[I am so sorry I've been MIA, it has been absolutely hectic here!]
Her cheeks flooded with warmth, so hot it felt as though her skin could just melt from the bone. Toma ducked her head, laughing softly. Her chest felt a little wobbly, her whole being a little off-kilter. “I don’t know why you’d say that when it’s all your idea, Poe,” she said, finding it easier to continue as though they were talking about his ‘plan’ and not the fact that he’d called her sharp and said that he liked it. He kriffing liked it. Her stomach was in an uproar, twisting and turning and tying itself into knots. She pressed her lips together, somehow mustering the courage to glance over to him. He was smiling at her. Her heart was going to pound right out of her body, she knew it. It was going to happen. There was no doubt in her mind. Her heart would pound a hole right through her sternum and fly onto the controls all because a man smiled at her. Maker fucking wept.
“I try not to think about the fact that my childhood hero as faith in me,” she said, letting out a quiet chuckle. “It’s a little intimidating to think of.” She took in a deep breath, holding for a few seconds and then letting it go. Her pulse quieted (only a little, though) and she made her shoulders slump back into the seat. She needed to calm down, to be present with the mission. Because that’s what she was doing. She was working a mission, not mooning over some dark-haired boy like she was a youngling discovering attraction for the first time. The mission came first, everything second. And even if - if - she did find him attractive, so what? What would honestly happen between them? He was a pilot that went from mission to mission, never back on base long enough to really rest up. Most likely, nothing would happen beyond the mission, and that was okay. “I’m not sure about that. Poe sounds like a hell of a hot-shot pilot.” She glanced over in his direction and shot him a grin. “But Link sounds decent enough.”
Toma nodded her head as he spoke, the knots in her stomach loosening a little. She could handle mission talk. “That’s good,” she said, the corners of her mouth flicking up into a smile. She rolled her eyes when he started to speak. Not a good leader? The man was considered one of the best leaders in the Resistance. “You’re selling yourself short, Dameron,” she murmured, pursing her lips at the fact that she even had to disagree with him on this. “You’re more than just a good pilot. People like you, they trust you, they follow you. It’s because you’ve earned their trust, not because you can fly a kriffing X-Wing.” She made sure to keep herself from sounding too earnest, but it was hard to when he’d given her that grin and her heart was suddenly racing once more. “I know you won’t.” She was sure about that as she had been with anything else in her life.
Her eyes stayed on the viewport as they approached the surface. They were still small from the distance, but she could see various being bustling about, shady dealings going on right in plain view. “That could work,” she hummed, fingers gripping the arms of the chair a little tighter. This was it. This was it. This was a real life mission that she was going on - undercover - and suddenly it was as though she were out of her depth. She yearned for him to head out of the atmosphere where they could just sit and talk and everything would be fine. They’d be safe there. His laugh jarred her out of her head and she looked over to him, trying to wrack her brain for what he’d just said. Something about acting oblivious? Him acting oblivious, maybe? “I’m sure you’ll do fine,” she said, voice a little soft and unsure. Kriff, she hoped that that made sense.
It was muffled, but some voices could be heard outside the ship, the general low grumble of beings going about their daily business. In a way, it was comforting. Grounding, even. This was a mission, yes, but she’d been on plenty of jobs with her parents before. Her skills were a little rusty, but they weren’t nonexistent. They could handle themselves just fine. She glanced over to him, taking in a deep breath before she trusted herself to nod. “As ready as I’ll ever be,” she said. She hesitated for a moment before pushing herself to her feet, and heading to lower the ramp. She slowed down when she reached the panel, glancing back to wait for Poe. They’d be fine. They could handle this. They could. “You good to go…” She trailed off, pausing before a small grin spread across her lips. “… Link?”
Ren was having a hard time ignoring how the energy around her had shifted. That anger, that wrath was still there, but there was an undercurrent of something that was clouding his mind. It was similar to what he was feeling, that wanting, that yearning to press his body against hers, to have every inch of his skin touching every inch of hers, to - no. No. He wasn’t going to allow himself to think such things. Not then, when she was right in front of him and it’d be all too easy to reach up and trace her features with his ungloved hand. He regulated his breathing, taking in measured, slow breaths in an effort to calm his pulse. It wasn’t working. His glaze slid over her, allowing his thoughts to drift for just a second before forcing them into place.
“I wasn’t planning on it,” he said. His heart gave angry jerk at the sound of her voice. Kriff, he wouldn’t mind it sounding like that all the time. The raspiness got stuck in his mind, shrieking around because he wanted to be the one to make her sound like that. He wondered if that’s how she sounded about a being slept with her, raspy and maybe a little quiet. He forced himself to keep gazing at her. If he looked away, it’d be like he was admitting that he was weak, that he couldn’t stand to look at her. Which was ridiculous. He just needed to get his thoughts in order, to force himself to be mindful of the mission at hand. There were more important things at the moment; things that were more imperative than dragging her to the nearest bed and pressing up against her like teens discovering themselves for the first time.
He let out a hum, finally allowing himself to glance towards the controls for a moment. He’d let her wait a beat or two, wanting her to simmer in those thoughts. Needing him was a nice thought, but he wasn’t able to tell if she would go along with him helping her. “You will until you understand how to do it on your own.” He wasn’t even sure if beings that weren’t Force sensitive could do such a thing. The fact that it had even worked with her was impressive - and a little shocking. He’d taken a risk with it. What would have happened if it was another being, someone that didn’t have her intelligence or her spine? She was strong-willed and angry, but she was smart. It was the perfect combination for such a thing.
Kylo Ren watched her as she finally turned her attention away from him. He felt like it was a little easier to breathe, but he refused to give in to the desire of heaving in a deep breath. Something in him told him that she’d probably take a little too much joy in that. “How long until we arrive?” He asked her, needing to say something. He was having trouble hanging on to his control. He wasn’t sure if it was because he’d helped her, but he felt hyper-aware of her emotions, of the want that was rolling off of her in large waves. It was mingling with his own desire, and he couldn’t tell where his ended and hers began. He dropped his gloved hand to his side, out of her sight line, and dug his nails into his palm. The sharp edge stung despite the fabric between the nail and skin, and he got a brief moment of clarity. He was fine. He was fine.
“Watch it,” he snapped, shooting her a glare. He needed to keep some semblance of ranking here, and her tone grated against him. He felt like a dog, his hackles rising up to warn anyone who was around of his annoyance. There’d been a split second where he’d wanted to call her ‘princess’, just to watch that anger rise up once more. But if it did, there was a chance that any self-control that lay between them would be thrown out into space. He looked towards the viewport for a moment, thinking her words over. “What would you have me call you, then?” He asked her. He hadn’t seen the intimate details, but he’d seen enough, the way impressions of death and destruction and swirled around her.
Her cheeks flooded with warmth, so hot it felt as though her skin could just melt from the bone. Toma ducked her head, laughing softly. Her chest felt a little wobbly, her whole being a little off-kilter. “I don’t know why you’d say that when it’s all your idea, Poe,” she said, finding it easier to continue as though they were talking about his ‘plan’ and not the fact that he’d called her sharp and said that he liked it. He kriffing liked it. Her stomach was in an uproar, twisting and turning and tying itself into knots. She pressed her lips together, somehow mustering the courage to glance over to him. He was smiling at her. Her heart was going to pound right out of her body, she knew it. It was going to happen. There was no doubt in her mind. Her heart would pound a hole right through her sternum and fly onto the controls all because a man smiled at her. Maker fucking wept.
“I try not to think about the fact that my childhood hero as faith in me,” she said, letting out a quiet chuckle. “It’s a little intimidating to think of.” She took in a deep breath, holding for a few seconds and then letting it go. Her pulse quieted (only a little, though) and she made her shoulders slump back into the seat. She needed to calm down, to be present with the mission. Because that’s what she was doing. She was working a mission, not mooning over some dark-haired boy like she was a youngling discovering attraction for the first time. The mission came first, everything second. And even if - if - she did find him attractive, so what? What would honestly happen between them? He was a pilot that went from mission to mission, never back on base long enough to really rest up. Most likely, nothing would happen beyond the mission, and that was okay. “I’m not sure about that. Poe sounds like a hell of a hot-shot pilot.” She glanced over in his direction and shot him a grin. “But Link sounds decent enough.”
Toma nodded her head as he spoke, the knots in her stomach loosening a little. She could handle mission talk. “That’s good,” she said, the corners of her mouth flicking up into a smile. She rolled her eyes when he started to speak. Not a good leader? The man was considered one of the best leaders in the Resistance. “You’re selling yourself short, Dameron,” she murmured, pursing her lips at the fact that she even had to disagree with him on this. “You’re more than just a good pilot. People like you, they trust you, they follow you. It’s because you’ve earned their trust, not because you can fly a kriffing X-Wing.” She made sure to keep herself from sounding too earnest, but it was hard to when he’d given her that grin and her heart was suddenly racing once more. “I know you won’t.” She was sure about that as she had been with anything else in her life.
Her eyes stayed on the viewport as they approached the surface. They were still small from the distance, but she could see various being bustling about, shady dealings going on right in plain view. “That could work,” she hummed, fingers gripping the arms of the chair a little tighter. This was it. This was it. This was a real life mission that she was going on - undercover - and suddenly it was as though she were out of her depth. She yearned for him to head out of the atmosphere where they could just sit and talk and everything would be fine. They’d be safe there. His laugh jarred her out of her head and she looked over to him, trying to wrack her brain for what he’d just said. Something about acting oblivious? Him acting oblivious, maybe? “I’m sure you’ll do fine,” she said, voice a little soft and unsure. Kriff, she hoped that that made sense.
It was muffled, but some voices could be heard outside the ship, the general low grumble of beings going about their daily business. In a way, it was comforting. Grounding, even. This was a mission, yes, but she’d been on plenty of jobs with her parents before. Her skills were a little rusty, but they weren’t nonexistent. They could handle themselves just fine. She glanced over to him, taking in a deep breath before she trusted herself to nod. “As ready as I’ll ever be,” she said. She hesitated for a moment before pushing herself to her feet, and heading to lower the ramp. She slowed down when she reached the panel, glancing back to wait for Poe. They’d be fine. They could handle this. They could. “You good to go…” She trailed off, pausing before a small grin spread across her lips. “… Link?”
Ren was having a hard time ignoring how the energy around her had shifted. That anger, that wrath was still there, but there was an undercurrent of something that was clouding his mind. It was similar to what he was feeling, that wanting, that yearning to press his body against hers, to have every inch of his skin touching every inch of hers, to - no. No. He wasn’t going to allow himself to think such things. Not then, when she was right in front of him and it’d be all too easy to reach up and trace her features with his ungloved hand. He regulated his breathing, taking in measured, slow breaths in an effort to calm his pulse. It wasn’t working. His glaze slid over her, allowing his thoughts to drift for just a second before forcing them into place.
“I wasn’t planning on it,” he said. His heart gave angry jerk at the sound of her voice. Kriff, he wouldn’t mind it sounding like that all the time. The raspiness got stuck in his mind, shrieking around because he wanted to be the one to make her sound like that. He wondered if that’s how she sounded about a being slept with her, raspy and maybe a little quiet. He forced himself to keep gazing at her. If he looked away, it’d be like he was admitting that he was weak, that he couldn’t stand to look at her. Which was ridiculous. He just needed to get his thoughts in order, to force himself to be mindful of the mission at hand. There were more important things at the moment; things that were more imperative than dragging her to the nearest bed and pressing up against her like teens discovering themselves for the first time.
He let out a hum, finally allowing himself to glance towards the controls for a moment. He’d let her wait a beat or two, wanting her to simmer in those thoughts. Needing him was a nice thought, but he wasn’t able to tell if she would go along with him helping her. “You will until you understand how to do it on your own.” He wasn’t even sure if beings that weren’t Force sensitive could do such a thing. The fact that it had even worked with her was impressive - and a little shocking. He’d taken a risk with it. What would have happened if it was another being, someone that didn’t have her intelligence or her spine? She was strong-willed and angry, but she was smart. It was the perfect combination for such a thing.
Kylo Ren watched her as she finally turned her attention away from him. He felt like it was a little easier to breathe, but he refused to give in to the desire of heaving in a deep breath. Something in him told him that she’d probably take a little too much joy in that. “How long until we arrive?” He asked her, needing to say something. He was having trouble hanging on to his control. He wasn’t sure if it was because he’d helped her, but he felt hyper-aware of her emotions, of the want that was rolling off of her in large waves. It was mingling with his own desire, and he couldn’t tell where his ended and hers began. He dropped his gloved hand to his side, out of her sight line, and dug his nails into his palm. The sharp edge stung despite the fabric between the nail and skin, and he got a brief moment of clarity. He was fine. He was fine.
“Watch it,” he snapped, shooting her a glare. He needed to keep some semblance of ranking here, and her tone grated against him. He felt like a dog, his hackles rising up to warn anyone who was around of his annoyance. There’d been a split second where he’d wanted to call her ‘princess’, just to watch that anger rise up once more. But if it did, there was a chance that any self-control that lay between them would be thrown out into space. He looked towards the viewport for a moment, thinking her words over. “What would you have me call you, then?” He asked her. He hadn’t seen the intimate details, but he’d seen enough, the way impressions of death and destruction and swirled around her.
April 13th, 2018 at 03:47pm