i replied to your question in the comments section of WS. check it out. hope that explains everything for you. figured i'd put it up there so in case anyone had the same question they could see the answer. :)
thanks for the comment! yeah. i know, i put dean through a lot. then again, the show does too. i mean, hell they put the responsibility of saving the world on his friggin' shoulders. dude. i'd be like "screw that!" *blows brains out with colt*