My Boyfriend, Of 7 Months, Cheated On Me.

Ohai, it was on our seven month anniversary too, as if I wouldn't be hurt enough. I feel so bad right now. I feel broken and worthless. I feel like I wasn't good enough for him. Worse? He cheated on me with some skank, who I can honestly say (even with my lack of confidence), that I am prettier than. But I feel ugly. I feel like my body wasn't good enough. I feel like all the sh_t I helped him through wasn't good enough. I feel like I wasn't around enough (though I saw him 2-3 times a week for periods of 10 hours or more). I feel like the world just landed on my shoulders. I can't stop crying. I can't eat. I can't smile. I can't laugh. I feel...like nothing.

Please don't tell me something like "You should have been a better girlfriend." I gave that boy everything I had. I gave him my secrets. I gave him my vcard. I gave him random gifts to show that I loved him. I gave him a vase with 106 different reasons why I loved him. I helped him with his problems. I was THE BEST girlfriend he could've ever had, and he f_cked it up. Even his best friend said he messed up, and she was going to be here for me right now, not him. That's some sh_t isn't it?!

I don't really want sympathy either. I was just letting all this pain out.