Dear Gerard and Bert, [[a rant]]

**This is a three page rant I wrote to a friend of mine the other day. She suggested that I publish it and I thought it was a good idea so here it goes.**

Jess!!

Well, I have decided to finish my translation (Latin) for homework because I can't concentrate. I need to rant about MCR. So, this morning on my way to school I put in TBP because my brother has my copy of 'Bullets.' Idk why, but I have been obsessed with Famous Last Words lately. I want to cry I love that song so much. Thank god for traffic getting into school, I got to hear it twice!! LOL, well I never liked that song, I think its because I was dissapointed in the video (someone in my class just said "Throw Bob at him." haha..Bob..). Anyways, the video, it was ver blah..and Bob got hurt in the process. But lately the song has really gotten to me. It's like the only song I want to listen to (OMG these kids keep talking about Bob! "I wanna see Bob today!" "Bob should beat up that kid!" "Is Bob good at soccer?" "I saved Bob's life!" LOL Bob<3) So, back to FLW..I love it. To much. It really makes me cry. The lyrics are amazing. I don't think a song has ever made me feel like that (other then On My Own by The Used). It's incredible and I can't really explain it. Grr. Well, another topic I would like to touch on is how mad I am at MCR (haha I know, bipolar much, right?). Well not really MCR, more like Gerard. Don't get me wrong, I love the kid with all my heart. I love his voice, and his lyrics, and of course the fact that he is absolutely beautiful, hah! Well, the other day in the car, I was playing The Used and I said, "God I love Bert more then anything." And my mom was like, "What about Gerard?" Obviously, I had to explain. I give Gee so much credit for coming clean and getting over his addiction. I love him and respect him so much for it. And not only did he do it for himself, he did it for the fans. At every show he would get up on stage and tell his whole mother fucking MCRmy that "pissing away your life on drugs and alcohol is a waste of time," and people believed him. They worship him. He gives people a reason to keep on living and has saved the lives of so many kids because someone who they look up to and idolize finally told them that its gonna be ok. But then, out of no where, he went against everything he had been preaching for the past three years. Hes drinking again, thats been proven, and theres no doubt in my mind hes probably using again. I just think its so shitty to do that. Like he is a hero to so many people, and now he proved himself to be a huge fucking hypocrite. WTF?! Grrr. He makes me mad. Now Bert. Bert does drugs. Bert is an alcoholic. And everyone knows it. He could give two shits about what others think. He does what makes him happy. He doesn't get up on stage and put on an act. He gets up there in shitty band shirts and ripped jeans, and hes just a kid. Yes, he does drugs, but he doesn't promote doing it as a good thing. Bert has been through so much, and I respect him like crazy. When he was 16 he was fucking kicked out of his house. He became an alcoholic and addicted to crystal meth and almost killed himself. Like seriously, he had nothing (except for Quinn ^.^). He lost his girlfriend, his baby, and his dog all in the same year. Even after all hes been through, he can still get on stage and give everything hes got. I'm sorry, but I have 10x more respect for Bert then I do for Gerard. Bert, hes seriously my mother fucking hero. I love him more then I can put into words. And I really hate what Gee did to him. After everything hes been through, Bert has no reason to believe that he can trust people. For him to be able to let Gerard in and call him a real friend must have taken a lot. He trusted Gerard, but Gerard tossed him to the side as soon as they didn't agree on something. Thats really low. And I wish people would stop raggin on Bert for still talking shit about Gee. Like I said, Bert has been hurt so many times in his life, that this must have put him over the top. Gee obviously hurt him bad if he is still saying bad things about MCR. Whatever happend between the two obviously meant a lot to Bert, he seemed to have really care about thier friendship. Of course I want them to kiss and make up, but I highly doubt that will happen. Well this took three classes to write btw. Sorry about ranting.

<3Danielle

Her response...

Danielle!

First, the rant, wow. Put that in a journal on mibba, people might learn something. As for Famous Last Words, I can relate. It was this weekend that how MCR saved lives finally hit me. I finally understand. The video sucks (it almost killed Bob!) And I win, I listen to it all the time, along wih Hard To Say and Under Pressure. Those three songs mean the world to me. Without them I'd be lost. My quote for senior year is going to be a lyric from FLW, UP, or Hospital (thats random, I know but I'm looking at the paper for senior crap). Now Gerard, thats a rant we could sit down and talk about all day and still have more to say about it. So I just saw you, these two freshman tried to kill me and I remembered the words to 'The Sharpest Lives' (fucking proud of myself). Back to Gerard, I can't ever listen to him tell us about drugs and drinking ever again. I have respect for Gee, but its little. He was doing so well. Some people refuse to listen, refuse to believe, to see whats right infront of their face. They're in denial of what hes doing with his life. Personally I think its because of his triangle [LynZ-Him-Eliza] but on the other hand he could have just said no. I'd love to go up to him, slap him and say, "Gerard, stop for a second and look at all your fans, all the people who have you as their idol. Then they'll start doing drugs because you did." Mikey, Frankie, Ray and Bob were probably so proud when he stopped. And what he did to Bert, bullshit, would he ever do that to his bandmates? Bert was his best friend. As for Bert, I read that at the end of Hard To Say he says "Kate its hard to say." And she was going to have his baby?! Oh yeah, I just finished your note. Bert needs love besides his band. Trust, wow, trust is a bitch just like karma. I didn't know all that about Bert, I knew he was an alcoholic, and that he did drugs, but I wasn't sure what kind. True fans love Bert and Gee. True fans wont hate Bert because of his fall out with Gee. This is why I went straight to Jeph and Bob lol. Bert doesn't deserve all the bullshit he gets and Gerard gets to much credit. I love him and all but he needs to not be like all the famous people. Trust for a guy is like this big thing and for Bert to trust Gerard that took a lot. I hope that one day Gerard gets over himself and tries to make it good between him and Bert. yes I'm totally against Gerard and drugs, but if Bert and Gee can be friends and do that, I guess I'm fine with it. And thats what we should do. We should make a book or something and then give it to Gerard or like throw it at him. Then we should give Bert a hug and show him that hes loved. Hes going to have to trust someone one day, If you ever listen to certain MCR/The Used songs mixed together, it kind of tells a story, sums up Bert and Gee (cough Disenchanted cough). I doubt this will be our last time talking about this LOL but for now..

xoxo
Jess

NOTE: We do not hate Gerard or Bert at all, we love them both equally =]