So much life is pretty much... "better"? Haha NO, I'm screwed.

So I was just on my facebook page and I wanted to go check out my ex. boyfriend’s page. He didn’t come up, so I checked my friend’s list to see if he still had one. He doesn’t. Yay?

No, that’s kinda upsetting. I mean I still lovehim but he did break my heart about three Thursday’s back (October 7, 2010) but who remembers the date anyhow? But yeah, he’s not on anymore. I don’t know if it’s a good or bad thing. Please someone tell me if it is. :(

Please do not preach to me that I’m only fifteen and that I’m silly for thinking I’m in love, because I am in love. Honestly, I didn’t think I’d trust a guy after my first ex. but I did. I knew Chris for six months prior to us going out, and then we spent (almost) all summer together up until the beginning of this month. And yes I did love him. Don’t you dare judge me.

So yeah.. I kinda need help on what to think about this? Is it a good thing? Should I just forget about him and try to move on with my life, or should I try to get him back?

But it might help if I told you why he broke up with me: So it was first period (English) and we’d just taken our pictures for the yearbook. I naturally was texting him to see how he was when out of the blue he goes “I don’t think I’m good for you. I mean I don’t feel the same way anymore. I love you though. Goodbye.” I’m really heartbroken over this. I mean I know that it has to do with his ex. girlfriend who by the way is a slut. I know I shouldn’t think that way but oh well. I just miss him a lot though. :’(

So yes. Advice please? Here’s a poem I wrote about it:

What is love?

What is love?

Is it a tingly,
Warm and fuzzy feeling?
Or perhaps a raw,
Passionate effect brought by
Another?

What is love?

Maybe the feeling you get,
When you know you’re safe?
Having that special someone,
There by your side possibly?

What is love?

Whatever ‘love’ is to yiu,
Hold it near and dear.
‘Fore you never know,
How soon it will slip away.

What is love?

Trust me,
I’ve been there.
And I’ve,
Done that.
But I still love you.

Feedback? Advice? Comments telling me how stupid I am? Comments telling me how I should get over him and move on with my life? Or even just saying that I’m stupid for ‘loving’ him, if I can even call it that? Well just comment I guess. >.<

Love always, Rae

P.S. Yes, the poem is on my poems page thing so if you want to comment on that please go there instead of commenting here!!!
P.P.S. This is also on my tumblr page.