Bloody Phang 16 / Comments

haha thanks and i'm..... well.... fine, but the hair color got a bit messed up the top is normal but the bottom accidentally turned black but everyone else likes it :D

haha ok :D and thanks :)

sent what??? cuz so far i've gotten all of your messages :/ i'm getting cinfused mine is still the sexychica one

huh??? no i've had the same one.... now i'm confuzzled :P

jelly or jell-o???? hahaha noe i want some too XP and i have no idea don't ask me!!!!! i'm the middle man here!!!! :D

my friend chris asked me out a few weeks ago nothing much oh i have my first gymnastics meet tomorrow!!! i'm uber excited about that :) and my friend krysta says hi and asks if you guys have strwaberry jello there..... don't even ask why she asked that i don't know what goes on in that head of hers XD

heyy bud :D what's up lately ?

I've logged on at 8.15 am

WOW she must be great...I thought that anyway because she help you.

whoa!!! what time is it there??!! it's 7:20 PM here!!! this time difference thing is confusing :/ and my mom is making me mad she's all like "Katelyn! he could be some grown man trying to get you to run away with him to some strange place and then kill you!!" uh, no mom i seriously doubt he is. he's my friend and i trust him!!! have a little faith not all people in this lifetime are creepers trying to kill kids!" and that was about the time i retreated to my room :P

well that sound fun!!! i wish i could go to a friends house but it's a school night :P

well don't look at me! i have no idea how i got him to listen... but he did and now...... i can't picture my life without his emails or comments :) he's become my everything... and when i wake up in the morning i jump out of bed to check to see if he's sent me an email or commented on my page :) he's just.... a part of who i am now

Tell me about her?

good! you better, or else i'll have to leave my studies and come over there and kick your butt mister!!! hahaha just kidding but it's good you're getting out :) breathe in the fresh air and out the carbon dioxide :D as Asher Roth once rapped "do somethin' crazy! do somethin crazy!" haha :) how is everything there?

Yeah it was great like it was before everything before colby! before you got sick. Katelyn seem wonderful I thanked her for the way you are now. Before I don't know it scared me. now it like you are you again.

Hey Bea! Mel told me your on ummm okay I don't remember the name but yor on treatments again. THANK YOU! I'm coming around after school you can show me what you've done to your bike. I got the job!
How are you? You seem better, more lively. But I've been wrong before.
I'll see you later
Love Ash

if there was any possible way in this life to tell you how happy you've made me, just by restarting the treatment, i would tell you... but there are no such words in this life... the second i read that you started up the treatment and that you hadn't given up hope i jumped around my room screaming at the top of my lungs and crying for the joy that has filled me... if i could ever tell you how proud i am, i would... and i bet your parents and all of your loved ones who may have left you are so proud that you've turned your life around, i have a feeling in my heart they are... i think this is fate bringing us someone else who was meant to save one another from the hell that had surrounded us! keep fighting! please, if not for me, or yourself fight for your legacy... fight for those who did give up, fight because, in this life YOU MATTER!!!! you mean so much to me that i can't explain it, and if i were to lose you..... i'd be a blind man wandering an unknown path, not knowing which way to turn and who not to trust.... you are my everything, let no one tell you other wise :)

Bernie, even though i'm thousands of miles away and i barely know the person you are.... you are important.

you have touched my life like no other person could dream of. when i finished reading you're note to me and even when i was reading it, i wished with all my heart that i could be there with you. right this second.

i don't care if i miss school, i can make it up, if i'm away from my friends and family, we can skype eachother, or even sports, there's always next year.

i cried when i realized that i may never get to see your smiling face or hear you laugh over a dumb joke or watch you gaze at something spectacular. and my heart aches even now.

i never cry, like EVER and now i'm bawling like no other. and for a moment, i couldn't breathe, speak, or even feel like i was alive...

the world slowed down around me as i read your letter... not in a bad way, but in a way that no one will ever be able to understand.

love is a very tricky thing, some believe in love at first sight, i don't... you should love a person when you get to know them, their likes and dislikes even their habits :) love takes time, but the love and compassion, as a friend of course, i feel for you is like no other bond...

it's one in a trillion.... just like you....

and losing 5 grandparents, and three friends to cancer is quite a downer... but i don't dwell on the past and the bad that happened, i remember the way we used to joke around, the crazy stories we'd tell eachother and the football games we would watch during every visit...

by losing someone, you gain a better outlook on what really matters... before i "met" you, i was conceded and only cared about what happened in a throwing distance of me, all while you sat at home and had this terrible burden you've had to carry with you all your life...

i'm a better person because of you, people have noticed a big difference in me... before i met you anyone who dared insult me would get their butts kicked by yours truly, but now i just turn the other cheek and move on...

if i wrote a 50 page essay on how much you mean to me and how you've affected my life in the greatest way, it still wouldn't be long enough... not even near close.

there are no such words in this, or the next, life that could be good enough to explain how i feel....

you have become my rock... every morning now i wake up and check my ibba page and email just waiting to get a message or comment back from you... sometimes i start to lose hope but then i keep telling myself, "Maybe tomorrow" or the next day or the next!!!

i look forward each and every day to hear from you and what you have to say, because what you say matters to me, and it always will..
when i'm fifty or even 25 i will look at this page every day and i will remember just what you've taught me, and i will remember every word that was written evry line that was composed, forever.

Bernard Louis Evslin, you are my rock, my everything, you are the reason i get up every morning and get through the day. One day I hope we will be able to meet in person whether it be in California or even Australia, I don't care.

I would go to the end of the world, back, and go back there again just for you if I had to. I would give you a kidney, liver, bone marrow just to keep you going. Because when you keep going, i keep going.

Katie read me!
I'm going away for the weekend....I'll be back tuesday. Have a nice weekend

well i don't think you should stop looking at other treatments :) i mean you've got to keep trying until you've exhausted all of your resources :/ but i can't believe you think i'm the one who needs the help.... you've already given me the strength to help me move on :) and i'm grateful for that :) and a transplant??? for what? bone marrow?