every one looks for, for me, I found it BUT what happens when you meet some guy, become friends and something weird happens? You become so confused.

I don't like him AT ALL in a non friend way yet he just always makes me happy no motter what, I feel like in a way I'm cheating.

Oh well that's life for you.

Want to know why I don't beleive in God? How coud he be so cruel to people, let them be born with disabillites, mental illness and let peoples lives and homes be destroyed. Why would he do that to someone?