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I'm sorry darling. <3
A clothing line, how exciting! What's it called? Do you have a logo? If you have a camera, may I see pictures? ^.^

It definitely was mistreatment. But that's what crappy minimum wage bosses do- cut corners. That job definitely gave me any resolve I needed to go to school and hone my skills as a writer. The next few years will definitely be the toughest but biting the bullet and getting through it is definitely better than forever being in a low end job.

I always knew I'd go to school. That job will just be the inspiration I need on the tough mornings I don't think I can get out of bed. A few bad days is worth the sacrifice.

Aw, thanks. To be honest, I'm terrified for the future and I'm scared of failing. But everybody probably gets like that sometimes, even when they won't admit it. I'll just do my best and I'll work my way up. (:

So what's new in your world, darling?

You lazy butt!

I quit long ago. I only lasted 5 months at that job. Plus it was shit. You had to work 5 1/2 hours to get a break, which means you'd need a 6 hour shift because the breaks are 30 minutes. They kept giving me 5 1/2 hour shifts, but I didn't get a break because if I did have a break, I'd be working only 5 hours... it was complete bull. And they did it to me almost every single shift.

It is an illness. Well, a condition. Fainting is one of the symptoms as well. I'm rather dizzy today. a fainting risk, so I'm sitting in bed and relaxing. I'll probably take a bubble bath later.

I'm glad it's under control too. I'm taking back control of my life and I'm going to get where I want to be! =D
I'm on a strict diet and exercise regime. It took me a year to tweak it to perfection but I have to follow the rules I've set for myself or else I'll fall back into where I was before. I still have the bulimia and I know it won't truly go away but as long as I follow my diet rules, I'll generally be okay.

I just wonder why my body is so damaged. I have nerve damage, I have bulimia, I have arthritis (Fibromyalgia is a form of rheumatoid arthritis).

Sorry. Again. Today's a bad day. I'm a gainting risk and my body's shaking and it's very sore and my head is throbbing. And my stomach's very sore. I don't have much of an appetite. I know I'll vomit if I eat so I'm just sipping on water and probably going to make some light broth or rice or something.

But I'll get to where I want to be. I'll succeed as an author and a voice actor. I'll do whatever it takes. I won't let this hold me back.

And remember, you don't need to lose weight. You are beautiful just the way you are. <3

Someday I'll have an online store. (:

Aw, that sounds tough. I'm sorry darling. Your friend sounds really immature. That's what I hated about high school- everybody was immature and throwing drama around. I was extremely unpopular but I didn't care. It wasn't worth it.

This one girl loved to spread rumours about me. She spread rumours about everyone. I got a job at a fast food place. Guess who was working there! On my second week, we had shift together. She asked me to cover her Saturday shift and I declined because I had my own plans that day and to be honest, I knew she just wanted to get out of working on a Saturday. Her response? She told everybody that I, the new girl, stole her IPod. Nobody trusted me after that and kind of avoided me, being over protective at the locker station and watched me closely.

Nobody got over that rumour even though I was a competent worker. Except I'd be assigned to do a job and then somebody would literally be like, "No, no. I'll do it." instead and then they did a bad job and then I'd get in crap for it by a supervisor... Augh. Strangely enough, all the people that attempted to do my work for me were boys.

Sorry. Ranting. That job was Hell. And high school was unpleasant. I like to hope the working world is better but I saw from my minimum wage job that it was not. That job gave me an incentive though- be successful so I don't have to be a mindless slave to society.

Plus with the Fibromyalgia. that job was very bad for me. I felt like dying after each shift. My body hurt like Hell. I felt completely stiff and I could barely move and my head hurt and I possibly vomited... I was in extremely rough shape after work.

Oh right, I'm actually on proper medication now. My life is incredibly screwed up though so now I'm going to have to work extra hard to prove I'm a good candidate for the program I'm applying to next year. I'm still in pain and sometimes I still have very bad days and a few days can be utter Hell but I am better than I was. More functional. My bulimia is under control, a benefit from the medication I didn't expect.

Sorry, again. A lot has changed since we last spoke properly.

I have a bad feeling I may have just forgotten the password though. I've been forgetting passwords lately. I automatically sign into Gtalk and MSN. I wrote down those passwords though haha. So I'm safe.

The stories of my life generally are weird. All the weird stuff happens to me haha.

High school ending was definitely a highlight of my life. I hated high school as well. =P

Family. Eek. Long story there. The last year and a half has been utter Hell but the storm is finally over. I think we'll be okay, ignoring all the issues. I've let go of my anger. I've started taking care of my dad, ironically. He's fallen ill and he can't work anymore nor can he drive. So I've been taking care of him the past several months. Been looking for a job.

I'm scheduled to do a sale in December. I'm selling my knitted products (scarves, hats, cowls, wristwarmers, headbands, bows, maybe a few bags, etc) and my homemade hair accessories made of ribbons and knitted bows fit in too. I make lots of stuff. I'll keep the big knitted bags for myself but I sell smaller purses and whatnot so I don't mind departing with those.

Apart from that, I've been looking for work and failing. I will hopefully manage to sell my work though. I'd sell it online but my mom won't let me.

Oh right. College. I'm signed up for a couple English courses and a college prep course that teachers you how to utilize your time and studying and tips and whatnot. That will definitely be helpful. Next year I'll hopefully get into their really good writing program. Until then, I will be honing my skills. Next semester, I plan to take an oral presentation course (I can be an awesome presenter or the worst one in the class. I want to work on my skills) and Japanese. I'll probably take a course for mass communications as well or some other course to teach me how to specifically work with people.

PS: my other account was hooked up to an email I made just to make an account on here so I wouldn't be bombarded with spam Mibba emails. I never go on that email account. This account, however, is attached to my professional email, one I check more often now that I'm enrolled into college. Mibba notifies me when I receive a comment from you so I will be able to reply quicker!

Aw, well we can talk now again!
It's odd. I can't access the cell number I gave you. Remember my friend gave the number to me. I used it and then stopped using it. I'm trying to access it but I can't. It says the password was changed four months ago. I don't remember changing it but I could have. I've tried every password I used in the past 6 months but it wouldn't unlock. I can't change the password either because, very stupidly, the account that's attached to the number is the same account that has the number in it. It worries me because I had other numbers in there besides yours, and if I wasn't the one who changed the password, it could have been either my friend (who I mysteriously hasn't signed on in months) or her friend who originally made the account for her personally. I should have changed the password right when I got it I guess but I was silly like that.

Oh well. We have here to talk to. I didn't expect a reply so quickly but it's a nice surprise. (:

So how are you? What have you been up to, darling?

Hey Bianca. It's Kerenza. I don't know if you'll get this. Either way, I forgot the password to my other account and spent like 10 minutes trying to hack into it. Eventually I said screw it and made a new account.
So, if you get this, how are you? <3

I'm doing pretty good.
Wasn't feeling well last night though. But luckily I'm feeling better now.
I'm sorry your sick though. :(

Hey! How are you!?

Biancaaa! Oh how I've missed you tooooooooo!

Aww! That's pretty much my attitude toward Mibba as well. I'm trying to work on it though! =P

I'm alright, thank you! How have you been? What's new with you? (:

Hey Bianca. Been forever much? Clearly, we suck at texting haha. How have you been darling?
I'm not sure if you remember, but I wrote a Harry Potter fan fiction a couple years ago. I apologize for not updating in two years. I had almost my entire story written and then my family's communal computer crashed, resulting in losing all my work.

I'm planning to restart the story. I'm going to copy it onto my computer and revise it into an original story. I liked my story plot and hopefully it'll become a true novel one day.

If you want to see how the novel ends, I'm going to be putting it up on http://www.authonomy.com when it's completed. That's a site where authors put their novels online and compete to become published- it's a monthly thing.

So yeah. I apologize again.

From Kerenza
xoxo

i updated my harry potter story :)

That's pretty upsetting, Bianca.
lol.
But if you don't enjoy writing like you did, or if you just don't have time then there is no reason to force it. :)

I've been pretty good.
You?
And yeah it's been a long while lol. It was like you vanished.

I'm so glad that your cat came back!
I could only imagine how hard and heartbreaking that must have been for you.

Why are you sad?
Are you okay?

lol. Well that's good.
:)