July 2nd, 2014 at 05:57am
Only Exception came on the radio today. Almost cried, but I was on the bus.
Didn't want any extra attention, especially since I was singing along.
...Annalese.. I miss you. So much.
Here come the tears. \:
I swear to you I will be strong.
For you.
I've changed so much.
Oh, Annalese..
I wish you were here.
it's been 3 years, and wow have things changed. first of all, i mean, im a guy! i figured it out recently, and... it's good. it's really good. im slowly but surely coming out and accepting myself. i've dated tons of people, been through heartbreak. got out of an abusive relationship of 3 years. i reached out for help with my depression. i'm so much better. things are better. i'm happy, and, i think you'd be glad.
i hope everyone who knew you misses you as much as i do. you deserve to be loved and missed. im not grieving anymore, though, and i dont think you'd want me to. you were always happy, no matter what. i'm so glad, lese. i'm glad you were happy, because i guess i kind of understand, now. happy is good.
i hope that your spirit has gone onto bigger and better places. i hope that, wherever you are, you're living a better life. not to say this one wasnt good, just... one without cancer, one without the bullshit. i love you, annalese, from an entirely platonic sense of that phrase. you were the greatest, even if your time knowing me was short. don't forget to keep smiling, love.
--River <>