Don't leave school. Live a little, have fun, do all the things you've always dreamed about doing. Forget about homework and grades. In about three years, it's really not going to matter what any of them were. Just have a life.
You were in love with her. Tell her, fucking say something. I mean, she just left, with a simple hug and that's it. I mean, really? C'mon, you know the feelings are there. Show her. Let her know. Make her realize that she's that one person who can really make you cry. Because the tear, that one single tear meant more than you. That one tear is important. And tell yourself that you have a chance, because you know she felt the same too.
Stop eating. Just, stop. Now. Get thin, stop being fat. Just stop eating all the bad things. Mia is a bitch, but that's the path you will soon find yourself taking. So prevent it, find another way. Because it's not fun. None of it is fun.
Don't go down there. No, just don't. Your mental and physical health is in jeopardy, and do you want to risk it? You were doing a lot better, really. Or, at least, if you do go down there, leave after the first year of school. Follow your heart, you know it wasn't their anyways.
Don't fall for him. Don't talk to him, don't go into a room that he's in, don't do anything that he is involved in. Just don't. Because the truth is not really what he wanted and he will not accept it, so just save yourself the trouble. Find some friends instead, become someone happy and avoid the breakdown at all costs. The suicide threat will just show you what Dad's really like, and that's a cruel truth to face. Just stay his little girl and leave when things are decent.
Show people more love. Show her more love, because she's not going to be here forever and not even I know when she'll be gone.
Oh, and if you don't tell her how you feel that last day, then get over her. Right then. Realize that you won't stay in touch. Realize that it probably wasn't meant to be. Get over her and tell him how you felt. Something good might have come from that, because even now you still wonder, and it would be amazing to know. So go for it, it really won't be that bad. He's the sweetest, I promise.
March 8th, 2012 at 12:23pm