What Are the Things You Wanted to Say But Couldn't?

We were once best friends. We went to each other for everything, even though you were two years younger than me. And now we're not friends anymore. But seriously... you're 18 years old now, that's considered an adult. Stop being so butt hurt about everything, I'm sorry our friendship didn't end well... but at least you can do is forget. And not talking about me behind my back, SERIOUSLY! YOU'RE NOT A GIRL.

I don't want to do this anymore... It's a lot harder when it's not 100% true, but you know deep down it's the right thing to do.

To one person; it's not your fault, it was mine. It doesn't matter now; you've moved on and now it's my turn. But even so - you were like a new best-friend to me. You're outlook on life was so refreshing, none of my past issues mattered to you. I just want to start over.

To second; I know it's unorthodox, and strange. Sometimes I want to hug you and hope you'll hug me back and in other times, I want to hit you so hard and never talk to you ever again. Tell me that the latter isn't how things really are?

To the third; You're my best-friend. I love you to pieces. If I had to pick anyone to be with me for the rest of my life it would be you. You don't need to be attracted to someone to truly love them, and that's why we ignore everyone when they say that we're together. You're a genuine, sweet, and caring person - and even though I know I can be a filthy rat sometimes, you make even being one seem like a blessing.

I want to tell my ex I really miss our friendship, even though I know he would be an asshole about it and just say I was trying to get back together with him. He was the only decent male friend I had.

Even though he's dead and I should be respectful or whatever, I really want to tell him he's an ass for what he did. He was selfish on so many counts.

I want to tell my paternal grandparents that I'm alive.

Stop lying to me, because I'm not stupid. Don't you see that I don't trust you anymore, and you've hurt me worse than anyone has ever hurt me? My life is hell because you are worse than my mother ever was. Why do you do this when you're supposed to be the love of my life?

I want to tell my family i am bisexual... but i cant do that to them. it would destroy my mum. and my dad.......:/

To person 1:I love seeing you happy with her. But really... You need to stop flirting with me when she's not around! It's ridiculous but I'm still afraid to say anything, because I used to like you. I still kind of do and I wish that I could have an idea of what would happen to us if we were to date prior to your relationship with her. You're someone I can trust and you're pretty amazing.

Person 2! Stop flirting with all these guys when your boyfriend is RIGHT there. He really likes you & you really like him (Well that's what it seems like sometimes). You're lucky. You get EVERYTHING you want, and ALMOST every guy you want. So really, just enjoy have this one guy. Honestly, I love him and I would hate to see you hurt him.

Person 3: Stop leading him on. Okay? Yeah? You better. Seriously. I don't like when my friends get hurt just because they're developing feelings for trickster people like yourself.

Person 4: I love you. Really. I have NO idea why I still like you. It's ridiculous. I've liked all these different people! But I always come back to you. I have tried AND tried to get over you. I've started liking all these people for long periods of time and ignoring you for WEEKS.

But I can't get over you.

I'm still looking for her...

Why are you still in my head? I don't care about you anymore, because you hurt me too deeply. I'm sick of dreaming of you, sick of thinking about what might have been. Why can't you give me some kind of closure?

I probably shouldn't be writing in here because she can read it but probably she'll never enter to this post so, also I'm trusting that she will not read it.
I think that i fell for her... I just realized it 3 days ago, and then she said that she have to tell me something... and I'm like mmm i have to tell you something to...
I better not to, I don't want to ruin our friendship, also she will do everything for the one she love, 2 months can't compare with 8 years, I think that the best to do is just keep pretending that i don't fell anything until someday (time will say) it suddenly becomes part of our lives. I have to forget her in this aspect she's happy now, and that's the only thing that matters. I learned a lot with her, I can say that she is someone to give my life for...In my twisted world with my own definitions for some words, I developed a compulsive necessity to be with her to make her happy and be happy, that's love for me... I don't know what kind of love it is... Ok focus focus i have to get over her as she probably do with me... maybe is like the song.. Iris-goo goo dolls ... and that's probably why I fell this way every time I'm listening to it.... maybe that's why she cry with it but i don't think so she is stronger than I'm.
This is weird i fell better writing about this its kind of a relive, she was right. I'm an immature idiot, I tell to myself that i will not fell for anyone again.. and here I am
When i meet her, i didn't fell anything... now.... because of that idiot i give here a chance...thank you stupid idiot =D.... i don't regretted anything... but he also said that ain't gonna work... I still don't know if he was right...maybe in other circumstances, maybe some years earlier, if i were older... i think that bothers her time to time, that make her fell older or something... i haven't the intention to have sex with her... nether to kiss her...but then she show herself different than the rest of the world, so beautiful, so sublime, so brave, passionate, the way she love the books, i also love reading but that's her world... I always liked Alice in wonderland but she is so enthusiastic about it.....how i didn't like ketchup so much and i discovered that wasn't so bad...discover how much we have in common... she teach me a lot of life, more than she can imagine...I wasn't able to express my emotional self before....she took my first kiss!!! give it back, no just kidding, im glad she did, she's so special to me...now its time to say goodbye to all that involuntary flirting (kss I'm sure it wasn't intentional) and hello to a new kind of friendship....

Thank you, I'll be here...for you... for ever...for anything...

You don't get it, do you? There's more than just you. You're breaking their hearts and they don't deserve it. You don't deserve them, and you're damn lucky that they'd never turn their backs on you.

I want to tell my dad that I forgive him, and that it's okay.

I want to tell Tyler that I really hate his girlfriend because she's taking all the attention I used to get.

And I want to tell my friends to knock it off and get a life. They have no real problems and just want someone to feel bad for them, it's a pain in the ass.

I really don't know what to say to you. Today, you followed me around while your girlfriend as on the other side of the school doing sports. We sat down on a bench together while our other friends went around the corner. At first, we had all of our belongings settled nicely between us. Then slowly & inconspicuously, the things were set unto the ground until we were right next to each other. You got touchy. You rubbed my back & my shoulders while we flirted. It was just like Freshmen year of high school again. Honestly, I loved it and it took so much strength to not move my head to kiss you.

The one thing you did that got to me was when you rested your head on my shoulder. I wanted to scream & cry. It flooded me with nostalgia and I realized that I still liked you.

But you're her girlfriend.

And that breaks my heart because I know you still have strong feelings for her. I really want you to be happy, but you can't just do this.

Mixed signals are not my thing.

Changed the date cause I wanted you to come.

And since you still can't, i kind of want to change it again.

Why aren't things the same anymore? You used to be casually affectionate in public with me, let me hold your hand or kiss you on the cheek in front of everybody. Now everytime I come near you with my lips you pull away and you never want to touch me; hugs are even awkward.

Is it because I came out to you? Do you think everybody is going to think you like girls too? You said you're okay with this, but the way you act sometimes makes me wonder if you really are in your heart.

Do you think that being affectionate with me is going to ruin your chance at getting a boyfriend? Do you not want me to be myself around a "hot" guy?

You mean so much to me. Why can't you just tell me what you're really feeling?

Hey I finally get a good night sleep after 2 months, but I dreamed about you.... so it wasn't the best that could happened, I woke up just cause I wanted to see you by my side... but you'll never be here again. LOL

I want to die, I'm so afraid of living.

Honestly, I want to tear you down.

What can't you just LEAVE HIM ALONE? You're breaking his heart! And even though he's not even mine, it's breaking mine too! So just back off, okay?

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No, thats not how it's gonna work. Sorry.

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Are we going to QT? Yes. Can you come with us? Oh HELL no.

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND. And neither is anyone else that you hang around with all the time - really, we're not.
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People say we should go out, and I kind of like you. But...I don't know...I feel like we should give it a try. Ask me to homecoming, maybe. ;)

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I have never once given you cause to hate me, or to act like you do towards me. Everything changed last year, just randomly, in the middle of second semester, when before we were fine with each other. But then you started acting like a huge bitch towards me and I am so confused as to why. I think you're just arrogant, like really, really arrogant, and I hope one day your huge puffed up skull will like get pricked with a needle or something and just POOF! Blow right up. Maybe then you'll see just how truly fucking ugly your attitude towards me has been the past year. Maybe then you'll get it into your (now nonexistent) head that I really dislike being disliked for no reason at all. You OWE ME an explanation, but I know I'm never going to get that - so please, go get your head exploded.