Body Issues?

When it comes to body image, I'm a bit of a hypocrite. I'm overly critical of myself, yet I tell others not to be. You can view my signature below, and contrast that to the way I stand in front of a full length mirror and pick apart every flaw I see in myself.

Ben usually helps me if I'm having a 'Let's beat on Nae' day.

uhmm..... I can never make my mind up. it'd be nice to say i was proud of looking how i do but it'd be a lie because i'm forever sighing when i see mirrors and the like, and i often think i'm way too big. It's easy to feel like a hippo. I'd recommend other people like that to listen to "I like giants" by "kimya dawson".

Often I think about really trying to lose some weight or trying hard to change my shape but then i think "fuck you" and decide that if people dont like me the way i am, thats their problem.

idk. it's a never ending battle with myself.

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uhmm..... I can never make my mind up. it'd be nice to say i was proud of looking how i do but it'd be a lie because i'm forever sighing when i see mirrors and the like, and i often think i'm way too big. It's easy to feel like a hippo. I'd recommend other people like that to listen to "I like giants" by "kimya dawson".

Often I think about really trying to lose some weight or trying hard to change my shape but then i think "fuck you" and decide that if people dont like me the way i am, thats their problem.

idk. it's a never ending battle with myself.

I know what you mean. I think that it will probably always be that way for some people, it being a never ending battle.
At the same time, I've kinda grown from that. I've realized that our days on Earth are numbered...you know? I don't mean to sound depressing, but people die ALL the time, everyday. My opinions on things changed quite a bit, because a 16 year old guy that lives by me recently died in a car accident. You just...you never know when your time will come. It's as if we are all ticking bombs.
It made me realize, I guess, that we need to use our days wisely. And who cares about how we look? I mean, yes, definately stay healthy. Eat healthy, exercise, have fun. As long as you do this, I don't think anyone needs to pinpoint themselves for feeling "fat", or "ugly." We don't have enough time to be unhappy with our appearance.

I think its perfectly normal to dislike something about yourself,
but like me...i am definatly no 'hot babe'
but i like to focus on the good points of my appearance and then make the most of them.

Yeah make the most of what you got!

-squirms around-

I really don't like how I look.
And not a billion cyber hugs from my friends will help.
I weight too much for me to want to say out loud, and I'm really short for my age. I dunno, but I don't ever feel like I'm good enough for someones presence. I guess thats why I don't have many friends in real life, to my dismay. I need to stop eating. Gah. I want to look beautiful. I want to seem graceful.

Without feeling pitiful or shallow.

Phantasmagoria:

-squirms around-

I really don't like how I look.
And not a billion cyber hugs from my friends will help.
I weight too much for me to want to say out loud, and I'm really short for my age. I dunno, but I don't ever feel like I'm good enough for someones presence. I guess thats why I don't have many friends in real life, to my dismay. I need to stop eating. Gah. I want to look beautiful. I want to seem graceful.

Without feeling pitiful or shallow.

Same thing, except I'm tall instead of short.

Normally it doesn't bother me too much, but today mum took me shopping. :grr:
There wasn't a single piece of clothing that fitted me. I wanted to burst into tears.
I'm not that freaking huge.
They should have something my size.

I definitely think everyone should love themselves, including their body.
However, I also think people should take care of themselves and not let their self-love get in the way of being/getting healthy.

If you're 5'0 and 200lb, then obviously something's off, no matter how much you love yourself.
Same if you're 5'10 and 110lb.
There are exceptions, but you get the idea.

I'm a hypocrite, though--
I've got major some insecurities and I've definitely gone to the extremes in forcing myself to live up to my high standards.

However, I think everyone should be happy and healthy. :]

I have mirrors everywhere around the house..... I'm okay with the way i look..... but i started dreading surfaces that reflect my image.... :shock:

Shotgun Opera:

Same thing, except I'm tall instead of short.

Normally it doesn't bother me too much, but today mum took me shopping. :grr:
There wasn't a single piece of clothing that fitted me. I wanted to burst into tears.
I'm not that freaking huge.
They should have something my size.

:arms:

Aw, baby, I know how you feel.
Shopping for jeans are absolute hell for me.
If it's my size, it's too long, and if it's my length, it's too big.
>_>

I'm not happy with how I look.
I'm 5,4 and Nearly 12 and a half stone.
When I was 9 I was diagnosed with Epilepsy.
I was prescribed tablets that caused my appetite to shoot up and my metabolism to slow down.

I have stretchmarks where I ballooned so damn quickly.
I begged the Doctors to change Tablets.
After A year of the tablets making me bigger and bigger and not even contolling the epilepsy
They finally changed the tablets.

But I can't shift the weight.

My Form tutor made a form video for us all.
And I couldn't belive how Fat I looked.
It was disgusting.
Well...It still is really.

And what makes it worse is my body isn't in proportion.
I have a long body and short legs so its even harder to find clothes that fit me
Yes, I'm aware how whiny I sound.

I really don't know what happened to my weight, but I was chubby when summer started and now I am thin, no really I am. I lost enough weight for my father to think I am anorexic. I am confused about how this happened. I eat anything I want and didn't exercise much at all(other than horse back riding once a week for an hour and going to six flags). My mother thinks it is my metabolism which is possible because my mother had a super fast metabolism when she was in high school and I was really thin until I was 9. I am not worried but a little bit concerned. What the hell happened?

Phantasmagoria:

Aw, baby, I know how you feel.
Shopping for jeans are absolute hell for me.
If it's my size, it's too long, and if it's my length, it's too big.
>_>

Oh my god, I am the exact same way. It bothers me so much.

My auntie told me that I'm gaining weight again. That was enough to make me throw a tantrum for a while and fast for a few days.

I hate my height; I'm generally short so it makes me seem like super overweight.

Idee Fixe.:

My auntie told me that I'm gaining weight again. That was enough to make me throw a tantrum for a while and fast for a few days.

I hate my height; I'm generally short so it makes me seem like super overweight.

AHH, I know what you mean about the short thing, jfdbhgg. I'm 5'3"-ish and I look huge... because i'm short and squashed, and it looks like I have no legs because they're so short and stubby. I hate it.

But generally, i'm not too upset by my days. Sometimes I have breakdowns about it, but I know that i'm not super overweight so it's good. (I am overweight though; by about 15 lbs.)
I'd love to lose those final pounds to make me look better, but I think i've given up, o_o. Whatever; i'm (generally) okay with what I look like now.

gerontophobia.:

Idee Fixe.:

My auntie told me that I'm gaining weight again. That was enough to make me throw a tantrum for a while and fast for a few days.

I hate my height; I'm generally short so it makes me seem like super overweight.

AHH, I know what you mean about the short thing, jfdbhgg. I'm 5'3"-ish and I look huge... because i'm short and squashed, and it looks like I have no legs because they're so short and stubby. I hate it.

But generally, i'm not too upset by my days. Sometimes I have breakdowns about it, but I know that i'm not super overweight so it's good. (I am overweight though; by about 15 lbs.)
I'd love to lose those final pounds to make me look better, but I think i've given up, o_o. Whatever; i'm (generally) okay with what I look like now.

Guys, stop it! I'm a tall girl and a fat one for that matter.... I have big feet and bulky thights... I'm like a girl with proportions but in monstruous size... You don't know how i'd love to be shorter.... Because no matter how much weight you gained, you still looked petite and fragile. ;)

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uhmm..... I can never make my mind up. it'd be nice to say i was proud of looking how i do but it'd be a lie because i'm forever sighing when i see mirrors and the like, and i often think i'm way too big. It's easy to feel like a hippo. I'd recommend other people like that to listen to "I like giants" by "kimya dawson".

Often I think about really trying to lose some weight or trying hard to change my shape but then i think "fuck you" and decide that if people dont like me the way i am, thats their problem.

idk. it's a never ending battle with myself.

That song rings very true to me. I've struggled with my self-image since I was very young, because I've always been tall and chubby. When I was five, I was diagnosed with a pituitary adnoma (sp?), which is a benign tumor on my pituitary gland. The tumor causes more growth hormone to be produced than needed, henceforth causing me to grow TREMENDOUS amounts. It hurt when I was picked on at the playground for something I couldn't help..

My bad-body image peaked when I went through puberty, just because that cocktail of hormones mixed with an already bad attitude was a disaster. I hated my body so much, that at one point I was self-harming, trying to punish myself for the way I looked, and I got so miserable that I planned to end my life. As I've gotten older, my body image has gotten better, simply because I've slimmed down and stopped growing, but sometimes I still feel insecure. Especially when all my itty-bitty skinny friends are whining about how "fat" they are. But that's okay..

=]

So, if anyone is going through anything like that, feel free to talk to me. I know how you feel.

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uhmm..... I can never make my mind up. it'd be nice to say i was proud of looking how i do but it'd be a lie because i'm forever sighing when i see mirrors and the like, and i often think i'm way too big. It's easy to feel like a hippo. I'd recommend other people like that to listen to "I like giants" by "kimya dawson".

Often I think about really trying to lose some weight or trying hard to change my shape but then i think "fuck you" and decide that if people dont like me the way i am, thats their problem.

idk. it's a never ending battle with myself.

That song rings very true to me. I've struggled with my self-image since I was very young, because I've always been tall and chubby. When I was five, I was diagnosed with a pituitary adnoma (sp?), which is a benign tumor on my pituitary gland. The tumor causes more growth hormone to be produced than needed, henceforth causing me to grow TREMENDOUS amounts. It hurt when I was picked on at the playground for something I couldn't help..

My bad-body image peaked when I went through puberty, just because that cocktail of hormones mixed with an already bad attitude was a disaster. I hated my body so much, that at one point I was self-harming, trying to punish myself for the way I looked, and I got so miserable that I planned to end my life. As I've gotten older, my body image has gotten better, simply because I've slimmed down and stopped growing, but sometimes I still feel insecure. Especially when all my itty-bitty skinny friends are whining about how "fat" they are. But that's okay..

=]

So, if anyone is going through anything like that, feel free to talk to me. I know how you feel.

Double, sorry.