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It's because you're so darn fantastic. :P

Yeah, but this story drives me nuts.

You always write such intense things. It makes me jealous.

I feel like once I finally manage to get this story out and the way I want it, I'll be done writing for a while. Not that I've been writing much anyways. Do you ever feel like that?

I swear, you've been writing that story for longer then I've been writing Symptoms of Life.

That's really shitty girl. What's it gonna be about?

Dude, University is kicking my ass right now. I failed my English Language Proficiency Exam.But I am determined to write Symptoms of Life for NaNo. Speaking of which, what masterpiece have you crafted for this year?

How's life been killing you lately?

YO BABE! Guess who's back for NANO!???

please don't forget about me :)

I don't even know if there's an actual name for it! The two pieces I bought at the store are called Black & Bone, but I'm putting the rest of the costume together myself and I'm going for an undead look but not gory. My cousin said I was going for a classy look, which I guess I am. So a classy, elegant zombie? I remember you telling me about that costume last year! I thought it was ridiculously clever and funny. But heh, that sounds like fun. I'm actually tame during Halloween when it comes to costumes normally, but I got the 'go ahead' to go all out this year.

Oh god, I hate when family does that. It's not the boyfriend/relationship thing for me because they know I'm actually really sensitive about that right now (even though it's been eight months now) so it doesn't come up anymore. Before that, yeah, it came up a lot and I had a lot of family members that I couldn't tell that I was dating a girl so they assumed I was single and I was like 'nope, done with you'. Now it's the whole school thing when everyone knows I'm taking a year off to be sure of what I'm doing.

Thanks so much for the wonderful comment you left on The Road to Nowhere! I'm so glad you liked it.

As for your question, I'm thinking in the very beginning, the zombies are just going to be referred to as those things. This will mostly be from Kate, since she has no idea what's going on and all. But as more characters are introduced, those people will have different names for them, like undead or biters. I'm going to try and stay away from flat out calling them zombies, though, because I feel like it wouldn't be as realistic if people just automatically were like, "Those are zombies!" Lol.

Oh gosh, don't worry. I'm not angry or anything, I completely understand what it's like being busy. Thanks for letting me know :)

It's not even that exciting to most, but last year we couldn't celebrate so we're making up for it this year. We always go trick-or-treating (well, my siblings and cousin do; I just still dress up) and then we watch scary movies with pizza at my grandparents. It's not even that big of a deal except Halloween is on Wednesday so we were trying to make plans for it to work since my cousin goes to school. My siblings don't, they're homeschooled. We also had a lot of Halloween/costume shopping to do. Which isn't even over yet, hah. And yeah, I remember, too. I made mine when it was a big deal. Over time, when it lost its hype, I stopped using it, too.

I completely understand that life fucks you over sometimes and you have to do what you have to do, not what you love, but when it comes to school, I want to be sure. I want to do something that doesn't make me miserable. I already have issues with being so stressed out that I make myself miserable; I don't want to be rushed into making such an important decision just to wake up every day and be miserable because I really regret it.

My parents aren't too bad about it, but other adults are. My parents are only wary for my sake. They completely understood when I said that I wanted to take a year off to be sure of what I wanted. They haven't talked about it since, really. They've talked about what school to go to when the time comes, but that's all. It's when other family members bring it up that I get all awkward and uncomfortable with. They're the ones that question my choices and thoughts, but expect me to have my shit together since I've graduated high school. And I actually want kids, but I've seen people react this way. My best friend's parents do it to her and she's positive she doesn't want kids. The most I would want is two and even then, that might be pushing it. I come from a big family so I want a smaller one. I think that's really cool, though. I have a lot of respect for people with enough patience to work with kids. I'd lose my mind.

Yeah, my parents would probably throw me into the nuthouse, too. I take after my mother.

They are real! I treat them like they are but if it's not another writer you're talking to, a lot of the time people just don't get it. And ah, I read those blog posts. I would have lost my mind way sooner than you did.

Halloween planning this year was a lot more than I had anticipated, oops. And I never use AIM anymore, sadly. I'm so terrible like that. I actually don't use IM services at all anymore. I did for a long time but I got...bored?

I don't know if I want to be a teacher or not anymore. I thought I did. I was so positive about it because it smacked me in the face one morning and I was like, "That's it!" But now I'm not so sure. I actually dislike the thought of it the more that I think about it and I already told my parents that I wanted to do that so now I have to tell them I don't think I want to so it puts me right back at square one. My dad doesn't want me to do what he did. He went with something he thought he'd love but ended up hating a whole lot so he'd probably understand if I told him that the more I think about it, the less it appeals to me but I have no idea. All I'm positive about is that I want to be a writer. I dunno where to go from there whatsoever. I'm so lost.

I don't think it's fair that we're expected to have our lives in order by eighteen but anything else we do is questioned constantly. "Oh, you want a tattoo? You sure?" YOU WANT ME TO DECIDE WHAT TO DO WITH THE REST OF MY LIFE AT EIGHTEEN BUT YOU QUESTION MY DECISION TO GET A TATTOO? What? Choosing what degree to go with is just as stressful and permanent as putting ink on your skin that has the potential threat of being a huge regret ten years later. "Oh, you don't want kids? You don't know that." Uhm, yeah, I think I do? I think eighteen is a old enough to know whether or not I want kids. I just don't get adults. They question everything you think or choose to do but expect you to have your shit together and know what you want to do for the rest of your life job wise.

I can talk about my writing with my dad, but I don't do it around anyone else, really. My mom hears me talk to myself/my characters because she sits next to me in the study where I do most of my writing. I will have literal, out loud conversations with my characters (sometimes doing both sides of the conversation, yes) when I'm alone. Luckily, no one's walked in on me doing that...yet. I do it so often that I'm 99% sure that it's going to happen at some point and the best excuse I'll have is, "BUT I'M A WRITER!" Fingers crossed that I don't get shipped off.

They do, but it depends on how pathetic you make them. Some people go too far, into the sickeningly pathetic area, and it drives me insane. I try to be really careful about how I go about my characters if they're pathetic because I don't want my readers to get really annoyed. I honestly think the most pathetic character I have is Eiri from Mercilessly. Maybe Wynter from Porcelain. The rest of my characters slowly progress into something with a back bone, even if kind of weak still, hah. I try.

Perfect!

I am the worst person in this entire world to ever attempt to start a conversation with. I am so sorry. I was busy all weekend when you replied, I meant to reply to you when I could, then I completely forgot.

I haven't bounced around that much with what I wanted to be. I've only successfully managed to stress myself out because I feel like everyone is expecting me to have my shit together by this point and I really just don't. It's completely unrealistic to think that because no one does, but whenever the subject comes up, I get awkward and uncomfortable because I feel like they're expecting me to go into this long, breathtaking rant about how I know exactly what I want to do with my life. I DON'T. I want to write and I really like food! That's all that I know. I just really want to be sure that I'm going to be doing something I love when the time comes. I don't want to be in school for eight years (exaggeration, oops) because I'm indecisive.

I love characters like that, too. I'm really peeved when characters get whatever they want the second they want it, no struggle. There's a lot of books I've given up on because of that. I really want struggle and I really want to see the way the characters grow from the experience because in real life, people learn and grow and change. I really love that we are, too. I feel like whenever I start passionately talking about fictional characters, people are like, "Whoa, she's definitely schizophrenic." I swear, the only difference between being an author and being schizophrenic is one is socially acceptable. Fine line! I talk to my characters out loud. That's the worst when people are around; my mom thought I was insane when I first started doing it but now she laughs. I try to avoid pathetic characters but some of them need to start out pathetic because it wouldn't be right if they were all strong and independent. If they start out pathetic, I eventually give them a back bone. In Mercilessly, I think Eiri stayed pathetic the entire time because she was really in love and he left her. In my personal experience (which I received after I had written and finished Mercilessly), getting dumped all the sudden by someone you love a whole lot sucks and makes you very pathetic so when I think back on it, I think it's okay that she was pathetic.

No! Please don't sob. I'll work extra hard on it to finish it for you? Sound good? Just please don't cry!

I saw, but I would hate to read any spoliers.

Oh I know how that feels. Only I'm never really home to write anything lol. I'm sure the chapter will be wonderful, just keep doing whatever it is you do. :)

Bah, who cares what others say about her name, I like it. I also like it because she is fragile girl who seems to do whatever she wants, never being true to herself and never having any of her own "victories".

Yay, I can't wait to read it! You are so talented!

Victory is such a cool name. Sorry, I read super fast for stories I like so my brain tends to fill in the gabs, and sometimes I'm wrong. Thanks for clearing that up for me!

And really? A few days? Ahh, I'm so excited :)

Im in a very good place even though it doesn't feel that way ^__^ But its sparked a lot of newfound interest in poetry! I recently went to a concert and kissed a boy of whom I have very,very mixed feelings
Anywho i am also excited to go to a party thursday night and homecoming is coming up as well but I'm still stuck with these weird feelings (lol) and it's getting in the way of my focus on these good things
What do you mean by annoying stuff?

Hello you are also awesome how are you?

Thank you so much for your comments, ;~; it means a lot! Also I didn't want to overload you with too many stories so I stuck with the simple and short ones :) but really though, I hope you update your stories soon. xD