Little White Lies

Brian walked off stage after throwing some guitar picks out into the crowd, glad that the show was over so that he could spend some time with his girl. Brian gave his guitar to one of the Berry brothers before walking over to Sadie, furrowing his brow at the look she was giving him. She seemed upset and he didn't like that at all. Was it something he did? Something someone else did? He would go kick ass if he had to, no matter who it was.

"What's wrong baby? You look upset," he said as he approached her, wrapping his arms around her. He just needed her close. He missed her so much and he couldn't imagine her not being near him. He couldn't wait to finally be home with her and Pinkly and not on tour anymore. As much as he loved being on tour, Brian wanted to be home with his girlfriend and his dog.

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Kinsley finished off her beer, grabbing another one before going back to her spot. She cheered along with everyone else as the guys closed their set, making a face at how gross and sweaty they were. She shook her head, taking a sip of her beer before heading back towards the bus. She wanted to hurry up and get out of the Venue before the bus got crowded with Paparazzi, reporters and fans.

She opened the door to the bus, climbing on and going back to her bunk. She didn't know how Matt expected them to have much privacey here unless they talked in the bunk. Everyone was going to be coming back to the bus eventually and hopefully no one would be coming back to fuck.

Matt walked off stage, grabbing a water and chugging it. He threw the bottle away and grabbed a beer, knowing he'd need it for what he was about to do. To say he was nervous, that wouldn't even come close to how he felt, his stomach was tying itself into knots as he walked out of the venue and made his way to the bus.

Once he was on the bus, he felt a little better, he went back to the bunk and sat on the edge. This was it, he needed to tell Kinsley the truth, "Okay, I'm going to be completely honest with you, that day I told you that we were done, it felt like a giant hole got ripped into my chest. Once those words left my mouth and I could see how much it hurt you, I wanted so badly to go back and never even think about any other girl. I know my fiancé is just using me for my money, but I need to tell you, I still have feelings for you, now more than ever..."

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Sadie wasn't sure how to go about what she had heard, should she just put and ask him, should she wait for a better time? She decided to wait, as Brian walked over to her, she tried her best to be herself, "I'm fine, really Brian, nothing to worry about."

She smiled up at him, she didn't really want to do this backstage, or in front of people. This little secret would have to wait, maybe she could bring it up to Kinsley and get her opinion on it, "Ready to head back to the bus?"

Brian forced a smile, nodding. "Alright baby, if you say so," he said softly, wrapping his arm around her shoulders before leading her back to the bus. Something was up though, he knew her too well to know when something was bothering her. She wasn't going to be able to keep it from him for long though because he was definitely going to get it out of her whether she liked it or not.

Brian opened the bus door, letting Sadie walk on first before following. "Did you enjoy our show tonight?" He asked her with a small smirk, biting his lip. He knew she hadn't been watching the whole time, even though she would say she had. A few times when Brian looked over he noticed that she wasn't there which made him wonder what she had been off doing that ended up upsetting her.

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Kinsley looked up when she saw Matt, letting out a breath she didn't realize she had been holding in. She held on tightly to the pillow as she listened to him, her heart beating wildly in her chest. She couldn't believe what she was hearing. So he still had feelings for her? But why did he cut all ties with her if he felt that way? Why did he end up getting a fiancé like a dumb ass?

"If you feel that way, Matt, why are you with her? Is she pregnant or something and you don't want to tell anyone? What are you hiding? Why can't you just be with me?" She asked desperately, wiping away the tears that were streaming down her face. Kinsley shook her head, grabbing Matt by the shirt and pulling him on top of her, crashing her lips onto his. Jesus, she had missed those lush lips of his.

Seeing the tears rolling down her face made Matt's heart ache, but feeling her lips pressed against his, he immediately let go of any hesitation. He had missed this, more than he'd care to admit. There was no way Matt would ever let her get away from him again.

As they kissed, Matt let his hands slide down her sides, he had missed the way her body felt against his. When he was with her, she was the only thing on his mind. After a few moments, he broke the kiss, "I missed you..."

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"I loved the show, you know I always do," Sadie grinned up at him, "You know exactly what your shows do to me, Brian." She spoke softly as she walked over and sat on the couch. Hearing voices from the bunks, she decided not to go back there.

It was true, she had enjoyed the parts of the show that she had caught, but she wasn't quite ready to admit to Brian that she had spoken to the girl and what she had been told. She heard the voices stop, looking at Brian, "So, now what do you want to do?" She asked him, hoping he would say anything to keep her mind from wandering.

Brian smirked, knowing exactly what his shows did to her. But after hearing voices back in the bunks, he knew she probably wasn't going to want to go back there. "Why don't we go get comfy in the bunk?" He suggested anyways. Whoever was back there wasn't going to stop him from getting in his bed with his girlfriend. Even if she didn't want to do anything tonight, Brian still wanted to get into bed and cuddle with her. "We can cuddle and talk about what you've been up to at home."

Brian walked back with her to the bunks, almost tripping one someone's legs sticking out from a bunk down below. Brian raised a brow, bending down and pulling a curtain back. He smirked when he saw Kinsley and Matt making out, chuckling and closing the curtain, letting them be. He stripped down onto his boxers before putting on some pajama bottoms, knowing that since his sister was here now he couldn't walk around in just his underwear.

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Kinsley sighed contently, looking up at him as he pulled away. "I missed you too, so much," she murmured, kissing him a few more times. She moved over in the bunk so that he could get in comfortably, loving the feeling of being so close to him. She wasn't going to ruin the moment in asking if he was going to end it with his gold digger. She wasn't sure if he really was going to or not.

"I'm not sure where this leaves us now, but I don't want to worry about it tonight. I just want to be here with you," she said softly, nuzzling into him. Words couldn't express how happy she was right now. She never thought she would hear him say those words. But she was terrified that she was going to end up as before. Heartbroken and alone.

Matt moved more into the bunk, smiling at her. He didn't really realize how much he actually missed her until now. His mind was racing as he thought about what this meant, deep down he knew he'd never be able to marry his fiancé as long as he had Kinsley in his life. So he wouldn't get married, at least that's what his head was telling him.

Hearing her words, he pulled her close, "We can figure out what all this means later, I just want to be here with you." He said quietly, kissing the top of her head. Matt had missed the way her body just know kind of fit in his arms just right, he loved being there and holding her, nothing else mattered to him at that moment.

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Sadie nodded, "Okay, lets go." She got up and walked back to the bunks, she took her jeans off, and changed her shirt to one of Brian's before getting in the bunk and waiting for Brian. Seeing him get in the bunk, she smiled, instantly cuddling up to him.

"Well, if you want to know what I've been up to, nothing really, just keeping myself busy while you're gone and I spent some time with Kinsley the few days before we came out here. Before that, I was working and just keeping up with the articles about you guys on tour," She shrugged slightly, "Nothing too interesting."

Brian raised a brow as he listened to her tell him what she had been up to, biting his lower lip. So she had been reading things in the articles? He wondered what lies and stupid shit they were making up about him this time. Brian absolutely hated those damn articles, half the shit they put in there that they say he said was a damn lie. It was just to keep people entertained.

"So what are they saying about me this time?" He asked as he held her close, kissing the top of her head. "You know how they like to make up lies upon lies. Hopefully they've put some good stuff in there about me," he said with a small smirk.

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Kinsley traced along his visible tattoos, always finding comfort in that. She was afraid that this was going to end like it always did. Them cheating behind their significant others back and then her being heartbroken. But Kinsley wasn't going to let that happen this time. She would give Matt as long as he needed to end things with his fiancé, but she wasn't going to let her have him.

"You're my best friend, you know that? I love you so much. I've always told you that," she murmured, sighing softly. She rolled her eyes when his phone began to vibrate wildly in his pocket, reaching in and fishing it out. She ignored the call with a smirk, groaning when she just kept calling back. "Just answer the damn thing. But don't leave me."

Matt smiled as he felt Kinsley tracing his tattoos, he missed when she did that. There was no way that he would let things ends the same way they did before, it might not be right away, but he'd make sure he ended things with his fiance, he just wasn't sure when. He didn't want to screw this up again, because he knew he wouldn't be getting another chance at her.

Hearing the words come from her mouth, he smiled, "Don't tell the guys, but you're my best friend too." He kissed the top of her head, the smile fading from his face when his phone rang, even when she wasn't around she could ruin his day. When the phone started ringing for the second time and Kinsley told him to answer it, he did. The frustration was clear on his face as she talked his ear off, he sighed, "Hey, hey, I had a long day and I'm getting tired, I gotta go." He didn't give her a chance to respond and hung up, shutting his phone off, "There, no more interruptions."

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Sadie knew that Brian hated those articles, but she loved reading them and seeing the pictures they took of him. She knew that Brian was usually their center of attention because before they had started dating, he was known as the player of the group. Maybe this would be her way in of bringing up what she knew.

"Oh, it was just the usual stuff, you know, they talk about the music for about three sentences, make a few comments about Matt, and they go after you." She bit her lip, "Last few I read, they were talking about all the girls that go backstage and how one of them claimed that they met you and you flirted, and she kissed you a few times, but I know better than to believe that...." She said, looking at him, waiting to see his reaction.

Brian's eyebrows rose as he listened to her, biting down on his bottom lip hard. Obviously she knew what he had been up to while he'd been on tour, but he wasn't sure if he really wanted to give it up yet what he'd been up to. He was too afraid to. But he knew that he needed to be up front and honest with her, at least a little bit. Or else he'd end up losing her.

"I can't say I haven't done some meaningless flirting with them and let them hang on me. But that's all," he said with a heavily sigh. "You know my heart belongs to you, Sadie. You're my girl. I love you. You know I'm a natural flirt, I can't help myself." Brian was beginning to freak out now. He didn't know how she was going to handle it. Maybe she wouldn't care, maybe she would. He wasn't sure. She was unpredictable.

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Kinsley rolled her eyes. "I hate her. She has my dog, my house, and my man. Especially my dog. We all know Bella is mine, come on I picked her out for Christ's sake. Now that bitch gets to have her in that nice mansion of yours with that big rock on her finger while I'm going to be living with my brother after tour," she grumbled, getting more and more pissed the more she thought about it.

Kinsley had just gotten out of an abusive relationship, no one but her brother and Sadie knew that. Her brother only sort of knew the half of what had happened, Sadie knew it all in full detail because Kinsley told her before they left. It was another mistake that she made trying to fill the empty void that Matt had left.

Matt knew that every word Kinsley was saying was true, especially the dog, "Hey, I'm serious this time, I mean it. As much as she thinks that all is hers, it's not, at least not until we're married which is not going to happen." He said, pulling her close, "I'm serious about you now."

He felt bad, like they were starting right back where they had left off and he wasn't going to let her believe that he'd do that again. It was just going to take a little time. If there was one thing Matt knew for sure, it was that he wanted to be with her.

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Hearing him admit that he had done something's made Sadie feel like she had just been kicked right in the stomach. She felt sick, it was one thing to hear it from some random person, but to hear it from Brian, she didn't know how to respond.

"I, um, I think I'm gonna be sick," She said quickly, managing to get out of the bunk and pull on a pair of sweatpants before walking out to the front of the bus. After all this time of wondering, and finally knowing, she wished she never knew. Sadie wasn't even sure if she'd be able to go back and sleep next to Brian.

Kinsley nodded, kissing him softly. It was still weird just laying here beside him even though just hours earlier she was madder than hell at him for hurting her so badly. She wished she hadn't given in so easily. "But we should take things slow for now. It might be hard considering our history, but I'm still terrified of feeling that heartbreak again," she said with a humorless laugh. What he did was a bit scarring, it was like reality had punched her in the face about how much she didn't have a hold on him.

Kinsley heard a commotion out side of the bunks, furrowing her brows and pushing the curtain back. She watched as Sadie climbed out of the bunk hurriedly, pulling on some sweat pants and going to the front of the bus. "Sadie?" She called after her, rolling over Matt and following after her. "Are you okay? What's wrong?" The other girl looked like she was going to be sick, a sure sign that something was not okay. "Baby, I'm sorry, I didn't think it was a big deal," Brian said as he came up to the front of the bus. "You fucking dick, I knew it! Mom didn't raise you to act like this and I sure as hell know dad never acted this way when he was on tour. What is wrong with you?!" Kinsley growled at Brian, getting up in his face. She was furious with her brother. She had a feeling that he had been up to no good while he'd been on tour just by seeing the pictures in the tabloids.

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Brian's eyes widened as he watched Sadie leave the bunk, wondering if he should give her some space or follow after her. He was going to give her some space until he heard Kinsley go after her and she was good at getting in people's head. "Fuck," he groaned, getting out of the bunk and putting on some pants. He went up there apologizing, his eyes widening when Kinsley started yelling at him and getting in his face. He put his hands up in surrender, wanting her to back the fuck off. "Jesus Christ, I didn't think it was a big deal! I'm a huge flirt, what does it matter? It's not like I'm bringing them back to my fucking bed at night!" He screamed back, looking over at Sadie with a pleading look on his face. "I'm so sorry. I don't know what else to say. I find it hard to believe that you found that out from an article though," he said with a heavy sigh.

Since he had his guard down, Kinsley managed to give him a sickening punch right in the face, twice. Once in the eye and another in his nose. "What the fuck!" He yelled, stumbling back. "The first one was for Sadie. The second one was because I felt like it and you piss me the hell off," she grumbled before taking Sadie by the hand and leading her off of the bus. Brian watched them go with wide eyes before going over to the sink and letting letting the blood from his nose drip. "Man, i fucked up," he mumbled, actually feeling like he was going to cry.

Matt nodded, "I agree, we can take things slow and that's probably the best idea." He knew exactly what Kinsley was talking about because he had felt the same way, he just had to hide it, especially around the guys. Unfortunately for him, Brian had always known how he felt, and he made sure Matt knew.

He saw Kinsley follow Sadie to the front, he looked at Brian, "What the hell did you do?" Following Brian out, he stopped when he saw Sadie crying, "Oh shit..." He said more to himself, knowing exactly what was going on.

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Sadie was so upset, she didn't even want to look at Brian or even hear his voice. When Kinsley walked out, she just wanted to get out of the bus and get some space from Brian. For some reason, she couldn't bring herself to say anything.

Hearing him say it wasn't a big deal caused her mood to shift, "No big deal?! Are you fucking kidding me? Oh, and you're right, it wasn't all from the articles, I talked to one of the girls at the show, she told me everything, but then again, what girl wouldn't brag about getting attention from you!" Once Kinsley walked her off the bus, she sighed, "I hate being right..."

Brian felt like punching something, so he did. He punched the cabinet that was next to him, splitting his knuckles open and splitting the cabinet. "Matt, what do I do? I fucked up," he groaned, grabbing a dish cloth from a nearby drawer and putting it up to his nose. Thank god it had never been used before.

"I didn't think it was a big deal. I thought she knew she had my heart, that she was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. She's the one I'm coming home to, she's the one I want to make love to, not those skank ass bimbos," he said, getting frustrated. He hated that he hurted her. Something he thought was so innocent made so much trouble.

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Kinsley frowned, running her fingers through her hair. "He's a dick. But you have to at least hear him out and let him explain himself a little better once you calm down. This is my brother we're talking about, he's terrible at explaining anything. Especially when he's been caught," she said with a sigh. She wished she could fix this for Sadie. She hadn't thought she would have found out so fast.

"He loves you so much, you know. I don't think he meant to hurt you. He's just a different Brian on tour I guess. He's a flirtatious person, you know that. It's one of the reasons why you fell for him," she said, playfully bumping their shoulders together. "Just calm down, okay? I gave him a few good punches for you. So he's in some pain."

Matt sighed, shaking his head, he was afraid this would happen, "Honestly Brian, just give her some time to cool off and I'm sure she'll come back and then you two can actually talk it out." Normally he wasn't good at making the guys feel better, but he knew how Brian felt.

"Brian, she knows all that, deep down, but we've been on tour how long? Being apart from the one you love can really fuck with your head, especially when she sees all the pictures and shit, but she will get over this." He was hoping he had helped Brian feel just a little bit better.

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Sadie hated to admit that Kinsley was right, but she was, Brian was a flit and there was nothing she could do to change that. She sighed softly, finally calmed down, "I know, I have to go back in there and talk to him..." She ran her hand through her hair, "I guess it's now or never," she hesitantly walked to the door and took a deep breath before walking in.

Seeing the cabinet split in half, she rolled her eyes, "Really?" She went to her bag and grabbed the first aid kit she had and went over to Brian, "Let me see." She said softly, taking Brian's hand and wiping the blood away, "I'm sorry I overreacted..."

Brian hoped Matt was right. The way he had said things was definitely not the way it should have been said. It was a big deal, especially to her. But he was a big flirt and he couldn't help it. He just thought that not taking them to bed meant it was okay. Though deep down he knew that it was still wrong, but he still didn't stop himself.

Brian looked up when he heard the bus door open, sighing when he saw Sadie. He removed the towel from his nose, hissing in pain when she began touching his hand. "You didn't overreact. I shouldn't have even flirted. I just couldn't help it though, it was a natural instinct. But it doesn't mean anything, you're the one I'm coming home to. You're the one I make love to and get in bed with," he said with a frown.

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Kinsley watched Sadie go back into the bus before she pulled out the cigarette from earlier from her pocket, lighting it up and taking a long drag. She leaned against the bus, closing her eyes and just letting it sit there in her lungs. She had no idea what this trip was going to bring.

She continued to take hits off of the cigarette, watching groupies sneak out of other busses and slimey reporters get pictures of something juicey. Kinsley shook her head with a sigh. She stared down at her left hand, wondering what it would be like to have a shiny rock on her finger. To be promised to Matt like she had always dreamed. She probably wouldn't even be here right now, she'd be at their home with Bella impatiently waiting for him to get done with tour.

Once Sadie was back on the bus, Matt decided to give them a little privacy. He walked out of the bus and stood next to Kinsley, "You alright?" He asked, he knew stuff like that could get anyone worked up. "The bus is leaving in about twenty minutes, so we have a little time." He smiled a little, hoping she wouldn't change her mind about him.

"You know we'll work this out, right? There's no way I'm gonna screw this up again," he meant every word, "You're never gonna be able to quit those, are you?" Matt chuckled softly, looking over at her, he knew when the stress got to be too much, it could lead anyone to smoke.

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Sadie sighed softly, finishing cleaning up his hand, "I know how you are, you can't help it." She knew it was just the way Brian worked, and she knew that when she started dating him. "I mean, it's your normal thing to do on tour, I shouldn't have reacted that way."

She knew everything he said was true, "It's just, I don't know, let's just drop it." She said softly, making sure she hand the cut on his knuckles covered and bandaged, "You'll be able to take it off by the next show." Sadie told him, putting the first aid kit and coming back to sit on the couch.

Brian sighed, shaking his head. He didn't want to just drop it. He knew that she was still upset with him and he didn't know what to do. He didn't know what he could do to make it better. He could say he would never mess with those girls again but he wasn't sure if that would even make it better or not.

He made sure his nose was nose bleeding before putting the towel in the sink, running a hand through his hair. "Let's go to bed, yeah?" He asked hopefully, biting his lower lip. He just wanted to go to bed and and hold her close. Maybe just pretend it was okay for the rest of the night and then pick things back up tomorrow.

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Kinsley looked up at Matt when he came off the bus, nodding when he said they were leaving soon. She put her cigarette out, letting out a small laugh. "You have no idea how badly I want to quit. Honestly, I did quit. Then I came here and it all went to shit for a minute," she said with a sigh. She hated smoking. She hated the taste. But the feeling of inhaling something deep into her lungs just felt so good.

"Everything is going to be fine. I've made my mind up that I'll fight for you down to the altar if I absolutely have to," she said as she wrapped her arms around his middle. Kinsley leaned up, pressing her lips to his and kissing him softly.

Matt felt a huge wave and of relief at what she said, knowing that she wasn't going to give up on him so easily made him feel so much better. "Even if it does take me that long, there's no way I could walk down to that altar and say I do to anyone but you," he almost couldn't believe he was actually saying that to her, but he knew it was true.

Feeling her lips pressed against his, he wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling away for a moment, "You ready to go back in and try to get some sleep?" Matt asked her quietly, they didn't have to go to sleep, they could talk or cuddle or whatever she wanted.

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Sadie nodded, "Yeah, bed sounds nice," she got up, taking his hand and walking back to the bunk. She got in the bunk, leaving enough room for Brian to join her. As much as she wanted to drop it, she knew she couldn't which meant she probably wouldn't be getting much sleep tonight.

Once Brian was next to her, she bit her lip, "You swear you never brought any of them to the bus?" She whispered, not wanting to disturb the others that were already sleeping, "I know you said before you didn't, but I'm calmed down now and I just need to hear it again and I think it will make me feel better...."

Brian climbed up into the bunk next to her, wrapping his arms around her and holding her close. He knew that she was going to worry about this until they finally got home. She was probably going to watch him like a damn hawk from now on. He didn't blame her though, he would definitely do the same thing if he was in her position. Except if he really was in her position, he didn't think he would even let it get this far. She wouldn't be flirting with anyone.

"I never brought any of them to my bed," he said, kissing her forehead. He couldn't say he never brought them to the bus, because he did let them follow him from time to time to hang out since the guys like to hangout with them also. They'd sit on his lap while they drank, but that was the extent of it. "I never, ever did anything sexual with them. I promise."

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Kinsley smiled up at him, her cheeks heating up from his words. "Its nice to hear you say that. Let's go get some sleep," she said, taking his hand and leading him back on to the bus. She went back to the bunks, stripping down to her underwear and climbing into their bunk. She left room for Matt to get in as she laid up and stared at the pictures he had on his ceiling. She made a face at the ones he had of his so called fiancee, huffing and ripping them all down. "I don't want these up here," she grumbled, throwing them out of the bunk and allowing them to fall to the floor.

She just didn't want to see her face while she laid there in bed with him. She only felt just the tiniest bit guilty, but not by much. MAtt was hers and only hers, she wasn't letting anyone have him.

Matt climbed into the bunk next to her, watching as she ripped down the pictures, "Whatever you want, Kinsley." He told her, pulling her close once she threw them out of the bunk, he really didn't care. "I think we need to get some new pictures to put up there anyway, don't you?" He asked, wanting to turn the conversation to something about the two of them.

Kissing the top of her head, he held her close and sighed softly, this was how it was supposed to be, he wasn't supposed to be with anyone besides Kinsley and he had always known that. His fiance would just have to figure that out the hard way once this tour was over, because she didn't have any type of hold on him, especially not compared to Kinsley.

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Sadie let her head rest on his chest and sighed softly, reaching over him and letting her fingers trace the ink covering his arms, she had always loved his tattoos. She knew that he was kicking himself for the way she was feeling, and to her, that was punishment enough for him, she didn't feel like she needed to cause anymore problems for the time being.

Nodding after he was done talking, she sighed, "I believe you, I know you wouldn't do anything else with them." Looking up at him, she leaned up and pressed her lips to his softly before letting her head return to the same spot on his chest, "I love you, Brian." She meant it, and she knew that Brian knew it was true, if she didn't love him, she wouldn't be there with him, she would have been on a plane back home in the blink of an eye.