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Miss Serenity;
I am so using your name in one of my stories as one of the main characters but you have nothing to do with the story at all =P

Thought I'd just tell you that, so if you have any copyright on your name or anything.. i'll stop using it.haha

Thanks for the picture comment, (;
My name is Savannah,
What's yours?

Yeah. Hopefully they will, because within two days of breaking up they were both calling me to ramble about, "God, Bee, I miss Brennan! I'm still in love with him, do you think he'll take me back?" and "God, Cor, I miss Derrick! I know I need space and that we broke up for a reason, but it's not the same without him. I don't think I [i]know[/i] how to be without him!"

So yeah, I get to be the mediator. Fun.

Hopefully. They released him from the hospital for a day, and the next he was back because dialysis wasn't working and if he doesn't go, he'll die from his own blood poisoning him. So life has been hectic.

Yeah, true. I just don't know why they're being enablers, though. He's worked so hard to get as sober as he is, but he's still working on it and one little slip-up could cost him everything. Right now he just needs to be in chill environments with close friends and no drugs or alcohol of any kind around. I've tried telling them that, but they're like, "Oh, don't worry about it! It'll be fine, he's a big boy." I'm like, no, addicts kind of need a little support rather than a room full of enablers.

The first time you hear a song it's good, then it just gets old. I thought the goal was to make the song a hit, not play it so many times people want to jerk their radios from their cars and throw them out the window? Eh.

Hmm, well, that would be good for her! The first few months are the hardest, but slowly you come to realize that she's not there anymore, but she'll always be in your memory, in your heart, and soon it will be nothing but fond memories that will make you smile when you think of them. Let's face it, the grieving process sucks, but soon it won't hurt as much. I hope things get better.

By the way, this is totally off topic, but I really hate the fact that you take such great photos. You're so photogenic, dude! Your new photo is absolutely gorgeous.

Summer is pretty boring so far. I sincerely hope yours is going better. This one is just overly hot, uneventful, and just plane wasted. Ugh.

What book have you read most recently?

I know right!
We need to catch up!
I miss you!
I've been good (:
Just graduated high school! ;D

haha :D

its not really a reputation for birthdays, its just... i kinda hate them. :}
like, people tend to forget and its all upsetting and your literally growing older D:

i know im too young to worry about this stuff, but still. haha :D
It just started winter here... and let me tell you, tis friggen cold>.
D: poopoo @ writers block. i hate them D:
I havent updated my HP fanfic in a long while, i feel like im letting people down.. haha D:
so imma try and squeeze in something that probs doesnt make sense at all.
<'3

Happy birthday, for five days ago <3

My mumzies has banned me from the internet i'm only on atm because I need to study for my art exam [writing up the Art Principles and Elements] I know i'm not going to pass year 11. so i'm also looking up Tafe courses and looking into getting a full time job by the end of the year :)
My birthday next wednesday - the 9th. *sigh* don't get me talking about my reputation about birthdays. -___-

I'm sorry about your cousin *bigcuddles* <3 it's good your coping through it though and you're surrounded by friends that care about you!
My weak ear is my right one :)
Also I didn't really dress up as anything just went in ugg boots, leggins and a dress-y shirt and my jokers hat. Ash said i looked like Lily Allen i was like O_O okay then i'm a Joke. XDD

Exam break is over for me on next sunday and back to school on the 14th which im not really looking forward too.. cause i have a maths test on EVERYTHING on the second day back -.- =] atleast i dont need to go to school on my birthday.. but i'd rather |: cause ive been doing nothing but sitting on my ass watching tv for the last four days.. i'm bored out of my mind and everyone else seems to not want to socialize with me.. atleast i finished a story =DDD!
my jacob black/Breaking dawn saga. I'm not sure weather I should make a sequeal or not.. i'll think about that one later once i get the horrors of exams over. n_n

Yeah, true. I'll take all the friends I can get right now. And two of my friends split, and they both attend the same college so they could be together, plus they shared an apartment and everything. They were together for almost nine years, man! They were pretty much my only solid example for love, seriously. I was all, "Derrick, you seriously couldn't stay together?!" And they claim they're just taking a 'break', but we all know how those turn out.

He has congestive heart failure, and he's on dialysis three times a week for kidney failure, plus he was in remission from cancer. His immune system sucks, so it could be the middle of June and if he gets just a little breeze from the air conditioning and it's even a little too much, he gets pneumonia. So he's in the hospital because not only is his cancer back, but he has a bad case of pneumonia. So he's to the point now where he's just completely falling apart, and if it's not one thing it's another. But he's always in and out of the hospital, it's just that this time I know we're getting toward the end soon. I've been spending a lot of time with him at the hospital because even though we never have been really close, because he doesn't really talk, I just want him to know someone's there. I just go and sit by his bed and read.

Oh, yeah. Definitely. I missed the guy. He's quite the popular guy, so whenever I see him we'll always have about ten minutes to talk before someone comes over and drags him away. We've been talking a lot on the phone and everything, but there are certain things we need to discuss and it got to the point where he literally decided he wouldn't tell anyone he was here for two days, because that way we'd at least be able to talk before he was being dragged to parties and stuff, which isn't exactly helpful towards the rehab thing.

I'm so tired of that one, too! They play it ALL of the time. I'm also getting really tired of Heartbreaker or whatever it is by Taio Cruz. It was catchy at first, but radio stations play things to the extent where you just change the station as soon as you hear the song come on. Which I don't really think is the goal, but whatever. xD

How have you been doing lately, hun? Any better?

It is a little ;D
but it was faster than optus (op-tus) XD thats a even stupider name.

Life, atm is fanstatic :D! despite the other weekend Charlotte and Jared decided to be tools and insulting me and stuff over facebook, i was like oh rofl. your both as bad as eachother and i'm not going to go down to your level and start name calling and all this shit =] I was quite proud of myself, then charlotte when low and started saying all this shit about my hearing aids (i'm part deaf, but only when it comes to the sounds in words) other than that im completely normal, as far as normal can go with me :P
none of their words hurt me, well.. strangely they didnt ^_^ I mean if this was three years ago i'd be in tears and wondering why someone who was supposed to be my friend would do such a thing.
I was laughing and telling anthony that charlotte is nothing but a back stabbing bitch =]

Anywho.
Dress up party this saturday, ihave no idea what i'm going as >.< i'll probs get all this shit together and be like wooo, i'm... uhm whatever me ;D
ahah.

How's your life?

Oh and exams atm are doing my head in -.- even if i only have two, i have a billion tests this week aswell D:

<3 Serenity! :)
Fruit looop!

I miss you too <3
Finally got my internet back, after too months D:<
i'm now with bigpond! (internet company) :D! ehe

I'm sure I'll get over it. I don't think we'll ever be as close as we before, but I do want to be friends with him. He's a good person. And I have to give him credit for always being there for me before we even began dating, you know?
I regret beginning a relationship with him only because it ruined everything. I just want it to be like brother and sister like it was before. He was such an amazing friend but now I just feel like I can't trust him. But in all fairness to him, throughout the entire relationship I never was over Alex. I shouldn't have been in the relationship in the first place, because I was in a way trying to move on from Alex and though I really did care for Xavier, it wasn't the same.

God, everything has been so horrible the last few days. I've been crying so much and my Grandpa is in the hospital again, so everyone is at the hospital and everything. I don't feel [i]here[/i]. I mean, I'm here physically, obviously, but I don't feel here emotionally or mentally. I just miss him. He could make everything better and no matter what, he could always make me smile. I could be sobbing and within five minutes of talking to him, I'd be smiling and laughing.

I have absolutely nothing but school this summer. Alex and I were going to be going on a road trip from the end of May to the beginning of July, but that obviously won't be happening since he'll be recovering when he gets out of the coma. And we were going to celebrate his 19th birthday (June 5) and my 16th together. Same as you, really. Family and friends. (:

So, to get back into the swing of things, what's the most annoying song you've heard recently?

MY MOM DOES THAT ALL THE TIME. OMIGOD.
i'm used to it though..because it's all the time.

i have a D in spanish if it makes you feel better. :p

pretty great :)
how are you?

Awh, dude, that's not good ):

Im altight, I was in a car accident like last week.. Nothing major done, so I'm not broken. (:

it was a community show. it was actually pretty good! i was impressed.

We're kind of giving it a chance to dissolve. I mean, we've hung out once or twice, but we're not jumping back into it. I don't know if I can ever trust him again, but I could hang out with him every once and a while. I mean, he was extremely guilt-ridden when he told me, but still. It's funny because he was my BEST friend. And he was ALWAYS around, so I can't see how he found the time.

My dad handed me his credit card and told me to use my best judgment. They're out of town and I was staying with my grandparents, but now I'm staying with Derrick and Brennan because they give me my space and just leave me alone for the most part.
The doctor's just basically said that it could last anywhere from a week to six months. But Storm (Alex's little sister) says she has a feeling he'll be out by tomorrow morning. I don't know if that's delusion or an honest gut feeling, but I'm not going to question it because it's too comforting to. They think he moved his finger earlier this morning, so that's a really good sign! I'm holding onto that. But they can't be sure.

Life sucks sometimes. It's just all so surreal. Excited for summer?

Wow. I'm really, so sorry. But God. That's kind of like an odd, eerie premonition. :/ Everything happens for a reason, though. I'm here, you know, obviously, if you ever want to talk about anything.

Seriously? I mean, I think he's obligated by the school to allow you to take the tests. Did your parents call in and excuse you? I have a teacher like that of my own, except I call him and hand the phone to my mom when she's pissed, and she rips him to shreds. It's really funny. (: It'll all work out, though.

I still had feelings for Alex. It was pretty obvious to all of us, you know? And Xavier had been sleeping with his ex for two weeks before we broke up, so it was all a very big, chaotic situation. It's a huge weight of my chest, though. I'm going to be single for a while, I think. It's nice. Plus, there's a lot more time to do things now, haha!

Since early Sunday morning. It's so surreal, because four hours before that, we were talking on the phone, trying to talk each other to sleep and we were talking about trying a relationship and everything. And now I'm trying to catch a flight out to New York to be with him since he goes to Columbia.

Oh, God, I'm so sorry! I can only imagine how difficult that must be. Things will get better. But God, it must be hard as hell now. :/ :arms: How has school and everything been going for you other than this?

Me? A lot has happened since we last talked, actually. Xavier and I broke up (no regrets there) and Alex is in a coma - diabetic. I'm used to chaos but this pretty much tops it all.

SERI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Damn, I miss you tooooo !!!
*hugs* What's been happening???

Ah, God, same here. Stuff is so chaotic and crazy around here.
It HAS been too long. How's life? (:

Lmao! Nice C: