even if you hated him, he was still your dad. You wouldn't be here if it weren't for him, so there's always going to be a part of you that loved him, you know?
All I know is that everybody grieves differently, and you're going to go through phases about this. I didn't break down officially about my dad until a few weeks ago. I'm here though, even if we're complete strangers. Sometimes it's good to talk to an unbiased party.
Grr. It's so hot outside. :/