broken.dancer / Comments

you are very right. i found that out the hard way. its like you think someone's your best friend and they just todally stab u in the back. i already have enough trust issues without them fueling it. once someone breaks my trust, i may forgive them but our friendship is never the same again. my heart just kinda closes up after stuff like that. the thing with me is, i give trust very easily but one has to build the trust or else it'll stay fragile and very breakable. if you dont give me reason to open up to you, i wont. simple as that.
and i completely agree with you. i hate when they give you the jesus freak look! or when they outright laugh in your face. its very degrading and insulting on so many levels. but thats okay. they are the ones missing out on god's amazing self. and i will pray for him and for you too coz i know it must be hard on you. you can always just ask me if you need me to pray for u for anything :]
and thank you. i'm very honored and i KNOW i can trust you too :]

HIII xD I'm Kim

awww. that indeed was a terrible day. and you are very right. it easier to trust the guy friends than the girl friends. but then again i think its just me who has trust issues. i just cant seem to trust all my friends at all. like they think they know all about me and all that i am but they barely know even a quarter. they just know the surface stuff like i like writing or stuff like that but nothing deep. who they think i am and who i really am are kinda different people. i cant seem to be able to trust them with who i am. even my family for that matter. the only friend that knows me, and whom i trust completely is the one i told you about. you probably know more about me than my other friends do lol. its crazy. i guess thats life.
and i'm so sorry about your dad. i hope he is okay and i'll keep him in my prayers :]

lol...sorry i got a little bit carried away. i always get kinda depressed when i think about that.
as for you, i think you're probably right about the girlfriend thing. maybe you should wait a tiny bit just to see where he and his girlfriend stand. but then it would be kinda hard if he gets back with his gf. he might like you and might think you dont feel the same so he goes back to her. so dont wait too long. i just think you should put it out there, tell him how you feel straightforward. you really have nothing to lose. if it doenst work out you guys can just continue as friends. as for your other friend, go find out whats up with her. dont let the anger settle for too long or it will make the issue bigger than it is. i wish i could lend you my friend, he is great with such advice lol, but he is all busy with exams these days. you'll hv 2 settle 4 my terrible advice lol.

i guess i'm fine. i've accepted reality. i'm just glad that he is in my life and that he loves me, maybe not the way i wish, but he does love me :]
he has helped me through a lot and has always been there for me, even when no one else was. and just as long as he is happy, i'm happy coz he really does deserve all the happiness this world can offer. his goal in life is to help people, and he means it. he has been through hell in his life and he is convinced that he experienced it all so he can helps others. he actually wanted to kill himself at one point and he had no one then...he's just soo...amazing, so.... i just cant find words to describe him. words will never be enough anyway.
he is the most important person in my life. when i met him my heart just went, "this is it, i'm not yours anymore" lol
he believes in me more than i have ever believed in myself, he knows me more than anyone ever has. even my family don't know me like he does. he goes out of his way for me all the time. he is unbelievable.
no matter how much i try to like someone else, i cant. i guess these thing take a lot more time than i thought.

if you really like Taylor guy. go for it. if it doesn't work out, you guys can just be friends. i'm kinda in too deep for that now...besides i think its better this way for me. i dont deserve him. god help me, i love him so much :]

lol that's so weird. its kinda what happened to me. my best friend in the world is 18. i've known him for about 2 years. i met him coz of the other guy i told you i liked. (long story, i'll explain later) so we kinda just hit it off. he is so amazing. anyway to cut this story short, i basically figured out that i really really like him and not the other guy (he has some growing up to do too). so now its so sad coz i cant have him. he sees me as his little sister. and he introduced me to his girlfriend (something about wanting his favorite people in the world to meet each other) and he loves her so much. he even tells how he wants to marry her and stuff. she has become like an older sis to me. she so nice and perfect for him. and she loves him to death. i always feel so guilty that i like him, especially when she starts talking about how she loves him. so yeah. you are not alone.
and to answer your question, i'm 15 and he is 18. i dont think its wrong :]

ooh i'm so excited! tell me when you get the results :]
(though we already know you made it)
oh and ask away :]

how was ur audition?!!

cool i'll check it out.
and good luck!!!! though i dont even think you need it :]
i'll keep my fingers crossed. tell me how it goes
oh btw i won the poetry competition at my school!!! i am soo soo happy :]

coool :]
and i know what you mean. my stories are going pretty slow too. i have so many ideas but i dont know how to express them...which is why i'm still trying to learn...anyways i'm looking forward to ur next chapter :]

aww...he sounds so cute :]
wow. soo cool. those are wayy more than i could ever hope to have.
oh btw i started another story, so if you get the chance would you check it out?
btw what happened to night dreamer?! i miss ur story :]

omg thats so awesome!
you have a cow?! and it had a baby :]
i am so jealous right now. my parents wont allow any sort of pet in the house lol.
what did you name it? is it a girl or a boy?

that would be way awesome :]
and thank you thou i'm only telling the truth :]

nahh...u'r talking to the babble queen of all time lol.
and of course you can do this. u shouldnt even doubt yourself.
you will wow them no doubt with your amazing talents and they wont be able to resist. you'll todally win. just gotta believe in yourself and trust in your abilities :]

thank you. its okay. there will be other auditions.
oh and the spring concert was yesterday. it was so much fun. i did my solo too in front of all those people. though my family didnt come and then they forced me to give them a private concert lol...yup that's my family for you.
as for you, i wish you all the best:]
i know you will do well. i believe in u!! so go kick some audition butt!..wooh :]
(i'm just slightly hyper)

lol yeah i know what you mean.
oh btw i found out that i didnt get into the thingy i auditioned for. i'm actually not as upset as i thought i would be...probably because only 3 people from my school got into out of the 10 that auditioned... that sounds kinda wrong doesnt it? what i meant is that its always nice to know you're not alone...u know. at least we all failed together lol.

badminton is the best. probably the only sport besides tennis that i actually love.
and yeah you're probably right. i'm just one of those lazy people who procrastinate big time. i always say yeah i'll do it then never get round to it... yeah not one of my better character traits. lol

cool..lucky :] i'll never be flexible and i have sadly come to accept that lol
besides music, drawing, designing, dancing (a little bit), writing, which u already know....i'm a pretty good cook and i am good at running and badminton...
i am forever trying new things so u never know i might find something else....i always like finding new stuff i like and i'm good at.

wow thank you so much :] u'r the best
and i can understand what u mean. i actually got accepted into the dance academy at my school but i cant do it because its either i pick that or band..so i picked band coz i love music so much more. but anyways tell me how ur audition went.
i know it went well coz u'r ah-mazing!...lol what other talents have u got hiding under your sleeve?

lol cool. and glad 2 hear ur brother is well :]
i am so happy for you about the concert thing. i'm glad it went well.
i wish i could have seen the awesomeness for myself. and u are absolutely right. singing is what i love and i'm not going to get something as tiny as nerves get in my way. the audition is in about an hour lol.
and of course i'll wish you well. wow u have a lot of talents :]
u dance too? cool. i wish u all the best. u'll totally get it. i believe in u :]