No one knows what to tell me, and yet, I understand. Because no one has lived my life. I know someone out there has a more fucked up life then me, but still. Its my life, and what i've lived is what has fucked me up the most. I'm a fuck-up and no one can ever change that.
she will never trust me like she used to when i was a mere child. Never. I've fucked up to much.
This whole thing is sending me back into depression. Something I thought I'd left behind 2 years ago. Everything with Tyler and shit is messing me up. If I was with him i'd be so happy, but i'm not, so i'm miserable.
i know I can. But i cant change everything I fucked up in. I cant change the fact that everything i once loved is gone. and i cant change the fact that my mother still has no trust in me, or the fact that my father barley knows who I am.
Aww you're sweet. :D Nope. I strive for secrecy. I think it makes me more..mysterious. hahaha I'll probably give you some tantalizing clues like a picture of my shoes or my kitten. haha Eventually I will put one up when I know who my real friends are, you know?...and when I take a good picture of myself. :D
XoXo Sam
speak to you soon hun
love ya x