That's sort of awkward. I can sort of talk to my friend, like not completely, but sort of. It's weird. Sometimes I'd just like to be alone, but others I'm better with people. I... don't know.
Me and my friend don't really meet up. She's always with her boyfriend/best friend and I don't want to pull her away from him. We do talk a lot though. I just sorta wish we were closer so I could be like "yo this is happening, do you think I could come crash at your place for a bit?"
That'd be cool! over a break this short (but still kinda long) im going to be with my family, and will be sitting on my be-hind all day. it'll give me something to do, and i'll have new music to listen to ^-^
I can't even tell my mum how much my trip to see my best friend was going to mean to me. It'd totally make a mess with my dad anyway, and I can't have that.
I'm beginning to trust one of the girls that I've been friends with for awhile, like since maybe 4th grade. I'm not really close, because we're just like not instantly tight and stuff. We talk a lot though. All my other best friends are like not around. I wish they were, I just don't like people too much.
I'm really comfortable with my mum. Like I can tell her about my stand points on important stuff, like the bible and poltics and the world and stuff. I can't really tell anyone else. I can't tell her about extremely personal things though.
I always think it's my fault for having no friends in town. Then my friends that I do have, that are magical and decided to move out of this place while they had the chance yell at me, telling me that I just need to get out there and get comfortable with people. Which is hard. I'm not comfortable with anyone anymore.
I'm afraid to tell my mum that. I almost told her that things were easier when my dad wasn't here, but I figured that she'd just say something mean about how I only thought that because things weren't going my way today. It's better for my siblings though, they're only 6 and 10 and my 10 year old has Autism, so it's for the better.
I don't mind not having friends, except when I need a place to just go and crash for a while. Then it's absolutely brutal.
My dad just kind of ended up back. My mum asked me and my sister if we were cool with it. I really wanted to admit that I wasn't, but I couldn't do it. It's more important for my siblings to be happy, because they're still little kids and I don't want them growing up with depression problems. I'm also one of those cliche cases who doesn't seem to have any friends outside of school. The ones I do don't live in my town though either. I just feel uncomfortable trying to meet people and stuff. I just deal with it all day.
haha nice... I have a nice comfy computer chair...
and I'm wiped from having two performances of our school play today, so I'm going to bed!
night!
Sweet Dreams!
Thanks for commenting my journal.
That's basically what I'm like. Except I'm shoved into a tiny house, so I don't even have a room. I sleep on our basement couch. I had to go with my parents to pick up my dad's stuff, I was bawling the whole time.
I don't understand how people can accept him back so easily... I guess I'm just not a great person.
Wow, no I didn't! I'm really happy for them as well. I hope everything is going well for them. :D
I haven't seen it, but I shall go check in the near future. lol xD
Mine's a piece of shit.
But his old one was worse.