I really need a friend

I really need a friend...
Or just a new set of friend's altogether.
I legitimately have no one I can turn to other than my boyfriend...
My "best friend" is admired by every single one of my friends and family members...
It hurts...
I'm not going to post everything on this website because I'm not that low... But she makes me feel that way...
Every time I see her I just can't help but think of what she's done to me... It hurts... I'm trying to distance myself from her, but it doesn't work... She still walks up to me with the biggest smile ever and hugs me... So I talk to her.. And I feel like shit afterwards..
I just really need someone...
I'm tired of keeping her secrets while she keeps stabbing me in the back...
It just fucking hurts and I'm so sick of this pain and weight I carry with me...
In all complete honesty... She makes me wanna die...
There's this tiny piece of me saying I hate her, but I know I can't show it... My boyfriend knows exactly what she's done... And how much it hurts me...
I don't wanna be friends with her, but my mum would be upset with me... As well as my entire family...
I just need a new friend so bad....