December 5th, 2007 at 06:48pm
Yeah, its true, but it happened forever ago. Its okay now. :]
I just got back from a roadtrip to Uncle Andy's for his baby boy-- this weekend was his first birthday-- and on the drive down, Allie wanted to hear stories of when I was her age (she'll be nine on the 16th). Well.. I met you and Mo when I was her age, so thats what I told her about. She was laughing so hard and I was too, but I was almost crying at the same time. Remember Livi used to come to school with us, and she'd miss all those days? It was because she was sick, right? When I was a kid then I wasn't ever really sure. You guys were the first...best friends I ever had... and I love you, I love you with all my heart. I wasn't your neighbor or anything, but you're still my [i]sister[/i]. That was when life at home was getting real rocky for me, and coming to school and seeing you and Mo and Livi all smiling and laughing... it was like I didn't have to even THINK of that world at home anymore. You made a world of difference in my life without even trying, and I tell ya, I [b]would not be here[/b] right now if I hadn't known you.
I guess its why being away from you is so tough, huh? Now I RARELY see Mo, maybe once every several weeks, and Livi-- PSH, forget it. I never see that bucket of crack unless you're down, which is lame. It feels crappy, but whatever life goes on right. Home's been getting awfully bad and I'm having nightmares again... night [i]terrors[/i] that I haven't had since I was eight years old. I missed school last Thursday because of the night terrors. I spent the whole night long sitting in the kitchen, tapping my foot, staring blankly ahead, sipping coffee. I didn't crash until morning, and by then Xtina felt so bad for me she was like 'fuck it, stay home and get some sleep!'
I can't help but think I miss you so badly that things are turning back into what they were before I ever knew you. Hell, maybe I'm just crazy.
I love you and miss you with all my heart. Take care of yourself Clo.
-Stephy
Please come back home. I miss your face. =[
Hey, I need to know if you're coming for sure cuz otherwise my mom wants to take me... skiing. I know, right? wth? But hey. Whatever. I guess she wants me to have something special since i'm gonna be 15 or whatever. blah.
~mo.