Love Outweighs Ignorance

@ paradigm;
Zacky nodded hearing her say she'd be fine, after all she knew her body better than he did. Whipping his head to look at her he glared at her, "bitch much?" He snapped, before shaking his head. Scoffing his stood from his seat, and left their table moving over to sit with the rest of the guys. He didn't need that, he didn't take that kind of abuse from his girl friends, he sure the fuck wasn't going to take it from a one night stand. Feeling his blood boil he sat there glaring down at the menu. If one thing he hate was when women couldn't except his weight, he wasn't a pig, and didn't need to feel bad about his weight.

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Callie smiled over at Matt as he got excited over the options on the menu. "Well they do have to have variety to run a good business." She teased him, before turning to look at the menu. Her eyes lifting when Zacky stood and left their table, furrowing her brows she looked over at Liz. "What's up with him?" She questioned her friend, not really caring but still felt the need to ask. Turning her attention back to the menu she decided what she wanted before setting it aside.

Elizabeth immediately shrunk back when Zacky snapped at her. She hadn't meant for it to come out like that at all, but before she could manage to say a word, he had gotten up and moved to the other table. Now she felt bad and it almost made her want to cry. Elizabeth shrugged her shoulders when Callie asked what was wrong with Zacky. Her friend didn't seem to care so Elizabeth wasn't going to answer. When the waitress stopped by to take their orders, Elizabeth ordered the small breakfast platter even though she knew now that she probably wouldn't touch most of it. The main trigger of her eating disorder was the fact that she felt like she always fucked everything up even when she tried not to, and now it was back, settling in her gut and making her stomach feel sour.

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"I think I'm going to go with the monster cheeseburger," Matt said, closing his menu and setting it aside. It was hard to go wrong with a cheeseburger. He didn't even bother to try and figure out what had Zacky's panties in a wad because the guitarist was known to be a little overdramatic sometimes and Matt just didn't feel like dealing with it right now. He gave his order when the waitress came over, handing over his menu as she collected them. "Fuck, this food is going to be so good," Matt said, stretching his arms over his head. "And I'll definitely need the energy. Playing shows takes a lot out of you."

@ paradigm;
Zacky sat there listening to his friends boast and brag about their conquest. He rolled his eyes as he shifted in his seat not daring to open his mouth. His eyes lingering over towards Liz, sure she'd pissed him off. But he'd taken worse from past girlfriends, even though they weren't dating he still felt want for her. Even if they'd never date or move past fucking, he still wanted to try. Granted she'd need some training, they couldn't enjoy each other with out a bit of both of them being trained. He threw an order out to the waitress still feeling slightly upset about her comment earlier, but he knew that he'd probably not get something else to eat later.

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Callie rolled her eyes at Matt's words, she knew that he had a big appetite. He wouldn't look the way he did, with out one. She smiled at the waitress as she place her order, she could tell that she was a bit star struck. She knew that the girl was having a bit of a time, dealing with all the men before her. Callie didn't linger to much thought on the poor girl, instead turning her attention to Matt. "Oh is that so, I guess I've never really seen you perform." She informed him, normally when she came off stage she was energetic. She always been told that she was so much fun to party with afterwards. But she never seen it.

When the food arrived, Elizabeth employed a technique she'd honed over the years to make her family and friends think she was eating. She took a bite every so often, but mostly all she did was move the food around on her plate, just trying to make it look like she was eating. And the few bites she did take did not sit well with her stomach. She just felt so awful and she couldn't shake it. Anything she ate would just make her feel sick.

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"Well tonight you'll finally get the chance," Matt said. A slight smirk formed on his face. "And believe me, watching the mighty M.Shadows in action is quite a treat." At the next table, Jimmy obviously overheard him and snorted underneath his breath, so Matt balled up his napkin, soaked it in his glass of water, and tossed it at the drummer.

"What the fuck was that for?" Jimmy asked.

"You fucking know."

@ paradigm;
Callie smiled at Matt's words and actions, he was showing that he wasn't quite as mature as he let on. Which was a plus, granted she wanted a man and not a child. But she liked to see that he was able to let loose and have fun. "We'll see how big of a treat it is." She teased him once the two of them had settled down. She turned her attention to her food, lifting her eyes to her friend in front of her. A brow raising, she watched her for a bit while Matt continued to talk. She knew that her friend was not feeling the food, lifting her hand she waved the waitress back over and ordered a couple of sausage and cheese bisquits to go. She knew about Liz's problems and won't allow her to starve herself again.

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Zacky lifted his head as the issue with Matt and Jimmy erupted, he knew the two of them could get roudy. But was shocked when Matt's anger seemed to stop the drummer. They all knew that Matt had suffered from anger problems and knew not to push it. He must really like this girl or think he has a chance with her. What ever the case may be, he hoped it won't drag them through the dirt. He didn't like dealing with drama on the road, one reason why he never invited girlfriends along. And another why he never slept with other band members, but there was always exceptions to the rules.

Elizabeth was glad when it was finally time to leave. She was tired of sitting here around everyone else. She just wanted to go lay down in her bunk and unwind before the show tonight. "What's that?" Elizabeth asked as they walked back to the buses, pointing to the to-go container in Callie's hands. "I thought you finished your food." When she got back to the bus, Elizabeth went straight to her bunk without a word to anyone else, kicking off her shoes before climbing inside. They still had a few hours of traveling left before they reached the venue they would play at tonight and if she hadn't had such a long nap earlier, she might take another one now,

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"It's a very big treat, I promise," Matt said, grinning at Callie. He really wanted to impress her tonight, so he would have to bring his A-game more than ever. When the time came, Matt paid his bill, getting to his feet along with everyone else and leaving the restaurant. "I guess we'll see you ladies tonight at the show," Matt said as they all reached the buses. He was mostly talking to Callie, but it wouldn't hurt to acknowledge the others as well. He turned to the guys. "Alright fuckers, let's get on the bus so I can kick your asses at Call of Duty," Matt said.

@ paradigm;
Zacky sighed knowing that no matter what he did today he was going to be bored out of his mind. He wasn't really big on playing games, music was his escape just as much as it was his career. So maybe he'd end up playing the guitar for a bit. Once on the he headed to the back to grab his stuff, only to freeze noticing the figure laying in his bunk. Rolling his eyes he wondered why the guys didn't mention her at breakfast. Maybe they thought he'd go and wake her. He sure the hell wasn't about to be her keeper. But he wanted her off the bus. He'd have to talk to Thor about making her leave. Though things with Liz seemed to come to a halt so maybe keeping her for a fix might be what he needs. Though he's going to have to lay down some rules. Or the guys would have his balls in a vice.

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Callie smiled at Liz when she struck a convo with her, "I figured you could actually eat something later." She told her friend knowingly about the fact she was just toying with her food. She promised Liz that she'd never out her, but she wasn't going to allow her to not eat. They were in this together, and she needed her support just as much as she was going to give it. Callie turned her attention back to Matt, "yeah I'll see you tonight." She was actually nervous about performing with him around. All the sexual frustration might come to a head tonight. And she was really worried that if they did cross that line and she wasn't ready to give it to him then he might end up finding someone else. She knew they weren't dating but she sure the hell wasn't about to pursue a guy who was fucking everything in sight. Enter the bus she put the to go container in the fridge.

Elizabeth's stomach dropped when she heard Callie's comment. Of course the other girl had been paying attention to her at the restaurant. Callie was the main reason Elizabeth had even been able to recover from her eating disorder, because she never let her get away without eating anything. "I'll try and eat it later," Elizabeth promised her as they entered the bus. "If you even got anything good. I'm not eating anything nasty, no matter how much you try and force me." Going to her bunk to grab her book, Elizabeth returned to the living room area and took a seat on the couch. It seemed like everyone except for Charles was going to congregate in here, which was fine with her. The less she had to be around that asshole the better, especially with the bad mood she was in.

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"See you," Matt said to Callie, grinning as he watched her walk away. Tonight after the shows they would be staying at a hotel for the night and he hoped they might be able to continue what they'd started last night in her bunk. Sure, they would both likely have roommates, but it would be easy to fix that, especially if he could convince Zacky to go and stay in that bass player's room tonight, since Zacky would likely be his roommate.

"Do you think he's realized that Sarah's still here?" Johnny asked as they waited for the Xbox to start up.

"Why the fuck is Sarah still here?" Matt asked. "She's supposed to be gone."

"Hey, she might finally leave if somebody tells her that Zacky fucked Elizabeth," Jimmy put in.

@ paradigm;
His fingers moved over the strings effortlessly, a soft hum leaving his lips as he continued to put his focus into the song he was currently writing. Not even bothering with the presences that had appeared in the door way. He knew that it was only one of two people. Brian or Sarah, they both knew not to interrupt his thought process while he was writing. Saying something about the way he did it just seemed so natural and that was when his best work happened. The others could give to fucks less, but normally he didn't write around them. Lifting his eyes up felt his heart sink, of course it would have to be her. She was hugging her body to the frame, her body barely covered by one of his tee shirts. Sighing out he shook his head before turning back to writing down what he'd had before he lost it. The melody was always the easiest part to him. The lyrics where still something he struggled with, that was where he usually got Matt's help. But right now this just moved him, it was all his anger and frustration finally put out into the form of music. "That's beautiful." She whispered not wanting to disturb him. He found out a long time ago that she would go away if he ignored her, but she liked him to at least know she appreciated his work and cared enough to enjoy it and support him. But now he could careless. "I thought you were leaving?" He questioned her, lifting his eyes up. He couldn't hold it back any more, he'd told her to go and she'd agreed so why was it they were having this conversation. "There wasn't any flights." Zacky furrowed his brow. "We're maybe a day and a half drive away, fucking hitch hike." He snapped at her. "Look I'm not doing this any more, when we stop you're out of here." He warned her. He was so glad that she didn't have a key to his place and they sure the fuck weren't living together.

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Callie frowned at her friend, "it's just a couple of sausage biscuits, I figured you could stomach that." She told her smiling softly. They both knew not to push each other, but neither would back down if it became to much. Callie would never allow Liz to starve herself. Just like Liz had forcefully fed Callie pills one time when the pain got to be to much to bare. They both knew that point since they'd seen each other at their worst. "Does anyone know where Charles is?" She asked wondering if they had a guitarist tonight. "He's on another bus." Miles piped up from his game, "said something about you guys hating him so he'd make him scarce." He shrugged. "I think he just didn't want to face the Avenged guys after commenting on how big of a whore Zoe was." He smiled softly at Zoe, knowing that she had kept that bit to herself. "Jimmy nearly ripped him to shreds, as a matter of a fact I think that's when they disappeared." He chuckled, shaking his head, before it been meet by a shoe. "Hey." He protested, laughing. Zoe huffed out before sitting next to Liz, she didn't want to talk about it. But her attention at breakfast this morning had been everywhere but the drummer. He sure was a wild one and her body showed it.

"Eh, maybe," Elizabeth said. "You know how gravy gets once it gets cold." She made a face at the thought. She'd never really been big on reheating certain foods, since letting them sit in the fridge let them get soggy and gross. And she imagined the biscuits would be like that. "Hey, I don't really care why he's gone as long as he's fucking gone," Elizabeth said. "How much longer until we can get rid of him for good?" She knew everyone was ready to have their original guitarist back, but that wasn't likely to happen on this tour. She was kind of confused as to why they'd even hired him in the first place, because no matter how good of a guitar player was, he'd been an asshole since the very beginning and it wasn't worth it to her.

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The guys decided to leave Zacky alone while he was playing, since they were occupied playing Call of Duty, anyway. He could sit back there by himself in his sour mood and play his guitar. It was more than obvious when Sarah joined Zacky, because whatever argument they were obviously having quickly escalated to nothing more than a shouting match. "God, I wih he'd just kick her ass off of this bus," Matt grumbled. He was tired of listening to them bitching and arguing. Why Zacky had even brought her along was beyind Matt. He didn't even seem to be using her as a fuck, since all he always complained about how awful she was in bed. Hopefully this time would be the time that Zacky finally sent Sarah packing.

@ paradigm;
Callie laughed at her friend, "I didn't get gravy, it's just a sausage biscuit." She rolled her eyes, she knew that Liz did that when she wasn't interested in eating. She'd deflect all talk of it, not paying attention to whatever Callie said. She shook her head not going to push it right now. Sitting down next to her she smiled, "I have no fucking idea but I second the motion to get rid of him." She laughed, knowing that even if they got some piece of shit player it'd be better than that arrogant piss of shit. "I just still can't believe he had the balls to go up against Zoe." She shook her head, before leaning back into the couch. "We're going to be a hotel tonight." She told them, having over heard some of the guys talking about it at the restaurant. She hoped they could enjoy the night after with out incident. "Who knows maybe he'll piss Jimmy off again. Then they can send his ass packing." She chuckled.

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Zacky huffed out before shaking his head. "Get the fuck away from me." He told her before pushing her hands off his thigh. Standing up he shook his head. "You don't fucking get it do you, you disgust me." He told her before sighing, grabbing his book and guitar he left her alone before heading to the front of the bus with the rest of the guys. "Fucking Christ." He mumbled to himself. He sat down next to Matt, sitting his guitar down in the floor next to him. "When we get to the venue, can you have Thor block her access to the venues?" He asked his friend, "I want her gone, but she just wont listen." He rubbed his face, not wanting to deal with this. He couldn't take it anymore. She was just one of those girls that liked his fame and money. "I told her I'd slept with another woman and she told me it was fine."

"Okay, but biscuits get soggy and sausage biscuits are disgusting, anyway," Elizabeth said. She knew Callie would try and force her to eat later, but Elizabeth had a few tricks up her sleeve, learned over her years of suffering from an eating disorder and numerous in-patient stays for treatment. "It's because he's stupid," Elizabeth put in, speaking of Charles. "Only idiots go against Zoey." She only sort of shrugged when Callie mentioned that they were staying in a hotel. The last time they'd stayed in a hotel, she'd slept with Zacky and she wasn't sure how she would feel about that happening again. Although she doubted it would. He'd seemed pretty upset with her at the restaurant and she doubted he would want anything to do with her tonight."

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Matt looked up as Zacky stormed up from the back of the bus. He expected Sarah to follow after him, but he was glad when she didn't. When Zacky asked if he could have Thor block Sarah's access to the venues, Matt nodded. They all wanted Sarah gone and barring her from going to the shows was likely the only way to do that. "You told her you slept with Elizabeth and she didn't claw your face off?" Matt asked, genuinely surprised. Sarah definitely seemed like the jealous type. She must really be desperate for Zacky's money if she was willing to put up with infidelity. "I hope you told her to start packing her shit," Matt told Zacky. "Because once she gets off this bus she's not getting back on."

@ requiem;
Callie nibbled on her lip, she figured Elizabeth wasn't in the mood to talk. After what happened at the table she figured her mind would be preoccupied with Zacky. Pulling out her cell she decided that she'd send a text to Matt. God so bored, you know you could have stayed. She didn't want it to seem like she was desperate, but she still felt the need to reach out. Though she was glad he wasn't here, it would be hard to keep a cool head. After having the night they did. Pushing things wouldn't be wise at the moment, she'd just have to wait until tonight.

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Zacky listened to Matt, "I know what kind of fucked up shit is that?" He shook his head. "Granted I didn't cheat, because I've broken up with her a million times." He sighed. "I doubted she listened, but I did tell her." He just hoped that Thor and security can get her off the bus with out to much trouble or drawing to much attention. Of course they'd wait till the guys were off the bus to do so. "But thank you man." He knew that if Matt asked then Thor would do it. Since Zack's had asked a few times then got back with the girl, it put Thor in an uncomfortable position.

(Sorry, I've been really busy. I'm moving so I'll be on when I can.)

When they finally arrived at the venue, Elizabeth made sure to linger at the bus so that she was the last one off. The longer it took her to get to the venue, the less chance there was of her running into Zacky. She knew she would have to talk to him eventually, but the last thing she needed before their very first show was something to make her more nervous. So she would just play the show and then she would talk to Zacky. Hopefully, by then he wouldn't even be mad at her anymore. "I'm nervous, is anyone else nervous?" Elizabeth asked, slinging her bass over her shoulders. She'd made the mistake of glancing out at the crowd and now her stomach was doing somersaults.

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"No problem, man," Matt said. He knew Zacky wanted Sarah gone and it wasn't too much of a surprise that everyone else did, too. All she did was piss people off. Matt settled back on the couch to watch TV, reaching for his phone when it vibrated, raising an eyebrow as he read the message from Callie. Just a few days ago she hadn't wanted anything to do with him and now she was sending him text messages about how she was bored without him. Well I'll keep that in mind for next time, he sent back. When they got to the venue, Matt went ahead of everyone else so that he could talk to Thor before Sarah had a chance to get inside.

@ requiem;
Callie nibbled on her lip as she pranced around the back stage. They had about half an hour before they went on. There was a band preforming before them. And they had yet to take the stage. She still needed to change, but she wasn't in an hurry to do so. She was just nervous and still hadn't seen Charles yet. So she just hoped they had someone to play tonight. "Fuck yes I am." She informed Liz, knowing that tonight was a career changer. And if Charles didn't make it it could fuck up their entire career. Nibbling on her lip she groaned before starting to bouncing in place. She couldn't explain what was going through her mind right now. But she knew that it wasn't all focused on tonight's show. A large part of it was on a certain singer.

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Zacky exited the bus pulling the hood of his hoodie up, the glasses on his face blocking out the sun. It wasn't quite time to start, but the venue had already started letting fans in. So as he walked through the buses he wasn't surprised to hear shouts of his name, fans doing their best to get his attention. Normally he'd smile and wave, but right now he wasn't in the mood. As he tried to leave the bus Sarah tried to seduce him, so he really wasn't in any mood to deal with anyone right now. Nibbling on his lip he entered the venue, before heading towards Avenged's dressing room. They still had time to get ready, so he really didn't care what he was going to do. He just couldn't stay on the bus.

By the time Charles finally arrived, it was almost time for them to go onstage. Nobody paid him any mind except to shoot him a glare over their shoulder. They could deal with him after the show. They couldn't have him ruining this night and thus potentially ruining their career before it really even started. Elizabeth was almost shaking by the time they went onstage, a bit surprised at the reaction they got. She was sure a vast majority of this crowd was here to see Avenged Sevenfold and she figured they would be eager to see them, not her band. But she wasn't going to complain. The cheering honestly made her feel less nervous, because it made her think that people actually wanted to hear them play.

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When Matt explained the situation with Sarah to Thor, he was more than willing to make things happen. Just like everyone else, Thor was more than tired of the girl tagging along and irritating everyone. Matt just wished he could see the look on Sarah's face when she was told she wasn't coming with them to the hotel or to the next venue. He normally lingered in their green room until it was time for them to go onstage, but this time he only stopped by long enough to grab a water bottle before going out to the stage. He wanted to see Callie perform with her band, both because he liked to check out the bands that toured with them and because he wanted to see if they were any good.

@ requiem;
Zacky lingered backstage in their dressing room, waiting for the show to start. He was still uncertain if he wasn't to go and watch the opening bands or not. Normally that was the thing to do. Their openers were normally rather talented. But of course they hadn't reacted their level of fame yet. That was the one thing that Zack loved about his life, he didn't have to struggle any more to be a rock star. He was just able to live and enjoy his time in the light. Biting his lip he sighed hearing Brian comment about them going and watching the opening act. After having everyone else agree he decided it would be a better use of his time to go and hang with his friends rather sit my himself and mope about his life.

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Callie sighed as she tied her shirt in a knot, she knew that she didn't have time to change now. They'd already strapped her mic box to her pants, so she was kind of stuck wearing the clothes she was in. Not that it bothered her, she just liked to wear as little as she could shirt wise since she always wore pants. It help keep her a bit cooler and not over heating, or passing out on stage. Placing her sound absorbing ear plugs in she grabbed her mic. Normally she'd feel the nerves creeping up on her but right now she couldn't focus on that. Her mind had been preoccupied with a certain singer, who had knocked her walls down. Nibbling on her lip she looked over at Liz before they headed out on stage. Performing was something she'd never seen herself do, but once she opened her mouth and let out her pain, people flocked to their group. Hearing the muffled sound of the crowds roar she knew that they had quite a bit of fans out in the audiance and that made her smile.

Now that it was time for them to go on stage, Elizabeth was starting to regret not eating at IHOP. It was adding to her nerves, making her shaking worse than before. She'd passed out during practices in years past from lack of eating, she just hoped that she didn't do the same thing didn't happen while they were out onstage. She would definitely need to eat something when they got back to the hotel, both to stop herself from shaking and so that she wouldn't get used to being empty again. That was one of the key parts of her recovery, getting used to feeling full again and being okay with it. Gripping tightly onto the neck of her base, Elizabeth followed Charles and Callie out onto the stage. They were greeted by cheers and Elizabeth's nerves started to fade, but the shaking was still there, although thankfully not too bad once the adrenaline took over.

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Matt wasn't surprised when everyone else joined him to watch the opening bands. It was their first show of the tour and it was an opportunity to check out the groups performing with them. The first band was pretty good, but Matt was really there to see Callie's band. You could learn a lot about someone from the way they acted on stage. Matt noticed how nervous they all were as they went on stage, but as their set started he could see that fade away. He remembered what it was like to really play for a crowd for the first time. It was nerve-wracking. But once you got on stage and started doing what you loved, everything went away. Matt only left the side-stage when it was time for them to get ready for their set, deciding he would have to congratulate Callie afterwards.

@ spencer reid;
Zacky did his best to concentrate on the group on stage, he wasn't to concerned about the people performing. Though he did catch himself staring at a certain member a bit to long. Even though she'd pissed him off he still felt drawn to her. It made him want to kick himself. Every relationship he was in seemed to be was nothing but bad, and the girls he was attracted to seemed to fit right into that category. Shaking his head he sighed, knowing him he'd do something stupid or crazy, and end himself right back where he was now. Broken and alone. He knew that it wasn't the time to be attracted to a girl, let alone right after he'd gotten out of a damaging relationship. Though he couldn't deny himself the pleasure of a woman, he'd just have to not get attached.

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Callie's body moved with the beat of the music, her breath coming out in waves of puffs. She could feel the excitement coursing through her veins. She never failed to enjoy her time in the spot light. Lifting the mic back to her lips she started to belch out the lyrics to the song. Rocking back and forth she smirked letting the word flying out of her mouth contort with emotions. All the pain she'd felt from the accident and then the after math. After all most of their songs were about the struggles that they'd faced. Singing out a rather high note, she panted out before bowing her body down letting the song end. Lifting her body she breathed out smiling out into the crowd. "We are Tempered Pain, you guys have been great." She signaled the end of their set. Waving to the crowd she exited the stage with the rest of the group.

As soon as Elizabeth got off of the stage, she sat down on the closest thing she could find. She definitely needed to eat something when they got to their hotel, although she wasn't sure she wanted to eat the food Callie had brought back from IHOP. She accepted the water bottle that was handed to her by a member of the crew, deciding she would just watch the Avenged Sevenfold show from here unless somebody told her she was in the way. Elizabeth didn't even feel like bothering to put her bass away, so she simply held it in her lap, gripping tight to the neck. It didn't take long for the stage crew to set up for the Avenged Sevenfold show and then they were taking the stage. Elizabeth kept her eyes mostly on Zacky as they performed, noticing how easy he made it seem.

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Matt went back to the green room with the guys to wait while the stage crew got the stage ready for their set. Their manager Larry came to get them when it was time and they all walked onto the stage, Matt grinning when they were greeted by cheering. "How the fuck is everybody doing tonight?" Matt shouted into the microphone. Jimmy gave a few taps audible only to them and then they launched into the first song. No matter how many times they performed a show, the feeling of being on stage never got old. It was a high no drug to compare to and it just got his adrenaline pumping. He loved it. "Thanks for being here with us tonight, it was a blast," Matt said, handing his microphone to the tech as left the stage.