I do to because right now I could really use a friend. Mostly all I have is family and I just dont think I could really tell them.I am going to talk to Cole today to try and sort some stuff out. I am hoping for the best.
See I iwsh so badly I could talk to him but that is the real deal breaker. There is like no possibilty of talking to him. I could send a letter but it cant be about any of this cause that would be considered inappropriate. I could only say something simple like I miss you. ANd he still wouldn be able to write back. It's just so frustrating.
Yeah... I'm thankful that my parents don't spoil me too. Most of the things I have in my room right now are the things that I bought using the money I saved from the allowance I got from my mom every month. It makes me proud to call them mine because they're really mine.
Thank you, I am trying to sort through things right now. there is a part of me that wants to just leave Cole so I wont hurt him or anything. But then I am just not to sure about it. I mean what if after 2 years he changes his mind. I mean it's not that I am going to marry Cole or anything, but right now he is all that is keeping me intact and I am too afraid to lose that.
Maybe you can help me out then, you seem to be pretty full of wisdom. Just read my journal entry Am I a bad Person? and tell me what you think. I'd really appreciate it.