July 3rd

Today is July 3rd. You know what that is to me? It's a freaking holy day. It's my Green Day-day.

July 3rd, 2005, my life completely changed. I bought the American Idiot album.
Oh yes, this probably sounds very weird, and quite ridiculous, but it means so much to me. Not only American Idiot, no, everything this band has ever done is amazing to me.

To be honest, I was really a dumb kid. I knew what I wanted, but I never did it. I wasted my time doing things to 'fit in', which I never managed to do anyway. I did all the things others did, but at the nights, when no one saw, I wasn't happy at all, just like they thought I was.
People who knew me well have probably not noticed a big difference in my personality since I discovered Green Day, but this entire "I want to be like everyone else" thing died when they got into my life.
In January 2005, I heard Boulevard of Broken Dreams. Thought it was a great song, even if it was a lot different from what I would usually listen to... like Britney Spears... And by July 3rd 2005, I knew who Green Day were, and I went to buy their album. It was like a brand new world opening up for me.
I've been trying for two years to explain it, but it's impossible.

Green Day have helped me hit the right targets, I've really found something that I love, somewhere where I fit in without thinking about my actions: music.
Without Green Day, I would never get the idea of playing all these instruments that I can play.
I would never sing.
I wouldn't write my own songs.
I wouldn't have my band.
I wouldn't dress the way I do.
I wouldn't hang out with the people I do.
I wouldn't even be the person I am.
Because now I know.

Green Day gave me courage. They picked me up off the ground, made me do something about my life. I seriously can't mention anything very valuable from the time before I discovered them. These guys saved my life.
I can't explain.
I love Green Day, and I will always have a certain connection to them.